Showing posts with label covert narcissists. Show all posts
Showing posts with label covert narcissists. Show all posts

Saturday, 9 February 2019

False Claims Vs Truth – Reality check on the story of Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus


This is a response from the Kosmic Fusion Faculty to the continued attack and slander committed by two disgruntled individuals who were officially dissociated from our movement in April 2018. This explanation is meant to provide information to maintain clarity, and is not intended to slander or sabotage any individuals mentioned. As you may be aware, Kosmic Fusion was attacked by two ex-volunteers, who were backed by Journalists Tony Wall and Steve Kilgallon of New Zealand. 

This response also shines a light on the anti-cult, media and church nexus and how they work in connivance to tarnish genuine organizations and movements.


Sunday, 20 January 2019

Narcissists are pathological liars


We were in a small village in India with shops where they sold beautiful local artisan products. In one of the shops, Iphigenie starts whining she really wants this big orange shawl but doesn’t have any money. She put on a full show including a sad puppy face. Feeling for her at the time, i offered to borrow her the money or even buy her the shawl as a gift and she quickly took it. Later on, i found out Iphigenie had a habit of fleecing money from people all the time and i wasn't the only one whom she had approached in India.

Shortly after the India Pilgrimage in February 2017, Iphigenie had borrowed 1000 dollars from Renu under false pretences. She had made it appear that it was for the Ashram, but that was a lie. Iphigenie used it to pay off personal expenses, such as her car loan. Telling lies and deceiving others is what narcissists do. She had also borrowed a big amount from another FiT whom had made sure this was recorded on paper and witness by a third party. Guess deep down this FiT knew the kind of person she was dealing with.


Interestingly, when i met Iphigenie in Auckland in 2015 and saw her apartment, she was renting in a fancy neighbourhood and she must be paying at least 300 a week for it. Also noticed how all the food items she had were expensive organic items bought from health food stores. She was living a life larger than her income based on relief teaching and as a belly dance teacher due to her own grandiose.

Iphigenie had brought her money problems to Sree Maa shri Ji and Sree Maa Shri Ji being the living embodiment of Grace and Compassion had recommended her to Ritu/Nandini so she could learn how to do hair extensions and work in Nandini’s shop for a steady income. Instead of being grateful and seizing this wonderful opportunity, Iphigenie played dirty games, pitching Nandini’s staff against Nandini and causing discord amongst the staff. No wonder Nandini had to let her go.

Iphigenie’s belly dance business was going nowhere, but she claimed she stopped it so she could dedicate her time and energy more fully to Kosmic Fusion… Hey, where have we heard this before? Right, with Irene/Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus in Sydney who chose the retrenchment package of about 40,000 dollars instead of a new job when the University where she was working went through a restructuring. She claimed she quit her job so she could dedicate her time more to Kosmic Fusion, but in reality, she was investing this money in her own business called Holistic Freedom Wellness Centre and another sole trader business she had set up with Hanuman. Narcissists have a funny way of twisting everything to suit their story and make themselves look like a victim. But the truth is, Irene/Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus was stealing Kosmic Fusion data (personal contacts of people) and copyright for her own benefit.

While Irene was hiring some expensive internet consultant for 20,000 dollars or so, Iphigenie bought some expensive "build your own business package" by Marie Forleo. They are free to do this, of course, but they can’t later on claim they were giving up everything for Kosmic Fusion when they were only doing so for their own interests and business ventures.




For your information, all the other FiTS/volunteers still had and have their full time jobs so they can look after their families and themselves and take responsibility in life.

Iphigenie was also eyeing the money from her father, whom she didn’t like and had even accused of sexually abusing her as a child, but she has no qualms about taking money from him… To me this shows the true character of a person.

The real question is, if Iphigenie felt Sree Maa Shri Ji’s teachings were not resonating with her as she now says, why did she stay in the FiT Programme? And why did she come on the India Pilgrimage when she was struggling with money? There were others who hadn’t come to India due to work commitments or other reasons why they couldn’t make it. We were never forced to do or pay for anything. At the end of each year we were told explicitly to reflect if this path was still for us and write letters only if we wished to stay. Some people have left after they felt the FiT Programme was no longer for them without any judgement or any questions asked. Iphigenie’s claims she was forced to stay are blatant lies. She stayed on as she was on a mission to destroy Kosmic Fusion due to her pathological envy and jealousy. If she can’t have it, nobody can.



She came to the Ashram uninvited through manipulating one of the other FiTs Jeeya and was the one contributing least to the Ashram House rent, yet now claims she has given so much. How? What? When? She was causing harassment in the Ashram and purposefully bullying and gaslighting Jeeya and Rita to create chaos and stop their progress. 
She even had the audacity to bill the Murti of Swaminarayan Bhagwan for the Prasad. While living in the Ashram she purposefully forgets to host Cosmic Meetup in Auckland twice, leaving the ones who had come for the meditation stranded.

The whole time she was the representative of Kosmic Fusion in NZ, people were leaving; from a vibrant community of about 25-30 people, the numbers were reduced to two in New Zealand because of her sick covert games and sowing seeds of doubt. What giving is she talking about? Her claims are completely baseless and an outright lie. Everywhere she has gone she has left a path of destruction and chaos. This is exactly what a covert malignant narcissist does. They lie, cheat, purposefully withhold information and twist the truth.

Sree Maa Shri Ji has been the ONLY ONE giving non-stop, literally 24/7 of her time, energy and effort and all Iphigenie has done is misuse Sree Maa’s Kindness, Compassion and Grace.
i urge anyone not to fall for Iphigenie’s sob stories and story of victimhood. This is not a nice person, this is someone who uses and abuses, slyly, covertly and insidiously. i have witnessed and experienced this myself. And like a narcissist when their true face is out, they don’t take responsibility but instead take revenge and try to smear the other party and project on them the things they have done themselves. 


Because of Sree Maa's super nova empathy and tireless support, even Iphigenie has had her moments where she was able to reflect on her actions but she fell back into playing the victim game. Iphigenie is trying to portray herself as a victim and put labels on Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji as she is still hellbent on destruction. Do not be deceived by her superficial charm or claims that she is a spiritual person. Do not fall for her lies. Please do your own investigation and read the blogs of my Kalyan Mitras Jeeya and Nandini who were living in NZ and also lived with her in the Ashram House. Feel free to contact me with any question.


P.S.
i am standing up for the truth as there are too many people being victimised by narcissists in today’s world and silence is not okay. i failed to raise my voice on the FiT Programme due to my own limitations, but will not keep quiet anymore.

Thursday, 29 November 2018

Joy’s modus operandi: playing the martyr


If there is one thing Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus does well it is to play the victim. Came across an image that i feel describes what Irene/Joy has displayed to the T in the nearly 6 years that i have known her. Have to admit, i fell for the mask for a long time, but no longer.





Playing the martyr and the victim was and still is her number one game. And her best performance came after she was asked to leave Kosmic Fusion….

Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus joined Kosmic Fusion end of 2012. She immediately started volunteering after she did the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop and very soon started taking over the scene, telling others what to do and pointing out other’s mistakes (or what she perceived as their mistake).
This was also the case at the Newcastle expo in August 2013 that was organised by the volunteers themselves, where she would be domineering and push her way irrespective of the efforts or views of others.

i made the mistake of failing to hold my space and heed Sree Maa’s guidance to not form small groups and pulled away from Joy towards another volunteer and played right into Joy’s hands. She used this to play the victim with Clarito, saying that nobody is supporting her. Clarito is a true empath and a gentleman and stepped up to support her. She also claimed her English is not so good to woo Clarito in further and started to manipulate the scene so that she would always end up working together with him, fencing him off from others. She would fill his ears about the others, often pulling the poor me card and always adding in how much she is sacrificing for Kosmic Fusion so that Clarito would be on her side and do her bidding.

She actually had problems with every single one of the other volunteers, but of course it was all their problem, not hers and it was very stressful for poor Joy to have to deal with everyone, but she did it anyway “for the sake of Kosmic Fusion”. This was the story she was telling herself and publicly. Please note, prior to Joy joining the group dynamics were fine, but after she joined it started going downhill fast.


19/09/14, 20:03 - Meera: How are you feeling after last night's call? 💖💖💖
19/09/14, 20:16 - Komal Irene Kuo: Most of the time people have issues with me 😅 Maa said it's competition... had some issues with Elliaa, Siann (even this year mbs Sydney the seminar meditation)  Sheree ...Nat used to have bad attitudes to me... they're okay now. .. but now a little bit with Jabeen. ... 😅 sounds like my problem but not really. ..... maybe they feel I'm threatening to them and react. ...and that affects me. .. but now they know where I'm coming from and know who is the one taking responsibility all the way through
 (Iphigenie was called Meera at that time, Joy was called Komal)



She was always priding herself on her high standard of volunteering and if she corrected others it was only because they would not meet “her high standards”. She was constantly portraying herself to other FiTs as a martyr who was giving up her health (she had high blood pressure), her sleep and time with her son and husband to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion. In reality, she was pursuing her ambition of becoming a famous and wealthy healer – her self-proclaimed example was Marie Forleo - under the guise of a hardworking volunteer and later on devotee. She even made it look like she gave up her job so that she could serve Kosmic Fusion but let us look at the real story here.

She was working at the library at Sydney University. When there was a restructuring, employees could choose to either apply for one of the new jobs available or opt for a retrenchment package (in her case about $50,000). Joy opted for the latter which was her own personal choice, nobody asked her to. All the other volunteers still have a job and happily volunteer in their own time.

You can see a message that she wrote but made Hanuman send to the Sydney FiTs group that clearly illustrates the big martyr’s mask she was wearing. She had fully groomed and brainwashed Clarito/Hanuman by that time so that he had lost sight of what was really going on.

26/10/16, 02:38 - Hanuman: Jai Swaminarayan 🙏 🙏 🙏
Coming together as FIT and we all making history and paving for
Kosmic Fusion and working as One. Wish to clear everything out
before the end of October and be straight forward express my sharing
and feedback on what have been observing of late. As we taking on
more responsibilities and learning as this is our training ground
thus would like to make some awareness to be considerate of other
FITs as we have to think of Kosmic Fusion first.
My observation of Komal, she have always step up and take
responsibilities ever since 2014 when everyone still considering
about volunteering and or have not put their hands up yet like
mySelf,... it was a great training ground and a lots bricks and bats
blessing from SreeMaaShriJi. But through her passion and as she can
be black and white and protective of Kosmic Fusion and being zealous
– and it may come as a bit extremist to others and dislike by
others…
Have witness some of accomplishment Komal have since then and always
try to lead with example and by putting Kosmic Fusion first, even
with the cause of her health. Have witness one time after attending
Kosmic Fusion exhibition event, i have to take her in the hospital
and where she felt dying…. But thanks to SreeMaaShriJi and FITs
sharing of QVSWPP everything went great. There are more occasions i
could share… there are many occasions where there are only few hour
sleep including now, where Kosmic Fusion have to come first even
when Komal’s husband and son who still crave her attention have to
be put aside.
 (…)
Since early 2015 Komal have hired a marketing consultant specialist
in internet and learn what need to be learned to build a website
template in consideration of Practitioner, Kosmic Fusion, and FITs.
Komal have invested $20K+ and also hired an American marketing
consultant and spend a lot of time and efforts to come up with the
write up and marketing materials in her website and flyers. Have
assisted as I could see the bigger picture and make sure that i
could support Kosmic Fusion by supporting Komal. She pain-stackingly
created her website Holistic Freedom with all the consultant at hand
and work on content line by line. Put a lot of pride in her work and
its content.
(Joy was called Komal at the time)

This also mentions what she had actually done with the retrenchment money, contrary to her claims that she spent it on Kosmic Fusion. She hired an internet consultant for $20k+ and also a marketing expert to help with her own website and marketing efforts. Please have a look at her Holistic Freedom Wellness Centre website, do you see any gratitude or mention of Sree Maa Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion? A sample of Joy’s social media messages below (click on it to enlarge it). Can you spot Kosmic Fusion or Sree Maa Shri Ji anywhere? Can see a lot of #Komal and #Hanuman but no gratitude or homage to Sree Maa Shri Ji. 

It is also clear that i was sleeping and had my blinkers on because i did not spot any of this at the time. Now it is very obvious, she is passing off and using Sree Maa’s Teachings for her own monetary gain and claim to fame. Interesting detail: notice the big banner of her and Hanuman in the background. Another interesting detail: Joy manipulated one of the 5D++ Pulsars who is a professional photographer and got him to take pictures of her and Hanuman for free in exchange for a few QVSWPP sessions.








Without Sree Maa Shri Ji, we wouldn’t be able to receive the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. It is Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Supreme Bhakti to and union with Sarvopari Swaminarayan Bhagwan, that we most Graciously receive as the QVSWPP. We were Facilitators in Training not Facilitators at all which Joy claimed herself to be. We were only allowed to practice Akashic Records Neutralising sessions, and still very much learning in every which way as Bhakti is not something you can buy off the shelf. Where is the question of commercializing it offering sessions packages? 

5/10/2016, 5:47 pm - Komal: Normally the energy exchange is $150 per session, but we have 3
sessions package $360, 5 sessions package $500 or if you would like to have long term sessions
such as once every few months etc. Then $88 per session
5/10/2016, 5:48 pm - Komal: You can include you and your mum as one package
5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Komal: Or you can try one session first. ... which is $120 we offer special for
the first time
5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Komal: Then you can decide
5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Polly: Hmm ok
5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Polly: Thanks for the details Komal
5/10/2016, 5:50 pm - Polly: How do you count me and my mum as one pkg?

It was Joy’s unbridled ambition for money and fame that drove her to approach Pulsars and innocent people for paid sessions. She baits her victims with a free session or a discounted session and then reels them in further by using marketing techniques like above. And isn’t it ironic that the one person who was struggling with money is offering the abundance circle? Doubt there was any love in her heart for the mission of Kosmic Fusion, which is to take the QVSWPP to as many souls as possible. To her it was a business venture she tried to abuse and make money off it.  



This was of course not how she portrayed it. Her favorite sentence was always she was doing it for Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. She misused the name of Sree Maa Shri Ji at every opportunity. This is also how she managed to manipulate Clarito/Hanuman and his dedication and devotion to Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. She was and is a master at impression management. She would carefully curate her physical appearance, always looking well dressed and with make-up on – you can see her still do the same in her current youtube videos.


She was actually carefully copying Sree Maa’s dressing style, hair style and even the way Sree Maa moves, as if she believed that by copying Sree Maa that way she would become Sree Maa.  She would made it appear to other FiTs that she was very close to Sree Maa Shri Ji and knew what Sree Maa Shri Ji wanted. She also made it appear she had permission for all her business ventures, little did we know this was not the case. 
She would act very soft and nice in front of Sree Maa Shri Ji and in the public view but to the FiTs, especially in Sydney she would act like a bully and a big manipulator.



Joy also displayed double standards. While she was promoting and i quote "Bhakti Bhaav Transmissions" and shamelessly stealing from Kosmic Fusion, she made a big scene when two other FiTS in Sydney printed a Bhakti Bhaav flyer without permission. In fact, she manipulated the whole situation in Sydney setting the other FiTs up and then when the other FiTs reacted she would portray herself as a victim that had to suffer at the hands of the other FiTs who were doing her and Kosmic Fusion wrong (you can read more about it in this blog).
Sharing a sample message of how Joy played the victim at the hands of her fellow FiT, whilst she was the one who was stirring the pot. i was also on the website team and had no problems with Jwala at all.



The Reunion in July 2017 was an opportunity for all of us to truly reflect, honestly look how we had contributed to the failure of the FiT Programme and to sort out any issues amongst us. Joy did nothing of the sorts, she did nothing but blame shifting and pointing fingers, of course in the style she knows best: by playing the victim. This time she was a victim of Clarito/Hanuman, the very person whom she had manipulated and exploited financially, mentally and emotionally for years. Shortly after the Reunion her mask fell off completely. As she was still not willing to be honest and admit to all that she has done, she was kindly asked to leave end of 2017. She did briefly reflect on her actions by the Grace and supreme empathy of beloved Sree Maa who had awakened the voice of conscience in her, but somehow fell back into victim mode big time.


After she left is when she planned her best Oscar material performance till date, because narcissists cannot stand their true face being exposed. They will go to extreme lengths to protect their fake face, and their favourite tactic to do so is: a smear campaign.

She first removed her name from the company and businesses she had set up with Hanuman without informing him, leaving him with all the debts. Debts the company had racked up due to her unbridled ambitions. She then changed all the passwords to the joint email accounts she had with Hanuman.

Her and Iphigenie Amoutzias, another narcissists who was asked to leave Kosmic Fusion, joined hands and started a smear campaign.

They blatantly lied to some cult watch organization and to the two so-called investigative journalists who failed to investigate and were used as flying monkeys in an article to slander the name and character of beloved Sree Maa and Shri Ji, claiming that Kosmic Fusion is a cult. Narcs can act very convincingly mimicking emotions and these two are very good at their game, i was fooled for years. However, the whole article doesn’t hold up to the truth at all. Each one of the FiTs have written extensively about the bias, the many incorrect facts and absolute lies in the paid smear campaign article. This picture captures and sums it up it perfectly what they have done:



Joy is now portraying herself as a person who was completely broken down in a cult and exploited and abused by cult leaders but then miraculously with the help of her loving husband and cult watch people was able to rise and find herself again. Let me check, do the above pictures and anything shared so far in my blog looks like she was beaten down or exploited? Not at all, quite the opposite. This is exactly what narcissists do, they switch everything around and make themselves look like the victim and the real victim like the perpetrator. If there was anyone who was domineering, controlling and after money and power, it was Joy.

It was her who had breached Sree Maa’s trust and stabbed Sree Maa Shri Ji in the back but after her true face came out lo and behold she is telling lies and making it look like the other way around.



Sree Maa had given us a beautiful platform to volunteer, never ever was there any control. Sree Maa always led by example and trained everyone to be a leader themselves, to take responsibility for one’s own actions, work with integrity, honesty and authenticity and move towards embodying one’s highest potential, the Brahmrup. Sree Maa had graced us with and countless beautiful Discourses explaining in English the most precious spiritual teachings from renowned scriptures like the Sreemad Bhagwad Gita, Purans, Vedas and everything Sree Maa has taught was in line with the Vachanamrut, the most respected spiritual scripture in the Swaminarayan Sampraday where the words that Swaminarayan Bhagwan spoke about 200 years ago have been written down, Sree Maa’s isht-Bhagwan. This is studied and followed by MILLIONS of Swaminarayan Satsangis around the world.

Sree Maa is the living embodiment of Grace and Compassion, giving everyone who came a chance to move beyond their small self into their Brahmrup, including Joy and Iphigenie as Sree Maa looks only at one’s Atma and sees Bhagwan sitting within the Atma. Where in the world does even the question of this being a cult come in? Only in the head of a narcissists who projects their wrong-doings onto their victims.




Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus then started a youtube channel, cleverly making use of a famous singer called Dimash so that she could benefit of people who like his music and would look for it online. She had reinvented herself (read: put on a new mask) as a spiritual adviser with 10 years of experience. She also bought 8000 fake followers for her youtube channel to make it look like she is popular and knows what she is talking about, guess she has learned a few tricks from the internet consultant she hired. She then starts up a FB group called “Awakening with Joy”, adding random people to her group where she is presenting herself as a a spiritual adviser who is helping people to “raise their vibration for a better new earth living”, but in reality is preying on innocent victims as her next narcissistic supply for sympathy, attention and money. If you look at the conditions of this Facebook group, you will see that members are not allowed to share posts offering their services, only Joy can offer hers… Does anyone smell a rat here?

This is a person who has shown no remorse, no empathy and no integrity in all the 6 years that i have known her. Who has lied and back-stabbed her ultimate well-wisher who had welcomed her with open arms and given her every chance. She is after attention, after money and fame. She is a fantastic actress, but if you hang around her long enough, you will see her for who she truly is.



P.S. Sharing this to stand up for the truth because silence is not ok

Tuesday, 11 September 2018

Sick with envy part 3 & why narcissist are drawn to empaths

Sree Maa Shri Ji are the epitome of Compassion and Grace and believe in the potential of the Absolute in everyone. Sree Maa lovingly and graciously welcomed anyone to the FiT Programme who wrote a letter to Sree Maa Shri Ji expressing how they were ready and willing to volunteer and serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion - to share the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) with as many souls as possible. Sree Maa supported all of the FiTs tirelessly no matter their issues to move into embodying our Brahmroop. Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias too wrote a letter, but in truth she was on a whole other mission.  

Dallia/Iphigenie kept asking for a group in New Zealand after seeing the buzz in Australia where a group of volunteers was very active. Sree Maa Shri Ji therefore did a few events in New Zealand and personally did a few intro evenings and the 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop in October 2013 and Jan 2014 but after seeing Iphigenie's pathological behaviour didn't personally appear anywhere in NZ events. Therefore in a way Sree Maa Shri Ji are supremely gracious to let her realize that her envious and jealous nature's need to destroy will only get onto her demerits accounts. 

From the time Iphigenie was presenting herself as the face of Kosmic Fusion in NZ, the number of participants attending the meetings reduced drastically: from about 25 before she took on the leading role to approx. only  3-4 participants were regularly showing up. She was cunningly driven away all the 5D++ Pulsars and Auckland Meet Up participants by spreading rumours that Kosmic Fusion was a “cult” and by isolating all participants from Sree Maa Shri Ji. Iphigenie even tried to turn the Meetups into a pick-up place, as she would regularly show up with inappropriate clothing and try to flirt with all the male participants. She was also misrepresenting the key philosophies of Kosmic Fusion - she would call Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse the “Source Energy”, which was a term made up and used by her. All the people who had joined through Sree Maa's efforts and the group she was given, she made sure to destroy it. Her now claiming and acting like she is a victim actually proves she is beyond psychopath. 



Spreading her poison as much as possible

She was creating havoc within the New Zealand team, in a way only a malignant narcissist knows how to with triangulations, gaslighting and psychic warfare. Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias was twisting Sree Maa Shri Ji’s words constantly when talking to participants and 5D++ Pulsars. For example, Iphigenie had told Sarala that “QVSWPP would protect you 24/7” when Sree Maa Shri Ji had clearly said “QVSWPP would be with you 24/7”. Iphigenie statements created some miscommunications with Sarala, however Sarala still joined the FiT training in May 2015. Iphigenie was clearly not happy about this, as she went around telling other NZ 5D++ Pulsars and FiT that Sarala had a “dark and dense” energy in her house, and letting everyone know that Sarala had a birthday party but “no one turned up for it”, Iphigenie had made sure of that. Sarala’s relationships and communications with the other NZ FiT were slowly getting severed through Iphigenie's meddling and eventually she left.

Early 2016, the Ashram Project was set up by two NZ FiT, Nandini and Jeeya. It was a trial to see what it would take to run an Ashram based on the Vision Sree Maa had shared about a physical place where people could come and have spontaneous realization of themselves and their Atma. Sree Maa had graciously agreed to support the initiative and to move into the Ashram. As soon as Iphigenie heard about it, she immediately began showing signs of jealousy and looked upset as was unable to accept that the Ashram Project had been established without her involvement.

In November 2016, Iphigenie moved into the Ashram after inviting herself to join, she literally planted herself in the Ashram using Jeeya even though she had received most loving guidance from Sree Maa that she was not yet ready. Only after she sorts out her jealousy issues and is debt free would she be ready. Still she forced her way into the Ashram. Please read the 
Gracious message from Sree Maa sent to Dallia/Iphigenie/Meera, which she told nobody about and completely ignored...


Immediately after Iphigenie moved into the Ashram, she started to create fights between Nandini and Jeeya, creating distress in the Ashram Project. Iphigenie was also trying to break Jeeya’s self-confidence and self-esteem by putting Jeeya down, lecturing Jeeya for not being organised, correcting Jeeya’s every Seva and making Jeeya feel confused all the time. Gaslighting this is called. Iphigenie was playing with Jeeya’s guilt and kept asking Jeeya, “why are you still around? Why don’t you go back to Singapore” and even saying things like “if I am Sree Maa Shri Ji, I would not have you around” just to implicate Sree Maa Shri Ji. Iphigenie would purposely ruin Sree Maa’s clothing in the laundry and not wash and rinse the brass plates after using the toxic brass polish. Items including jewellery disappeared while Iphigenie was in the Ashram, just to name a few things. 




Iphigenie has received countless chances to change and much much guidance and support. Sree Maa had even graced her with the precious name Meera, the name of a humble and renowned devotee of Lord Krishna, to help her move past her old self but Iphigenie never let go of her vicious intentions and never worked to overcome her deep-rooted issues. Instead she worked hard to cause problems in the FiT group and sowed seeds of doubts everywhere. Narcissists are masters at this and they do so in a very insidious fashion. It is only in hindsight that for me the picture is clear after everything came out. Iphigenie was a true snake in the grass, slowly and surely spreading her poison into everyone, causing disruption, fights amongst the NZ FiTs and harassment to Sree Maa.

Why was Iphigenie so obsessed with Sree Maa? Narcissists are drawn to empathetic people. Narcissists know those people have a conscience and will go over and above themselves and if need come sacrifice their own peace to uplift them. The reason why Sree Maa was selected by Iphigenie, Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Awakening (as she calls herself now) and various other narcissists is because they all knew that Sree Maa will help until the end and they can get away with their tantrums or drama or whatever games they are playing. Sree Maa was surrounded by narcissists in the Ashram House but being the most empathetic and kind Sree Maa would allow the abuse to happen and constantly guide them to help them move beyond their issues. This is true selflessness. And absolute greatness.

You can hear in this audio clip how beautifully Sree Maa Shri Ji is giving a discourse to Iphigenie about envy and that it is important to overcome this dynamic energy within. Sree Maa gently mentions the example of someone manipulating fellow students to make sure they don't go to the campus party, to help Iphigenie reflect on what she had done to Sarala (see above). 



However, Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias did absolutely nothing to change, quite the opposite and eventually the rest of the FiTs voted her out (see also this public statement). She had not come for her Soul, her sole intention was to destroy as her jealousy and envy completely consumed her. You can hear her own admittance to this in this blog by one of my Kalyan Mitras.

Read Sick with Envy part 1 and Sick with envy part 2

PS

This blog is only intended to openly share about my spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme in particular, where some who joined turned out to be frauds and meddlers. This is not in judgement but in discernment, as i have learned that in my failure to remain aware and discern i have enabled those with vicious agendas and toxic behaviours and this doesn't serve any soul. And unfortunately, narcissists will be drawn to spiritual circles in particular as usually they can find a huge unsuspecting narcissistic supply of compassionate and empathetic people there. 

Sunday, 19 August 2018

Wolf in sheep clothing


Being the non-doer was the crux of the matter and seemingly simple. Yet have learned how the shades of the doer, the ego can slyly step in and play up. When the doer is in the front seat it spells trouble and when the doer has completely taken you over, disaster is inevitable. This i have experienced and seen with my own eyes in the FiT Programme – a priceless Gift of Awakenin Transformation Transcendence where Sree Maa Shri Ji has been Graciously waking us up to the Absolute Truth, lovingly and tirelessly supporting and guiding us in every possible way to move beyond the small self/the ego with its dark shades into our higher potential, the True SELF to ultimately reach where we truly belong in seva to and union with the One and Only One.

Sree Maa started the trial FiT Programme in October 2013 (completely complimentary) out of compassion, kindness and trust based on the requests, questions and keenness displayed by a few Practitioners, myself included, to volunteer and be part of Kosmic Fusion Mission to take it to many more. We wrote letters to Sree Maa at the FiT Intake Ceremony, held in Auckland New Zealand about why we felt we were ready to become a Facilitator and how would we contribute to the Mission of Kosmic Fusion. Remember when reading my letter to Sree Maa Shri Ji could not keep my eyes dry. What i didn’t know is that some people wrote a letter that wasn’t truthful…




Stealth mode

Have not only seen the doer play up in myself, but in its pinnacle form in one of the other volunteers who was also part of the FIT Programme, Irene/Joy/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Vottus. Straight when she started volunteering, she was quite domineering and wanted things to be done her way. In fact, she turned out to be the biggest doer with a hidden agenda that was so twisted, i still find it hard to get my head around it. Her agenda was to shamelessly replace Sree Maa Shri Ji and turn a sacred selfless mission into a profitable business for herself where she could be the face – she was completely driven by greed and ambition. Combine these vices with lack of ethics and conscience and you have got a toxic cocktail that wreaked havoc in the FiT team in Sydney and in the whole FIT Programme. But for most of the years while the FIT Training was happening, the other volunteers including me had no clue as Irene operated in stealth mode... Covert narcissist indeed epitomize a wolf in sheep clothing.

Can also recommend you read this entry of Simran's blog




P.S.
Am sharing my experiences as it may be helpful for others who are going through a similar experience.  





Friday, 27 July 2018

Why this blog?


Why this blog?

Thank you for coming to this blog, which is my personal sharing of what happened to us – a small group of volunteers who were part of a most precious FiT Programme. i am not a psychologist but have done extensive research into narcissism after what happened to try to understand and learn.

This includes learning about my own weaknesses and oblivion that gave the covert manipulators such a platform; for the longest time i had no idea what these toxic people were up to and how they were using all of us as a supply.

What i am sharing is my personal experience and analysis of what happened. The toxicity some of the people in the group displayed is of such a concern that through this sharing i hope to make others aware.

The ones with toxic agendas had been telling our mentor Sree Maa Shri Ji since 2013 Oct as well as the rest of us that they want to serve, they really want to take the work of Kosmic Fusion to the world. i took their words at face value and trusted them.

As it turned out, instead of serving they were operating under the radar pursuing their own selfish and destructive agendas. Yet there were given many chances to transform. Key part of the FiT Programme was looking at the shades of the small self, to be able to awaken, transform and transcend the small self, embody the Self to finally attain the Brahmroop (SELF).

Sree Maa was showing so much Grace and Compassion to help them look at the shades they were holding and making them see how they were completely out of touch with reality. Unfortunately, these toxic people continued to play games.

If Sree Maa Shri Ji wouldn’t have stopped them, they would have actually been working with the people in the world by using the platform of Kosmic Fusion. When a place was reached where it was absolutely not okay for Sree Maa Shri Ji to have them use the platform of Kosmic Fusion, they were removed. 



Typical of narcissists, they colluded to run a smear campaign to slander Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion in the media.

Today they are out there and based on the patterns we have seen they are going to get other people. Now it is the responsibility of others to do their homework before interacting with them, because their track record doesn’t look very promising. However, we wish them all the best and we wish they’d change.

Throughout this blog i refer to certain admittance these toxic people have given about their behaviour and motives. It is the utmost Grace of Shreeji Maharaj and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that we even succeeded to this extent for them to speak the truth. 

To actually make a narcissist speak the truth is impossible. So, the kind of information we’ve got through them is quite something. Because they were very sure Sree Maa Shri Ji is so compassionate and because it was happening in a safe space, they were just letting it all out. Of course, as narcissists do nothing without an agenda, it was with an agenda to be absorbed back into the group again. 

Based on their behaviour after they left, it doesn’t look like they were really wanting to change. The proof is the paid revenge article they published, which is a complete sham and lie. 

Irene/Komal changed her name to Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and is now shamelessly calling herself a spiritual healer whereas she hasn’t done the work on herself. Iphigenie Amoutzias/Dallia/Meera has moved to Europe, changed her name to Malana Taresi and claims to be a flower essence healer. 

You draw your own conclusion about what their moves mean. Forwarned is forarmed…