Interviews with my dear kalyan mitras

Earlier this year flew down to Sydney to meet with my dear kalyan mitras to reflect back on our phenomenal journey of the last couple of years with beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji in the FiT Programme and Kosmic Fusion.

There is so much to share but in my humble understanding the essence of it is unfathomable Grace, Sree Maa Shri Ji's pure Grace, Compassion and Kindness and total selflessness that has propelled us onto and forward on the journey towards our True SELF, the Brahmroop. Even though we have made many mistakes due to our inner weaknesses and flaws, learning at the expense of Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, Sree Maa never let go of our hands and keeps ushering forward. With the GPS installed, the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse shared unconditionally by Sree Maa Shri Ji, and the Shelter of Sree Maa Shri Ji's gracious Wing we are most fortunate to be on the path of liberation Homebound.

Welcome you to watch our frank and heartfelt interviews about our transformational journeys:

















 Please stay tuned, more interviews coming :)

False Claims Vs Truth – Reality check on the story of Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus

This is a response from the Kosmic Fusion Faculty to the continued attack and slander committed by two disgruntled individuals who were officially dissociated from our movement in April 2018. This explanation is meant to provide information to maintain clarity, and is not intended to slander or sabotage any individuals mentioned. As you may be aware, Kosmic Fusion was attacked by two ex-volunteers, who were backed by Journalists Tony Wall and Steve Kilgallon of New Zealand. 

This response also shines a light on the anti-cult, media and church nexus and how they work in connivance to tarnish genuine organizations and movements.

Discover the facts and continue to read on the Kosmic Fusion website >>

Spiritual bypassing and cognitive dissonance

Anyone who is on a spiritual journey needs to be aware of spiritual bypassing. Have to admit, i wasn’t always aware of this and it is also something that i have seen happening a lot in new age circles.

Spiritual bypassing is a term coined in the early 1980s by psychologist John Welwood. It refers to the use of spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with uncomfortable feelings, unresolved wounds, and fundamental emotional and psychological needs. Or as psychologist Ingrid Mathieu aptly put its “checking out, rather than checking in”.

Examples include using spirituality as a justification for failing to take responsibility for one’s actions, using spirituality to feel superior to other people, disease to be nice, emotional numbing and repression, overemphasis on the positive, blind or overly tolerant compassion, weak boundaries etc.

In the FiT Programme too we were asked to look at spiritual bypass and even research this topic together with cognitive dissonance to reflect on where we were practising spiritual bypass.

Reflection and introspection were an important part of the FiT Programme because if you want to rise above your small self, you have to look within (see also this blog about inner enemies).

Looking back, i can see how the white ass and new age mentality says: “we have got the guru inside us, we look ourselves”. Because i was fed these concepts, was practising this bypass too. But when it came to actually looking within, there was no guru inside me that would show me the way.

If it was not for the tireless guidance from my Mentor whom i humbly take as my Guru, beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, would not have been able to look at the grey shades & blind spots within, let alone begin to air those things out. Some of my unhelpful swabhaav (nature) included people pleasing, disease to be nice where i don’t speak up when it is needed, blindly trusting because of a faulty believe in a world of love and oneness instead of understanding that there is different gradations of incarnated souls and using discernment, and putting others above me in my head – coming from comparison instead of seeing the divinity in all and also a subtle way to remain in my comfort zone and shirk responsibility.

In hindsight, these were also my character flaws that made me enable the covert narcissists that had snuck into the FiT Programme pretending they wanted to serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion but who came with hidden malicious agendas. In that way spiritual bypass cannot only hamper one’s own growth but also have an impact on group dynamics and result in affecting innocent parties.
 
The interesting thing is, the two narcissists Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and Iphigenie Amoutzias/Malana B. Taresi who were asked to leave after their true face came out, only briefly reflected but then fell back into victim mode.  

Still remember how even at the Reunion in July 2017, Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus tried to wiggle out of going through the questionnaires we ourselves had put together to help us reflect. In fact, at some point she had pulled me aside and while trying to fill my ears about another FiT, she said this person told her she has a dark side that she needs to look at. And she said it with such disbelief like she couldn’t believe this was true… In her head, she must have felt perfect and this is the grandiosity typical of people with NPD.

My Kalyan Mitra Tara has written a great blog on how these two pretend volunteers, Joy and Iphigenie were both into Buddhism before and how they failed to look at the false self/ego self then and continued to do the same when they joined Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme.

Because of Sree Maa's supreme empathy and support, the voice of conscience was awakened in Joy and she did eventually reflect on her actions for a while, but then fell back into playing the victim game big time. Perhaps the attempt to reflect was only to try and reel back in the one person, Clarito, whom she had groomed and been obsessed with for years. In September 2017 she was kindly asked to resign.

Iphigenie had been voted out by the other FiT in May 2017 as we felt unsafe around her and couldn’t trust her after all the covert games that she had played for almost 5 years like only a sociopath with malignant narcissism knows how to play. She too was able to reflect on her actions because of the Grace and super nova empathy of Sree Maa and shared some of her narcissistic games and motives (though she would have never revealed everything). But when she didn’t get back into the group which she wanted, she fell back and joined hands with Joy to ran a smear campaign slandering the name of Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion. Needless to say, they now completely deny the few reflections and admittances they have done.

One’s their true face is exposed the shame narcissists feel leads to narcissistic injury and the cognitive dissonance is so great that narcissists resort to slandering and maligning the ones who can see behind their carefully crafted masks in order to protect their own fake image and face, even if this is their Ultimate Well-wisher. Sadly, they end up cutting the branch they are sitting on.
 
Have to admit, they played their games well and when the truth came out for a while i was shocked, couldn’t believe had trusted these two individuals. Initially it is very easy to just put all the blame on them and their abuse but i think this too would be a form of bypassing, if i wouldn’t reflect and take responsibility for playing into their hands, missing essential red flags and the wounds, ignorance and unawareness i was and am still carrying. This is discussed quite well in these 2 videos by Melanie Tonia Evans about how to thrive after narcissistic abuse and what you can learn from it.
How i exposed the narcissistic smear campaign: https://youtu.be/k0ojZn13p0w 

& Why narcissists go after lightworkers:  https://youtu.be/XTAZhjnxa7k

Forever grateful to my beloved Sarvopari Paratpar Akshar Mitra Sree Maa Shri Ji for awakening my Atma, for helping me look within and taking off my blinkers, always shining the light of Absolute Truth, for graciously guiding me and showing the supersonic shortcut Home and for the unfathomable Grace of the Quantum Vortex Scalar WavePhoton Pulse, the Swaminarayan Mahamantra. 

P.S.
Please also read the insightful blog by my Kalyan Mitra Jeeya about narcissists doing spiritual bypassing

Sick with envy part 1

On the spiritual path one may encounter obstacles; antarshatrus (inner enemies) are part of one’s prarabdh (that portion of the sanchit - collection of past life karmas - that influences you in your present incarnation) which will come up as one progresses through one’s karmas and moves closer to the One and Only One. These inner enemies must be defeated in order to move forward on your spiritual path and attain liberation. It’s important to address these as they can be an impediment to your spiritual growth and in the FiT Programme looking at the kusang within, the dark shades within was imperative. Sree Maa lovingly explains this as follows:


The antar-shatru (inner-enemies) include kãm (lust), krodh (anger), lobh (greed), moh (uncontrolled fascination about something), mãn (pride), irshyã (envy or jealousy), mad (arrogance), matsar (vanity), ãshã (an intense hope for someone or sth), trushnã (desire or yearning for things or someone) and ahankãr (self pride).

Any genuine spiritual seeker would work hard to eradicate these inner enemies through honest reflection, introspection and applying thought processes. In Vachanamrut 15 Gadhada Madya Prakran (p 470) and 4 Gadhada Pratham Prakran (p 25), Shreeji Maharaj explains beautifully how one can tackle such nature and Sree Maa has always graciously guided and supported us non-stop to move past the small/dark/false self into the True SELF,  Brahmroop. But not all who join spiritual circles are genuine as it became clear.

Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias, one of the Facilitators in Training (FiT), was overcome by jealousy and envy, in fact by pathological jealousy and envy. She could not stand that others had something she couldn’t have. She was extremely jealous and envious of Sree Maa Shri Ji. Straight from when she met Sree Maa she was keeping a hawk’s eye on what all Sree Maa had and wanted to have what Sree Maa had. If you look at the criteria of people with NPD, jealousy & envy are one of the 9 key criteria, well explained in this interview with NPD-expert Christine Louis de Cannonville https://youtu.be/7RkICmjDNJU  (see 32:30 minutes). Can highly recommend you listen to it.

She not only wanted what Sree Maa had, but also copied what other FiTs had, the clothes Nandini was wearing, the car Simran had etc.. When narcissists can’t have something, they will destroy it. This was Iphigenie's main obsession and mission, she was hellbent on destruction. So jealous and envious of Sree Maa Shri Ji that once she confided in one of the Bhagats that she could not stand to see Sree Maa Shri Ji’s face. 

Continue to read Sick with envy part 2

PS
This blog is only intended to openly share about my spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme in particular, where some who joined turned out to be frauds and meddlers. This is not in judgement but in discernment, as i have learned that in my failure to remain aware and discern i have enabled those with vicious agendas and toxic behaviours and this doesn't serve any soul. And unfortunately, narcissists will be drawn to spiritual circles in particular as they can find a huge unsuspecting narcissistic supply of compassionate and empathetic people there.