Can a narcissist be a non-doer?

One of the key conditions of sharing the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse has always been: be the non-doer. This means no intentions, no invocations, no expectations, really stepping back and letting the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse step in. IT is All-Knowing and knows exactly what is required for both the sharer and recipient, on all levels, in all dimensions, timelines and beyond. It is Supreme Grace in action. This golden rule was repeated by Sree Maa again and again and the FiT Programme was a blessed training ground to learn how to be the non-doer truly and fully. This golden rule was also spoken by Bhagwan Shri Krishna when he told Arjuna on the battlefield, just do your action but don't be concerned with the fruits of your action.

Yet not all who joined the FiT Programme were able or even wanted to move into this beautiful zone of the non-doer, especially the ones who had very strong narcissistic tendencies. Iphigenie (now calling herself Malana) had the great fortune to be part of the FiT Programme, yet she was obsessed with the need to be in control - one of the key characteristics of narcissists. Something she hid for a long time, as covert narcissists do but in front of Absolute Truth one cannot hide...

Power brokers
If you break down a narcissist’s games into its simplest form, it is all about power and control. They need to feel all powerful and better than you. They will seek to dominate every individual and every group they interact with. This is exactly what Iphigenie did. She wanted to be top dog and played the leader amongst the FiT in New Zealand. She wanted special powers, only to feel good about herself and not to help others. All this is about the narcissist’s grandiose. The same happened with Joy Kuo (now calling herself Joy Vottus) in Sydney, who went to great lengths to establish herself as a leader, playing all the narc games in the book – including gaslighting, triangulation, playing the martyr -  to control others, become the face of Kosmic Fusion and get the fame and fortune she was after. All this is a far cry away from being the non-doer.

The search for power and control is an old one. Recently read the beautiful story about Bhakta Prahlad, whose father Hiranyakashipu was the king of asuras and wanted to dominate and control the entire universe. Guess in the ancient times they were called asuras and rakshas, the term nowadays would be narcissists. 

In any case, both Iphigenie and Joy wanted to use the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) for their own selfish, devious aims. However, they forgot that the QVSWPP cannot be abused. It is the Mother of All Energies, Frequencies and Vibrations, the Master Controller. You can misuse the name to try and mislead others, but IT can never be abused. The moment you step in, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse steps out. When you think you know and can do it, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse says okay, steps out and leaves you to it.

Truth comes out
Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is most gracious and benevolent, shuns no one and gives everyone the chance to change. Many years Iphigenie and Joy got on the FiT Programme to let go of their need to control and move into the non-doer and their higher potential. Many miracles they witnessed with the QVSWPP and the phenomenal transformations that can happen when you step back and let the Grace of Bhagwan touch you. However, they both held on to their desire for power and control and continued to covertly abuse others and to try and control & abuse the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. Towards the end, all the good they projected to hide their insidious intents and games went away and their evil face came out. 

Narcissists cannot handle their true face being exposed and will without fail resort to a smear campaign, projecting themselves as the victim and the real victims as the abusers. This is also exactly what Iphigenie and Joy did in a vain attempt to gain back power and control in their head and prep up their fake image. The loss is entirely theirs.

The joy of the non-doer state

Having witnessed all this and taking into account my own experience, a powerful lesson an realization emerges. Being the non-doer takes practice. Have found in my own experience that when you focus too much on the shades of the doer and try to peel the layers of the onion, you lose sight of the joy that comes out of the non-doer a state, a state which is so effortless to move into by simply tuning in with the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse without any intentions or expectations. Forever grateful to Sree Maa for sharing this most precious Gift of Grace with humanity.

Non-doer in practice

2014 was a year of change for me and one where trust grew. At the Guidance of Sree Maa Shri Ji, end of January 2014 i moved from Sydney back to the Netherlands. Actually, Sree Maa had already been hinting that Australia was not the place for me, i would only encounter endless karmic challenges, but i didn’t like the idea of moving back to the Netherlands. Sunny, tropical Australia was much more appealing to my ego.  

Eventually after Sree Maa graciously mentioned it two more times, i went together with my daughter back to my parents' house, my ego came along kicking and screaming. And through the unfathomable Grace of Bhagwan, my child’s father let us go. Also feel it is the Shakti of Bhagwan only that i actually made the move. 

Would also like to take a moment to offer my gratitude to my Kalyan Mitra, dear Archita, who kindly let my daughter and me stay at her place in Dubai on the stop-over halfway to Europe. Her deep Faith and beautiful presence somehow calmed me down and moved me more into the mode of acceptance. 

Cannot say the first few months were easy, but this was only the experience of the personality, on a deeper level surrender had taken place and my Soul could begin to blossom.

So yes, back in my parent’s house at the age of 40, with a 4 hour commute each day to and from work. Now my mind would make one thing of it, but something deeper would stir and actually those train journeys i took the time to tune in with the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) and reflect. This was exactly what i needed. The job had miraculously fallen into my lap despite the fact that i had not lived in the Netherlands for over 8 years and there were 300 applications for that position. There were many more examples in that time that would show how powerfully the QVSWPP can manifest what is needed, as long as we remain step back.

Let me share some exercises (one highlighted below) that i did at the Guidance of Sree Maa Shri Ji in one of the many Facilitators in Training calls Sree Maa Graced us with, completely for free. The force i am talking about is the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the beautiful Grace that when we step back, are real and honest with ourselves and TRUST will work ITs magic.

Started feeling uncomfortable after my mum mentioned her vision/advice for my future, 'find a cheap old rental in Den Helder' (a town in the far corners of NL) 'sth you can afford when you can't find a job again when you are on a pension again after this maternity leave position ends'. This hit an ego sore spot.... This brought up feelings of doubt, resentment over my decision to come to the Netherlands, feeling even more stuck and trapped. So when I sat down very late in the evening that day and recalled this moment, felt contracted at the heart, heavy, sad anger, frustration came up. At some point started to lean and slouch forward so sad. Started feeling dizzy in the head, slight pressure at temples. I just let it be. After a while started feeling very very sleepy. I lay down in a child's pose position and then feel asleep...

That morning woke up and first sat in receptive mode for 11 minutes. Then I tuned in again to the moment of the previous day and still noticed a cocktail of sadness, despair, anger, heaviness in my heart area and in the energy field around my heart. Again I just let it all be. The mind wanted to race and loop in it's sorry thoughts but there was an unmistakenly powerful 'invisible force' (best way I can describe) that instantly with a calming soothing effect made everything feel spacious and still in the mind, melting away the thoughts & upsetting emotions. Then Faith & Trust came back. I felt peaceful again.

 
It feels actually very freeing to not get sucked into the small self’s drama. Sree Maa once described the ego as follows: a drunken monkey with its tail on fire bitten by a scorpion. Think that’s sums it up quite well. And that is part of the P.R.O.C.E.S.S., to keep the ego in check.

In my Soul Mapping session in 2013, Sree Maa Shri Ji had given a certain Guidance that really touched my heart: “embrace everything that happens with love and grace”. And this would come back to me a lot in this year, especially when i encountered more difficult situations. Now i know that a true Aashrit/Devotee sees and understands everything that happens as a GIFT of Bhagwan only. Slowly, was moving into this understanding.  

2014 was also the practical training ground for the FiT Programme, where we helped organize a lot of online events and Awakenin Transformation workshops, which Sree Maa Shri Ji would always conduct. We were lucky enough to be able to join those workshops as part of the Training but would always log out for the 0 zero session, where Sree Maa Shri Ji removed the dense obsolete 3D/4D Grids of the participants.

Now this wasn’t so much about organizing, as it was about learning to remain stepped back and being the non-doer, letting the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse weave IT’s miracles. This seems simple but actually requires constant awareness and practice as the doer will step in. Sree Maa was always emphasizing to work as a team, work in oneness, and through many training calls and Discourses was giving everything to support this, but not all made the effort to honour this. 

Some in the FiT group did not make an effort to step back, instead they were constantly meddling. We were all supposed to rotate with helping out online but Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias would try to hog all the online events for herself, pushing other FiTs to the background. This was around the same time where she was sowing seeds of doubts during the meditation evenings and Kosmic Tribes. She was making sure the unity would not happen. Same goes for Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy who was acting like the boss in Sydney, creating hierarchy and pushing away volunteers with her bullying.

But at the time i was still sleeping and unaware of this sabotage going on…

Beyond the mask

When i recently watch the video testimonials from 2013 that we had given after one of the workshops in Sydney, something struck me. While everyone is humbled and grateful to be so deeply touched by the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse and forever indebted to Sree Maa Shri Ji, Irene talks about how she has become an instant healer…. It’s all about her and her healing powers now that she is emitting the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. Where is the non-doer? Where is the homage to Sree Maa Shri Ji, living embodiment of the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, The Supreme Grace lighting up the path of liberation for the True Soul? These are the signs that can make one aware of who you are sharing the space with... Does it scream me me me or is there a sense of humilty, gratitude and awe. 

Tzu-Ling Kuo/Irene/Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus testimonial: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3wqjUI_CudA
See other’s testimonials via: https://www.youtube.com/user/kosmicfusion/videos

The mask falls off - it must in the Presence of Absolute Truth

After Irene's true face came out, we all had a good look at all her promotional materials online and offline and it was a shocker to see how she has consistently stolen Kosmic Fusion Intellectual Property. All her materials glorify herself and minimize Sree Maa Shri Ji without whom the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave would not even be in our lives. She falsely portrays herself as Facilitator of Kosmic Fusion and even gave an interview without permission, using everything the way she wanted for her own selfish motives of attracting ‘clients’ as she called them.

Interestingly, she had made a big scene about two others FiTs in Sydney printing a brochure about Bhakti Bhaav without permission from Sree Maa Shri Ji but forgot to mention what all she was doing behind everyone’s back. As long as everyone’s eyes would be focused on somebody else, no one would clue on to what Irene was doing behind the scenes. Narcissists love creating smokes and mirrors and project their wrong doings onto others.

Nearly fell of my chair when i saw one of the documents Irene had written, well plagiarized really, she had called it 77 benefits of Holistic Freedom (the name of her business). She had copy pasted some text from a website and then inserted Quantum Vortex at her will, even adding her own business name in front of Quantum Vortex, using and abusing the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse anyhow she likes. Such disrespect to Sree Maa Shri Ji and this most sacred and benevolent Mother of Energies, Frequencies and Vibrations.  

Her masks finally started to crack during the Reunion held in July 2017. This was organized by the FiTs to come together to honestly look at what each one had contributed to the FiT Programme and to get closure. At one point she pulled me aside and started to fill my ears about others. i did not like that as we are here to look at our own shades not to judge others. While there was an open and honest discussion going on, Irene would disrupt the flow and point fingers at Hanuman, the very seem person whom she had been using and abusing for over 5 years. While everyone was sincerely filling out the questionnaires put together by a few of us to help us reflect, she excused herself and did not want to fill it out. Now we know, she had a lot to hide… 

Embraced by boundless Grace

Sree Maa Shri Ji are the most Kind, Loving and Gracious you will ever come across and believe in the potential of the Absolute in everyone. Sree Maa Shri Ji do not judge anyone, so all types are welcome to join. All the support, all the Love, Grace and Guidance has been given to each and everyone one of the FiT to overcome their issues and move into the non-doer and their higher potential. In fact, Sree Maa has given over and beyond of what is humanly possible. There is no doubt in my heart and mind about the Greatness of Sree Maa Shri Ji, though my mind is not able to fully fathom someone so boundless and unconditionally loving. The entire world says #nocontact with narcissists, but Sree Maa has such a big heart and embraces everyone unconditionally and without any judgement so that radical healing can take place. Please read the mind-blowing blogs of Nandini and Jeeya as they let Sree Maa’s Supreme Grace touch them and help them transform.

Sree Maa Shri Ji, living embodiment of Supreme Grace and Compassion, sharing the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse unconditionally with all 24/7. It is Sree Maa's ekantik Bhakti to the Supreme holder of the Shunya Bindu, Bhagwan Swaminarayan that we receive as the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. 

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Only sharing my experiences so that it may be helpful to others in my situation

Wolf in sheep clothing

Being the non-doer was the crux of the matter and seemingly simple. Yet have learned how the shades of the doer, the ego can slyly step in and play up. When the doer is in the front seat it spells trouble and when the doer has completely taken you over, disaster is inevitable. This i have experienced and seen with my own eyes in the FiT Programme – a priceless Gift of Awakenin Transformation Transcendence where Sree Maa Shri Ji has been Graciously waking us up to the Absolute Truth, lovingly and tirelessly supporting and guiding us in every possible way to move beyond the small self/the ego with its dark shades into our higher potential, the True SELF to ultimately reach where we truly belong in seva to and union with the One and Only One.

Sree Maa started the trial FiT Programme in October 2013 (completely complimentary) out of compassion, kindness and trust based on the requests, questions and keenness displayed by a few Practitioners, myself included, to volunteer and be part of Kosmic Fusion Mission to take it to many more. We wrote letters to Sree Maa at the FiT Intake Ceremony, held in Auckland New Zealand about why we felt we were ready to become a Facilitator and how would we contribute to the Mission of Kosmic Fusion. Remember when reading my letter to Sree Maa Shri Ji could not keep my eyes dry. What i didn’t know is that some people wrote a letter that wasn’t truthful…

Stealth mode

Have not only seen the doer play up in myself, but in its pinnacle form in one of the other volunteers who was also part of the FIT Programme, Irene/Joy/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Vottus. Straight when she started volunteering, she was quite domineering and wanted things to be done her way. In fact, she turned out to be the biggest doer with a hidden agenda that was so twisted, i still find it hard to get my head around it. Her agenda was to shamelessly replace Sree Maa Shri Ji and turn a sacred selfless mission into a profitable business for herself where she could be the face – she was completely driven by greed and ambition. Combine these vices with lack of ethics and conscience and you have got a toxic cocktail that wreaked havoc in the FiT team in Sydney and in the whole FIT Programme. But for most of the years while the FIT Training was happening, the other volunteers including me had no clue as Irene operated in stealth mode... Covert narcissist indeed epitomize a wolf in sheep clothing.

Can also recommend you read this entry of Simran's blog




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Am sharing my experiences as it may be helpful for others who are going through a similar experience.  

Be the non-doer

Six years ago, i had the great fortune to join a workshop that would change my life completely. Now i know that for me as a spiritual seeker to even show up at that workshop is all the Supreme Grace of Bhagwan only but at that time i didn’t know this. In 7 sessions Founder and Visionary of Kosmic Fusion, Sree Maa Shri Ji removed the obsolete 3D and 4D grids and awakened our True Soul. i had no clue at that time of the magnanimity of the Gift of Grace that had been bestowed upon me but was so profoundly touched that when the opportunity was Graced to volunteer a couple of months later at the Kosmic Fusion stand at the Mind Body Spirit festival in Sydney, i did not hesitate for a second. What happened was such a revelation, can still feel the awe and bliss just thinking about it.

Whenever visitors came to the stand and sat down on one of the chairs, Sree Maa Shri Ji explained to simply stand behind them lightly place our hands on the person’s shoulders and we did not have to do anything, no intention needed, simply letting the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse do what it needs to. This Supreme Signature of the Source-Void, Graciously shared by Sree Maa Shri Ji 24/7, is All-knowing and All-powerful and knows exactly what each one needs on all levels in all dimensions, spontaneous healing is a by-product. The testimonials of visitors were astounding and most humbling.

This was a first tangible experience of being the non-doer that Sree Maa Shri Ji Graciously elaborated on in the QVSWPP Practitioner Training that followed. Non-doer or akarmi was a new concept to me at the time. Much more than a concept, this was a profound introduction to Truth, but this eluded me still then. “Step back and let the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse step in. And if you step in, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse will step out.” These two profound messages Sree Maa Shri Ji repeatedly spoke have been a guiding light throughout the years. Non-doer also means not having any intention or desire for the fruits of the action and being extremely humble, knowing who is the All-Doer, that not even a leaf can move without the Will of Bhagwan.  

Would like to end with some beautiful pearls of wisdom shared by Sree Maa Shri Ji on facebook recently:

Jai Shree Swaminarayan

P.S.
Am sharing my experiences as i feel it may be helpful for others that may encounter similar situations.