How can one not have trust and faith in the Supreme Being, the most benevolent, utmost kind and gracious and supremely All-knowing One and Only One?
There was one of the FiTs, however, who always displayed her lack of trust and faith in subtle and not so subtle ways. Looking back, it is obvious how Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias was purposely spreading seeds of doubt. Someone with pathological envy and jealousy cannot bear to see others have what they don’t have. This is not something i am making up, this is something she has admitted to herself at a time when she did reflect a little, at the time of the Reunion. Though it did not last, and she reverted back to her old wounds and intentions.
She tried it twice with me, once earlier on in 2014, but my reply was i don’t know how, but the faith and trust is just there, unwavering, like a silent anchor i can go back to in any moment. That shut her up.
Only last year on the India Pilgrimage she gave it another go with me. As we were getting off the bus, she was en passant saying how she had trouble believing in Sree Maa Shri Ji and had a smirk on her face when she said it. i was stunned how someone who was living in the Ashram with their Sarvopari Sadguru could have such doubts. To my question what are you doing in the Ashram then, she never gave an honest answer and tried to divert the topic. But the truth came out anyway, as truth eventually always wins.