False Claims Vs Truth – Reality check on the story of Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus

This is a response from the Kosmic Fusion Faculty to the continued attack and slander committed by two disgruntled individuals who were officially dissociated from our movement in April 2018. This explanation is meant to provide information to maintain clarity, and is not intended to slander or sabotage any individuals mentioned. As you may be aware, Kosmic Fusion was attacked by two ex-volunteers, who were backed by Journalists Tony Wall and Steve Kilgallon of New Zealand. 

This response also shines a light on the anti-cult, media and church nexus and how they work in connivance to tarnish genuine organizations and movements.

Discover the facts and continue to read on the Kosmic Fusion website >>

Boundless Blessings at the 2015 FiT Retreat

The Facilitator in Training (FiT) Programme graced by Sree Maa Shri Ji was a powerful, dynamic, experiential Training. Still getting my head around the magnanimity of the Training and most of all the Greatness of our Teacher Sree Maa who gave of herself 24/7 to support us in our P.R.O.C.E.S.S of AwaKeNiN TrAnSForMaTioN TrAnSCenDEncE.

Core principles were authenticity, honesty, integrity and transparency, practiced fully by beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, who always led by example.

The FiT intake Ceremony, completely complementary, took place in October 2013. There Sree Maa already spoke about many concepts and principles that you can find in Sanatana Dharma so it was ALWAYS clear what this was about. In addition, we touched Sree Maa’s Lotus Feet, and i would say we were very fortunate to be able to do so. Key take away from that FiT intake ceremony was also to trust and surrender.

Snapshots of the beautiful 2015 Kawai Pura Pura Retreat

There are now two ex-volunteers who claim in their media smear campaign that the curriculum of the FiT Training all of a sudden changed. i really don’t know what course they were sitting on and why they stayed on and did not leave, as everyone was always free to leave if it wasn’t your cup of tea. It was clear to me and there are no words enough to express my gratitude to beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji for the most Gracious FiT Training. Anyone with half a dose of common sense can see through the games of Joy Kuo/ #AwakeningwithJoy and Iphigenie Amoutzias/Amoutsias.

Gift of the akarmi

One of the key principles that Sree Maa teaches straight from the very first moment is to be a non-doer, an akarmi; step back and let the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse step in. No intention, no expectation no judgement, happy to not know. A non-doer serves without wanting anything out of something.

This seems simple and in truth it is but in 2014 and beyond we could experience ourselves how the small self/doer can step in. In order to become akarmi, there will be obstacles, generally it doesn’t happen overnight but Sree Maa supported us in every way possible.

Early 2015 Sree Maa encouraged us to do a homeopathic detox in preparation for the TrAnSceNDenCE that would be offered at the phenomal 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat. Quite frankly am still absorbing the profound Teachings and all the Supreme Blessings Sree Maa Shri Ji bestowed on us at this Retreat.

Body of devotion and silent Guru Mantra

One of the things Sree Maa beautifully explained was that it is the biggest Gift that you can ever get is to be an akarmi. Sree Maa laid the foundation for Bhakti (devotion) in that Retreat, gracing us with an Initiation of a (formless) body of devotion, a new body of bliss – like armour that will help one fight one’s inner resistance when the ego crops up. This is a body of true transcendence that would develop more as one's power of devotion becomes stronger.

Sree Maa also asked us if we wanted to receive a Guru Mantra, which means one would be a Sanatana Dharmi from then on. The choice was ours. Everyone present at the Retreat (including the wolves in sheep clothing) said yes.

Remember i was very humbled and grateful to receive such a Blessing to help us come out from our old karmic cycle. Now one’s Guru becomes your biggest mirror, learning through the attributes of the Guru instead of the lessons in one’s life. No greater Blessing than to be graced with Sree Maa as one’s Guru, as the years went on my understanding of the precious Guru-disciple relationship deepened (see also my other blog) - all only possible by the Grace and Kindness of Sree Maa Shri Ji. 

Niranjana (who has written with amazing detail and understanding about the FiT Retreat and Programme, can highly recommend to read her blog) asked a beautiful question about the difference between the silent Guru Mantra and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse and Sree Maa enlightened us that Guru Mantra is for one’s doer and the QVSWPP - that which Sree Maa Shri Ji had given us already straight up on the platter in the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop -comes to one in non-action to the non-doer. 

Niranjana and me at the Kawai Pura Pura Retreat

Of course, one cannot take a Guru Mantra without a Guru Dakshina, and Sree Maa was so Gracious to ask us to offer a bad habit that we don’t need as Guru Dakshina. Actually can’t remember which bad habit i offered but do remember this humbled me to the core and really showed the selflessness and Daya of our Ultimate Well-Wisher Sree Maa Shri Ji. And this was only the beginning, there were many more Blessings to come.... :-) <3

Selfless service vs service to self

My first encounter with Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Kuo (she now calls herself Joy Vottus), one of the volunteers, was not a smooth one. She was pushy and constantly pointing out mistakes of others. It’s only in hindsight that i can put the pieces together and realize that since the time Irene joined, the harmony in the group plummeted big time. At the time i was still too overtaken by my own shadow and i failed to hold my space. Failed to follow the golden rule of stepping back, letting the QVSWPP lead and despite Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Guidance to work as a team and not form subgroups, i drew to mostly one of the volunteers, giving Irene the stage to take the lead and break the group apart. On gentle feedback from Sree Maa Shri Ji i looked at myself and worked hard to correct the slight annoyance and jealousy i felt towards Irene, never realizing the disruptive role Irene played at that time.

Looking within at one’s own dark/grey shades is essential if you ever want to move into your higher potential. Sree Maa has always provided a most loving space and guidance for genuine reflection. This is something i had to learn though, initially my ego didn’t find it easy to receive feedback given out of pure Love and care for the true Soul and i even complained about it to another FiT. This really shows the smallness of the ego and is all the more reason to overcome it. Am extremely grateful Sree Maa patiently and lovingly held my hand and encouraged me to look within and reflect so the true Soul could blossom. The true Soul in it's highest potential as the Brahmroop is always in selfless seva to and union with the One and Only One 💖 

Key point to note is that people with Narcissistic Personality Disorder don’t take feedback very well and if you dare to call a narcissist out on their true face, you better brace yourself for their revenge. Narcissist go to great lengths to protect their fake image and are really good at acting, basically because they believe their own lies. This was and is also very much the case with Irene, now calling herself Joy.

The alpha female behaviour Irene/Joy/Tzu-Ling Kuo displayed is typical of narcissists, but they play clever, they like to communicate with people one on one and have a specific strategy for each one they are dealing with. What i later found out is that Irene was trying to fill Sree Maa’s ears about each one of the volunteers, to no avail by the way. However, this backhand behaviour, Irene made sure not to show in front of me. 

To me Irene mostly played the soft, sweet and innocent one and the most hardworking volunteer who would sacrifice anything for Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji, especially after i moved back to the Netherlands early 2014. She also played the victim at times and her trump card always was that she was doing it all for Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion. Little did i know that she continued her bullying behaviour with the remaining volunteers in Sydney and managed to drive away numerous people who i had personally introduced to Kosmic Fusion and who were very happily involved and volunteering until they had to interface with Irene.

Deceit and manipulation

After i moved back to the Netherlands, i was not very involved at all with what was happening in Sydney (should have taken more of an interest but failed to do so). So, when i recently saw the Sydney FIT whatsapp group chat could not believe how Irene had been pushing everyone around and constantly demanding money in the name of Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji (who knew nothing about this) for all the expos they attended. It was all Irene’s ambition and overdrive that they went to so many festivals and expos. All this while, Irene had made it appear that no one Sydney was contributing and that only her and Hanuman, whom she had carefully groomed and manipulated (this is what narcissist are very good at), exploiting his dedication and loyalty for Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, were the one doing all the volunteer work. Recommend anyone to read his blog also.

Am still baffled at all the lies and the extent to which Irene went to keep up the image of a hardworking volunteer and later on a sincere devotee who would sacrifice anything, her job, her sleep, her time for Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. A carefully crafted mask. As i said, narcissists are great actors. What she was doing behind Sree Maa Shri Ji’s back and everyone else’s, she never mentioned of course and she created plenty of smoke and mirrors and flying monkeys to hide it all. 

Just a small sample of her so-called “selfless service”: siphoning out data from Kosmic Fusion, approaching these contacts for her own business, passing off Kosmic Fusion Intellectual Property and copy righted materials as her own to bank on it, abusing Kosmic Fusion resources left right and centre for her own benefit and plans, pitting FiTs against each other, filling volunteers ears, scheming plans to get some volunteers out of the FiT Programme. 

Even found out she tried to get me out of the FiT Programme behind my back. She sent an email to Jeeya, who was our Mentor’s personal assistant at the time looking after the emails, saying another volunteer and i did not attend one of the workshops the year before hinting that we were not eligible for the upcoming pivotal workshop of the FiT Programme end of 2015. This is how narcissists operate, on the sly. Sree Maa Shri Ji immediately put a stop to her move.

Fooled by the façade
None of this Irene/Joy ever told me of course and in fact i looked up to her as i had fallen for her image of sincere volunteer and devotee and even put herself above me in my head. Here is where my doer subtly played up and i made the mistake of not following the golden Guidance of Sree Maa of no hierarchy. Gotta give it to Irene, she is one good actress. Though it is also my lack of awareness and ability to pick up on nuances and see through someone’s façade. Had i paid attention and not kept my rose coloured glasses on, would have seen that the face Irene was putting up and her choice of words are not those of a humble, meek person, but of a big ambitious jealous pushover that was only there to promote her own agenda. 

How to recognize service to self types and narcissists... 

P.S.
My intention to share these experiences is so that it is helpful for others who may find themselves in a similar situation

Why this blog?

Why this blog?

Thank you for coming to this blog, which is my personal sharing of what happened to us – a small group of volunteers who were part of a most precious FiT Programme. i am not a psychologist but have done extensive research into narcissism after what happened to try to understand and learn.

This includes learning about my own weaknesses and oblivion that gave the covert manipulators such a platform; for the longest time i had no idea what these toxic people were up to and how they were using all of us as a supply.

What i am sharing is my personal experience and analysis of what happened. The toxicity some of the people in the group displayed is of such a concern that through this sharing i hope to make others aware.

The ones with toxic agendas had been telling our mentor Sree Maa Shri Ji since 2013 Oct as well as the rest of us that they want to serve, they really want to take the work of Kosmic Fusion to the world. i took their words at face value and trusted them.

As it turned out, instead of serving they were operating under the radar pursuing their own selfish and destructive agendas. Yet there were given many chances to transform. Key part of the FiT Programme was looking at the shades of the small self, to be able to awaken, transform and transcend the small self, embody the Self to finally attain the Brahmroop (SELF).

Sree Maa was showing so much Grace and Compassion to help them look at the shades they were holding and making them see how they were completely out of touch with reality. Unfortunately, these toxic people continued to play games.

If Sree Maa Shri Ji wouldn’t have stopped them, they would have actually been working with the people in the world by using the platform of Kosmic Fusion. When a place was reached where it was absolutely not okay for Sree Maa Shri Ji to have them use the platform of Kosmic Fusion, they were removed. 

Typical of narcissists, they colluded to run a smear campaign to slander Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion in the media.

Today they are out there and based on the patterns we have seen they are going to get other people. Now it is the responsibility of others to do their homework before interacting with them, because their track record doesn’t look very promising. However, we wish them all the best and we wish they’d change.

Throughout this blog i refer to certain admittance these toxic people have given about their behaviour and motives. It is the utmost Grace of Shreeji Maharaj and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that we even succeeded to this extent for them to speak the truth. 

To actually make a narcissist speak the truth is impossible. So, the kind of information we’ve got through them is quite something. Because they were very sure Sree Maa Shri Ji is so compassionate and because it was happening in a safe space, they were just letting it all out. Of course, as narcissists do nothing without an agenda, it was with an agenda to be absorbed back into the group again. 

Based on their behaviour after they left, it doesn’t look like they were really wanting to change. The proof is the paid revenge article they published, which is a complete sham and lie. 

Irene/Komal changed her name to Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and is now shamelessly calling herself a spiritual healer whereas she hasn’t done the work on herself. Iphigenie Amoutzias/Dallia/Meera has moved to Europe, changed her name to Malana Taresi and claims to be a flower essence healer. 

You draw your own conclusion about what their moves mean. Forwarned is forarmed…