How Narcissists Run in Packs - part 5 When the mask cracks

Written together with my Kalyan Mitras Simran, Tara and Jeeya

Eventually when you spend enough time around a narcissist and pay attention, it becomes impossible for them to hide who they are. As most of us were sleeping and tend to run away from conflict rather than speak up, we failed to spot the many red flags and it took us a long time to see through the games that Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and Iphigenie Amoutzias/Malana B. Taresi were playing. It is in hindsight and only by the Grace of Sree Maa that we can recognize the full extent of their behaviour and can put the pieces of the puzzle together.

Sree Maa’s Compassion and Kindness knows no bounds. Sree Maa is a highly evolved, enlightened Being who allows people be who they are and then show them why they need to transform, and ultimately why they need to let go of their dark self. While we were in a deep unconscious slumber, Sree Maa was taking all the narcissistic ‘bullets’ on herself so that the rest of the FiTs would not be impacted. Such is the Grace of Sree Maa who not only protected us but also enlightened us to recognise how we unwittingly invited these narcissists into our space and liberated us from wearing blinkers.

 As Nandini had expressed her wish to get over her afflictions during the 2016 Taupo Retreat and Jeeya too wanted to transform, Sree Maa patiently worked with them in a safe, open and transparent manner through voice dialoguing and enlightening Discourses that were of benefit to all FiTs. It taught us a lot about spiritual bypassing and how to overcome the small/false/dark self and move into our Brahmroop. Joy and Iphigenie never put this knowledge into practise and never said a word they were having similar narcissistic shades in them. Though they tried to hide and remain under the radar, in the course of 2017 the Truth started to come out.

 
During the 2017 India Pilgrimage, Tara had experienced the true shades of Joy and Iphigenie. Joy went so far as to physically bully Tara which was shocking because Irene/Joy always portrayed herself as soft and gentle. She had asked Tara to help with voice recording. One incident, they were at the back of the group of FITs and Joy told Tara to go to the front to do the recording and then unexpectedly shoved Tara sideways that she almost lost her balance. Tara then told Joy not to push her but she gave her a blank look and said “It was not a push.” instead of offering a simple apology. Again, narcissists never think they are ever in the wrong and would gaslight you to think that nothing happened. In another incident, Joy out of the blue suddenly grabbed Tara’s wrist while she was holding the voice recorder and handled her roughly until it hurt her while bossing her to “do it properly”.

Iphigenie was behaving very passive-aggressively with Tara throughout the pilgrimage. And Tara had brought this to light to Joy and had regretted it because later Iphigenie approached Tara to instigate a verbal attack on her when they were alone.

Needless to say, Tara was very shaken by the experience she had with both of them on the trip and she wasn’t the only one who had experienced intimidation and nasty behaviour at their hands during the trip. Tara was further made to keep quiet as they both worked together to continue to put her down in the Whatsapp chat groups creating a bad image of her to the other FITs.

Deflection

Sree Maa had suspended all events and workshops since end of 2016 due to everything going on and stepped down as the Teacher of the FiT Programme 18 March 2017. This did not deter Joy to want to continue with all her activities, running meditation circles and Abundance circles online without approval. She even went to the extent of hosting a fake AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop.

Iphigenie had no qualms to help move another FiT into the Ashram (her accomplice) while Sree Maa and Shri Ji were travelling in April 2017, again no permission taken.

Irene/Joy tried hard to deflect the spotlight from herself after Iphigenie was voted out by the other FiTs in May 2017, making a big deal about a Bhakti Bhaav brochure Simran and Jwala had printed and an advertisement they took out. She ‘conveniently’ forgot to mention how she framed Simran and Jwala into this and also that she was doing much worse behind everyone’s back. The rest of the FiT had no clue what had happened or what had even gone on in the dynamics of the FiTs in Sydney so a call was organised to clarify matters. Joy (then called Komal) completely hijacked this call to shift the blame on Simran and also put Jwala in a bad light.

On that call she was using all the Narc’s tricks in the book of taking over the conversation, playing the victim and telling lies, completely manipulating the situation and using the rest of the core team members as flying monkeys. Irene would constantly give half truths and complete lies to pull wool over the other core team members eyes, so she could control the situation.
 
Joy Awakening came to the Ashram House in June 2017, believing herself to be a great sevak and devotee who would show the other FiTs in the Ashram House how to offer seva. She would also lead the organisation of the Reunion Retreat, a gathering organised by the FiT for the FiT to come together and honestly look at what each one had contributed to the failure of the FiT Programme. Initially Joy wanted to have the Reunion at her place, the ideal place for her to have control, but some of the FiTs were not comfortable with that idea. Sree Maa had kindly offered the basement area of the Ashram House as a place where the Reunion could be held and also said children were welcome to come.

Here Joy played another dirty game. She didn’t want Jwala to show up at the Reunion as she knew Jwala had started to see through her games and could expose her. She also knew that if Jwala wasn’t able to bring her daughter, she wouldn’t come to the Reunion. So she painted a picture to the other FiTs that the schedule of the Reunion would be really busy and it could get quite intense, so that the mothers would conclude it is best not to bring the children. She actually confided in Jeeya this was her intention before getting on call with other FiTs regarding the Reunion. She also blatantly lied to one of them that what Sree Maa actually meant was not to bring the children. 

None of the FiT ended up bringing their children and Jwala ended up not coming to the Reunion Retreat and left the FiT Programme.

During the Reunion Irene behaved like a bully and was not participating like the rest of the FiT. She did not want to fill out the questionnaires made by the FiTs for the purpose of honest reflection, and in conversations kept pushing the blame on others and pointing fingers at Clarito/Hanuman. Prior to the Reunion, all FiTs in Sydney were asked to reflect and without any judgement write down their observations of the team. If you read what Irene/Joy wrote down, you can see that it is far from a neutral observation and more a litany of finger pointing to others. 

It was shortly after the Reunion that Joy’s true face became crystal clear to everyone. And it was thanks to Sree Maa's intuitive move to cut off Irene/Joy's access to Sree Maa and Kosmic Fusion resources that things came out in the open. Hanuman went no contact with her and Simran also was offered no contact under the guise of 'quarantine' to keep her safe from Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus who wanted her out. Joy made some admittance about her dubious intentions, as she was hoping to get access to Hanuman again, but mostly continued to hide. She was given many chances to be honest and admit to what she had done so she could move beyond it but continued to play games till the end. In September 2017 she was lovingly asked to leave.

Narcissists can’t stand their true face being uncovered and Joy and Iphigenie ganged up and instigated a smear campaign where they organised a paid article filled with lies to slander and malign Sree Maa and Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion out of revenge. They actively recruited one of the volunteers who had left in 2015 to collude with them. They also approached another ex-FiT, Renu, but she would not support them at all, knowing the truth of what happened.  Irene/Joy is still continuing her fake victim story and trying to harm the name of Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa and Shri Ji in her new youtube channel "Awakening with Joy" and Facebook group she set up. There she is blatantly plagiarizing the work of Sree Maa Shri Ji.

Below you can see Joy's Youtube channel where she claims to be an energy healer and spiritual consultant with 10 years of experience and were she is still playing the victim and using Dimash to trap innocent people. Where are the certificates and proofs of her 10 years of experience? Interesting to note that in 2013 (i.e. 5 years ago) she herself said in a video testimonial about the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop that she is so happy she has now become an instant healer...



     

When Iphigenie was being questioned in May 2017 by the other FiT for why she was labelling Kosmic Fusion to Pulsars/new FITs/volunteers, see how quickly Joy stood by Kosmic Fusion to defend her own self and being very cold to Iphigenie. Weren’t they were like best friends before? 

Around that same time, Joy sent the following scathing email to Iphigenie in response to her facebook post.

But oh look, now that Joy was also asked to leave, is it surprising that they gang up together to create a smear campaign? Amoutzias of course isn’t angry at Joy for betraying her before because Amoutzias needs someone driven like Joy and use her to do all the smear campaigning while playing the victim and quiet one. They are merely being a shill for each other to make their smear campaign more believable.

It is sad to see how Iphigenie and Joy who were graced with such an amazing opportunity to change having been taken under the Gracious Wings of beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, chose to hold on to the blanket of the small self and cut the branch they were sitting on.  

In conclusion, we like to share this excerpt from another article that we felt was very relevant and described quite well what we have seen and experienced:

Spiritually they are closed.

They have parasitic convergences whereby they momentarily infect another person like a buzzing bee in the wrong hive. Eventually, the victim is preserved by, what in Hinduism is referred to as the forces of Vishnu, and the narcissistic charade is destroyed by Shiva. The narcissist is so closed-minded & proudly arrogant, however, that they walk away demonizing their victim as a natural defense surrounding the closed-mind. Read full article.

How Narcissists hunt in packs part 1 - part 2 Narc tactics - part 3 Faking it - part 4 Use and Abuse - part 5 When the mask cracks

Sick with envy part 3 & why narcissist are drawn to empaths

Sree Maa Shri Ji are the epitome of Compassion and Grace and believe in the potential of the Absolute in everyone. Sree Maa lovingly and graciously welcomed anyone to the FiT Programme who wrote a letter to Sree Maa Shri Ji expressing how they were ready and willing to volunteer and serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion - to share the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) with as many souls as possible. Sree Maa supported all of the FiTs tirelessly no matter their issues to move into embodying our Brahmroop. Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias too wrote a letter, but in truth she was on a whole other mission.  

Dallia/Iphigenie kept asking for a group in New Zealand after seeing the buzz in Australia where a group of volunteers was very active. Sree Maa Shri Ji therefore did a few events in New Zealand and personally did a few intro evenings and the 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop in October 2013 and Jan 2014 but after seeing Iphigenie's pathological behaviour didn't personally appear anywhere in NZ events. Therefore in a way Sree Maa Shri Ji are supremely gracious to let her realize that her envious and jealous nature's need to destroy will only get onto her demerits accounts. 

From the time Iphigenie was presenting herself as the face of Kosmic Fusion in NZ, the number of participants attending the meetings reduced drastically: from about 25 before she took on the leading role to approx. only  3-4 participants were regularly showing up. She was cunningly driven away all the 5D++ Pulsars and Auckland Meet Up participants by spreading rumours that Kosmic Fusion was a “cult” and by isolating all participants from Sree Maa Shri Ji. Iphigenie even tried to turn the Meetups into a pick-up place, as she would regularly show up with inappropriate clothing and try to flirt with all the male participants. She was also misrepresenting the key philosophies of Kosmic Fusion - she would call Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse the “Source Energy”, which was a term made up and used by her. All the people who had joined through Sree Maa's efforts and the group she was given, she made sure to destroy it. Her now claiming and acting like she is a victim actually proves she is beyond psychopath. 

Spreading her poison as much as possible

She was creating havoc within the New Zealand team, in a way only a malignant narcissist knows how to with triangulations, gaslighting and psychic warfare. Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias was twisting Sree Maa Shri Ji’s words constantly when talking to participants and 5D++ Pulsars. For example, Iphigenie had told Sarala that “QVSWPP would protect you 24/7” when Sree Maa Shri Ji had clearly said “QVSWPP would be with you 24/7”. Iphigenie statements created some miscommunications with Sarala, however Sarala still joined the FiT training in May 2015. Iphigenie was clearly not happy about this, as she went around telling other NZ 5D++ Pulsars and FiT that Sarala had a “dark and dense” energy in her house, and letting everyone know that Sarala had a birthday party but “no one turned up for it”, Iphigenie had made sure of that. Sarala’s relationships and communications with the other NZ FiT were slowly getting severed through Iphigenie's meddling and eventually she left.

Early 2016, the Ashram Project was set up by two NZ FiT, Nandini and Jeeya. It was a trial to see what it would take to run an Ashram based on the Vision Sree Maa had shared about a physical place where people could come and have spontaneous realization of themselves and their Atma. Sree Maa had graciously agreed to support the initiative and to move into the Ashram. As soon as Iphigenie heard about it, she immediately began showing signs of jealousy and looked upset as was unable to accept that the Ashram Project had been established without her involvement.

In November 2016, Iphigenie moved into the Ashram after inviting herself to join, she literally planted herself in the Ashram using Jeeya even though she had received most loving guidance from Sree Maa that she was not yet ready. Only after she sorts out her jealousy issues and is debt free would she be ready. Still she forced her way into the Ashram. Please read the Gracious message from Sree Maa sent to Dallia/Iphigenie/Meera, which she told nobody about and completely ignored...

Immediately after Iphigenie moved into the Ashram, she started to create fights between Nandini and Jeeya, creating distress in the Ashram Project. Iphigenie was also trying to break Jeeya’s self-confidence and self-esteem by putting Jeeya down, lecturing Jeeya for not being organised, correcting Jeeya’s every Seva and making Jeeya feel confused all the time. Gaslighting this is called. Iphigenie was playing with Jeeya’s guilt and kept asking Jeeya, “why are you still around? Why don’t you go back to Singapore” and even saying things like “if I am Sree Maa Shri Ji, I would not have you around” just to implicate Sree Maa Shri Ji. Iphigenie would purposely ruin Sree Maa’s clothing in the laundry and not wash and rinse the brass plates after using the toxic brass polish. Items including jewellery disappeared while Iphigenie was in the Ashram, just to name a few things. 

Iphigenie has received countless chances to change and much much guidance and support. Sree Maa had even graced her with the precious name Meera, the name of a humble and renowned devotee of Lord Krishna, to help her move past her old self but Iphigenie never let go of her vicious intentions and never worked to overcome her deep-rooted issues. Instead she worked hard to cause problems in the FiT group and sowed seeds of doubts everywhere. Narcissists are masters at this and they do so in a very insidious fashion. It is only in hindsight that for me the picture is clear after everything came out. Iphigenie was a true snake in the grass, slowly and surely spreading her poison into everyone, causing disruption, fights amongst the NZ FiTs and harassment to Sree Maa.

Why was Iphigenie so obsessed with Sree Maa? Narcissists are drawn to empathetic people. Narcissists know those people have a conscience and will go over and above themselves and if need come sacrifice their own peace to uplift them. The reason why Sree Maa was selected by Iphigenie, Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Awakening (as she calls herself now) and various other narcissists is because they all knew that Sree Maa will help until the end and they can get away with their tantrums or drama or whatever games they are playing. Sree Maa was surrounded by narcissists in the Ashram House but being the most empathetic and kind Sree Maa would allow the abuse to happen and constantly guide them to help them move beyond their issues. This is true selflessness. And absolute greatness.

You can hear in this audio clip how beautifully Sree Maa Shri Ji is giving a discourse to Iphigenie about envy and that it is important to overcome this dynamic energy within. Sree Maa gently mentions the example of someone manipulating fellow students to make sure they don't go to the campus party, to help Iphigenie reflect on what she had done to Sarala (see above). 

However, Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias did absolutely nothing to change, quite the opposite and eventually the rest of the FiTs voted her out (see also this public statement). She had not come for her Soul, her sole intention was to destroy as her jealousy and envy completely consumed her. You can hear her own admittance to this in this blog by one of my Kalyan Mitras.

Read Sick with Envy part 1 and Sick with envy part 2

PS
This blog is only intended to openly share about my spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme in particular, where some who joined turned out to be frauds and meddlers. This is not in judgement but in discernment, as i have learned that in my failure to remain aware and discern i have enabled those with vicious agendas and toxic behaviours and this doesn't serve any soul. And unfortunately, narcissists will be drawn to spiritual circles in particular as usually they can find a huge unsuspecting narcissistic supply of compassionate and empathetic people there. 

Sick with envy part 2

i first met Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias at an expo at the Gold Coast early 2013. She was asking a lot of questions sussing out information and seemed to like to show off what she had learnt so far. At that time Sree Maa (as well as Shri Ji at times) were regularly travelling to Australia to participate in expos and doing online workshops/trainings. All expos, and promotional material were entirely paid for by Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji and we as volunteers were very blessed to be involved. Iphigenie who lived in NZ always wanted to know what was going on in Australia. In January of 2013, she convinced Sree Maa that she would also like to volunteer like other volunteers in Sydney, and that’s how she joined the Gold Coast expo. 

Sree Maa had created a beautiful group dynamics within the Sydney volunteers, where everyone was given the freedom to express ideas on how to grow Kosmic Fusion and everybody had a voice. Sree Maa gave everyone equal freedom. Iphigenie saw this when she volunteered in Gold Coast, and for someone like her, this was something she recognised she was unable to create herself and therefore decided to destroy the group dynamics instead, as she admitted later on during the Reunion Retreat in July 2017.

This is also where Iphigenie (then called Meera) met Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and since then these two have been communicating and discussing via whatsapp, they were mostly gossiping about other FiTs. It’s obvious from their conversations they both were riddled with envy and jealousy and anyone they perceived as better than them and they couldn’t use as their supply had to be removed.

You can see the manipulations and bullying in the email that Iphigenie sent to Sheree who had been a very dependable and dedicated volunteer in Sydney who always demonstrated integrity and authenticity with a profound understanding of the Gift of Grace, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that Sree Maa Shri Ji were sharing with the world. It was clear she was jealous of Sheree and did not want her to join the FiT Programme. Do you think a normal, sincere person would send others emails with an aggressive tone like this or this? Surely not. 

In fact, these are signs to look out for. Narcissists, especially the covert malignant kind, lack empathy and conscience and even though they are great actors and can mimick emotions, the genuine touch will lack and there will be just something off or clearly off as in this case. It is only in hindsight that i can now see the signs in Iphigenie and Irene/Joy's body language, their choice of words (a lot of i i i, and you you you when they want to accuse for example), their facial expressions and just the feeling i would get. Will go into this in more detail another time. My Kalyan Mitra Hanuman has written an apt blog about how the eyes never lie. 

Most interesting to note are the whatsapp conversations (full of gossip mongering) Iphigenie and Irene were having about Sheree and Jabeen and the emails Iphigenie was sending, where you can actually see their God complex, their grandiosity and jealousy. And now these two are crying wolf and saying they are the victim? That doesn't make sense at all to me.

Interesting to note too that in the whatsapp conversations you can also see Iphigenie targeting Irene by subtly provoking her by saying how difficult Sree Maa is and Sree Maa’s words are so hurtful so that she would leave as according to Iphigenie at that time, Irene was contributing and leading so many tasks. Iphigenie was jealous of Irene too. Narcissists spare no one, not even other narcissists. 

Would also like to highlight this part in their whatsapp conversation where both Iphigenie (she was called Meera at the time) and Irene tried to edge Sree Maa Shri Ji, who are the very BRINGER of the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) out. They want to use to QVSWPP but can't bear to give credit to the one who brings this Gift of Grace onto the planet... See also my blog about how narcissists tried to use the QVSWPP.

23/09/14, 21:43 - Meera: Just don't know what to say...

Thank you 

23/09/14, 21:46 - Meera: She talks about her and Suniel lifting the frequency.  How did you say that,  please?

23/09/14, 21:47 - Meera: Did you say they will lift it remotely?  Or did you keep it neutral and say the QVSWPP will do it?

23/09/14, 22:06 - Komal Irene Kuo: I would say Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse 

Read Sick with envy part 1
Continue to Sick with envy part 3


PS
This blog is only intended to openly share about my spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme in particular, where some who joined turned out to be frauds and meddlers. This is not in judgement but in discernment, as i have learned that in my failure to remain aware and discern i have enabled those with vicious agendas and toxic behaviours and this doesn't serve any soul. And unfortunately, narcissists will be drawn to spiritual circles in particular as they can find a huge unsuspecting narcissistic supply of compassionate and empathetic people there. 

Volunteering

What does volunteering mean to you? Volunteering to me means offering your time and services for a greater cause without any selfish agenda or motive from a genuine place, not expecting anything back. Felt extremely grateful Sree Maa Shri Ji offered us the opportunity to volunteer to take the great work that Kosmic Fusion offers to more people. To be able to witness other souls being touched so profoundly by the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is such a blessing and so humbling.

In volunteering for Kosmic Fusion, being the non-doer was key. Stepping back and letting the ALL-KNOWING Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, this most precious Swaminarayan Mahamantra shared boundlessly by Sree Maa Shri Ji with humanity, do the work.

Might i add that we have always been given utmost freedom to volunteer: it was based on Trust. Sree Maa Shri Ji trusted us to come from authenticity, honesty, integrity and transparency as these were the key principles that Sree Maa Shri Ji held very high and lived by example 100%. A rare find in this world.

Also, anyone was free to leave at any point in time. Never ever was there any pressure or enforcement to volunteer. In fact, it was us who approached Sree Maa Shri Ji and asked if we could be involved.

Fake volunteers with vicious agendas

Have always done my best to come from a place of authenticity, honesty and integrity.  Of course, i am not perfect, had and have my ego shades, and have made my mistakes, letting the doer step in on occasion. But i have been willing to look at that, learn and grow from it.

Two of the FiTs in the group, Dallia/Ipigenie Amoutzias and Irene/Joy/Tzu-Ling Kuo (she now calls herself Joy Vottus), behaved differently and never changed their ways. Interestingly, these two are now the ones who are now crying wolf and claim they have done so much for Kosmic Fusion but are now slinging mud at Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji.

Let’s look at the facts.   

Iphigenie Amoutzias/Dallia was given a group of 25-30 volunteers/FiTS and Pulsars (people who have attended to revolutionary Awakenin Transformation workshop) to work with in New Zealand. End result where Iphigenie/Dallia was the representative: EVERYONE has left but 1 FiT is remaining (though Dallia tried her very best to get Nandini out). She made sure everyone else left. What has come out is shocking. She was spreading lies about Kosmic Fusion and doubts about Sree Maa Shri Ji at the gatherings. She made sure volunteers were pitted against each other and started to argue and fight. What kind of volunteering is this??? Iphigenie herself afterwards confessed that her mission was to destroy Kosmic Fusion.

Let’s look at what happened in Sydney where Komal/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Irene Kuo/Joy Awakening (which is her latest name) had forcefully taken the lead and was the representative of Kosmic Fusion. Same result: most people left! Why you may wonder? Irene always wanted to be in control, her bossy behaviour did not go down very well with most people, she was also putting others down so they left. Tzu-Ling/Joy tried so hard, so much effort was put in, many expos and festivals Irene attended, but she wasn’t able to have success as she forgot the one golden rule: step back and let the QVSWPP step in.

But her actions were more sinister, she not only started to promote Kosmic Fusion but her own business Holistic Freedom, putting up banner with a big photo of herself and Hanuman whom she had carefully groomed, she siphoned out data from Kosmic Fusion and approached these contacts for her own business, she falsely claimed to be a Facilitator of Kosmic Fusion and the list goes on and on.

Genuineness and growth

Now let’s look at what is happening in other regions where genuine volunteers where humbly offering their time. There the number of Pulsars and people involved with Kosmic Fusion grew! In the Netherlands, i had the great honour to witness how word of mouth just brought people in. Did not have to do anything as i knew it was not me doing anything: the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse knows, Bhagwan knows and without the Will of Bhagwan not even a leaf can move. Have no words to express how humbling it is to be able to witness something so Great and Magnanimous.

What happens when you ask questions to fake volunteers?

The kind of ‘volunteering’ two of the FiTs offered was anything but volunteering. Irene/Joy was driven by her selfish motive of money and fame and Dallia/Iphigenie was hellbent on destruction. The results speak for themselves. Both were set on having the control. Now that their true motive and face is out, instead of chosing to reflect and change, they are running a smear campaign – and yes this is what narcissists do. Could not have summed it up better than this:

Feel strongly to bring out the Truth as while remaining silent will only enable this kind of people who unfortunately roam in every walk of life including spiritual circles and Satsangs. 

One final note. Now, Irene Kuo/Joy Awakening is now claiming that Kosmic Fusion cost her $100,000 in time, money and the loss of income from quitting her job as a university librarian to volunteer full-time. Really, what can one say???!!! This in itself proves that she wasn’t there to volunteer but only had money on her mind. Nobody asked her to volunteer or to quit her job. She was and is driven by greed – one of the key inner enemies that people are struggling with on this planet. She has been given so much Grace and support by Sree Maa Shri Ji to overcome this but chose not to. That is the thing with Grace, it is given unconditionally, but are you ready to receive it?

P.S. Am only sharing my experiences so that it may be of benefit to those going through similar situations. It took me a while to wake up and smell the coffee, hope it won't take others this long.