A way out

Imagine taking a look 700 years from now into the future, it’s 2721. Drones are flying all over the city, there is very little green. Workers are being accompanied by robots to factory type places before sunrise and brought back after sunset into their sleeping pods. They never see the light of day. They have already lost that spark within them. The pods are where they are kept artificially happy; people are induced into a fantasy world where they can be and experience anything they like.

If you are lucky, you are ‘free’ to roam around on the streets and decide for yourself what you want to do. But how free are you really when you are moving only to the beat of your worldly desires encouraged by the constant barrage of subliminal, artificial suggestions and manipulations coming at you 24/7? These people are always followed by bots monitoring them, under the guise of servant bots. The look in their eyes is empty; that depth, that soulfulness is gone. Life has become all about gratifying the senses, it is all about ‘what’s next for me’. No need to toil or put any effort in, just pop a pill, upload a programme into your brain and you are the expert at this or that. You can be that special one, the hero in the story. People are not even looking at the sun anymore, there is too much artificial stimulation all around. No one looks up let alone within.

This may seem farfetched but am extrapolating from what i am observing around me right now. What we are seeing now is not so much different. People moving through their work, eat, sleep, entertain me cycle. Get up, work, come home, either first engage in some exercise to stay fit or straight away flick on the tv or Netflix, open up a can of beer or some other alcoholic beverage, eat food, including food for which other species have had to suffer and give their life, sleep and then the cycle starts all over again. Occasionally this cycle is interrupted by a sea, sand, sun holiday. We are so busy striving for a partner, children, bigger house, bigger car, career, looking young, having fun, feeling good, that we lose sight of what truly matters. We are so caught up in ‘my story’ that we have forgotten to look for the Truth within.

Where is the room and time for inner contemplation, where is the time to think about the Cause of all causes? We have become so distracted that we can’t find the time to ponder on the age-old questions such as who am i? Or innocent questions like wow which artist is this that has drawn the beauty and power of nature, whose mysterious force underpins and upholds this massive universe and makes the planets revolve in perfect sync? We have lost that innocence, that wonder and that connection – thinking we know so much as humans, when in truth we don’t have a clue and are drifting away from our very essence.

Already the world is so confused, and more confusion is added every day. A child of the 70s, i have been very lucky to have had a childhood outside. Used to roam around in parks and hang out in nature. We did not have any fancy toys, just playing with a skipping rope and a hula hoop and we were happy. We had tv but there were no push notifications trying to get our attention. Things used to be simpler. Today’s youth are always wired online and being swamped with so many projections that they don’t know what is up and what is down. Children are overwhelmed with messages to be woke and with countless options of gender and sexual orientation from a very early age. They are aware of things now by the age of 7 that we didn’t even know when we were 14. They are rapidly losing that innocence which is so vital for our jivatma (incarnational soul) to remain pure.  

Social media is on 24/7 and we are bombarded with online projections through role models like Kim Kardashian, the gameplaying YouTube celebs or the next crypto millionaire. Everyone is claiming to be someone on socials, but the truth is rarely shared. The other day Instagram came up in a conversation with a colleague and she explained how so many of her friends post pictures that are a fake portrayal of their life and who they are. She said, it is so funny that they will post that one thing that maybe happened for 1 second throughout their entire day but make it seem like it is their life. We live in fictional realities where fakeness and façade are the norm. Connection with others now is through playing online games, we gather likes and shares for approval, we express through emojis and have apps where you can pick a (sex) partner based on online profiles, swipe left for reject, swipe right for like. With the Covid-19 pandemic and related lockdowns this has been taken to another level, where isolation is enforced, and connection is moved further into the virtual world. On top of that fear of survival has increased which makes our mind more susceptible to programming.

With so much programming already done of the collective unconscious and subconscious mind, it is next to impossible to discern what is genuine and what is projection, what is real and what is fake. And worse, to discern what is right and what is wrong. One good look at the world, and you can tell the madness and chaos is only increasing. Instead of focusing on the Divine within and the invisible thread that connects us all, on the level of Atma, there is more split happening within families, within nations, between nations, between continents. There is this group and that group. There is victim and victimizer. There is rich and poor. Now we also have the vaccinated vs the unvaccinated. Wonder whose agenda it is to cause further division? On all levels, there is struggle for dominance, power play and manipulation and the ones best at this seem to be rewarded. Where is there a place for righteous conduct?

Where is living in the rhythm of nature, in tune with the Cosmos and understanding our part in the bigger scheme of things? Where is the humility that our very breath and life force is not our own and we are insignificant? Where is the understanding that we are never in control and that who we truly are is not this body, not this mind and not the sea of emotions that we experience? We can send humans into space but have no understanding of Truth. We are technologically advanced and no doubt with the advent of AI this will be taken to an unimaginable level, but we are spiritually lost. We have computers now writing articles and books and dictating the objects of our attention.

Who is looking for the Absolute Truth? From what i can see very few. Hardly anyone is talking about the jivatma anymore, let alone the Absolute. And if they are talking about a higher power, it is about a God that punishes and can condemn people to eternal hell, coming from Abrahamic religions that seem to have more to do with control than with pathways for the jivatma to become liberated. Their heaven and hell sound a lot like man-made astral planes where you can get stuck and get sucked by inorganic lifeforms who have already lost their essence and hunt for food to survive.

The proven pathways of Sanatana Dharma that show the way to Self-Realisation and ultimate liberation are under pressure. Those time-tested practices that are part of Hinduism that keep you attuned to your True Soul and the Absolute are being ridiculed. This is a carefully designed attack. There are those who do not want you to wake up to the Truth or spend time looking within. The sacred Guru – shishya parampara that has been there for thousands of years is systematically being eroded. Media are constantly putting Gurus under the train, picturing them as loonies or cult leaders. Those trying to protect Sanatana Dharma are called extremist and under relentless attack in the media in the West and in India itself. This is not a coincidence. Even today’s Hindus in India are being kept away from Sanatana Dharma with all the liberal, leftist and communist narratives and agendas in the sold-out media. Sadly, forced conversions to Abrahamic religions and love jihad are an everyday occurrence.

It is not so hard to imagine that what we see amongst nations on earth is also happening on a grander scale. Earth itself is the centre of a battle between beings from other dimensions. Beings that have already used up and destroyed their own dimensions, but their need for survival is so strong. They have found an inorganic way to live and can only live as a parasite looking for those that they can draw energy from, and humans are a perfect supply. It is these intruders that have come a couple of thousand years ago and set up a matrix with their advanced technology; a matrix that pumps in programmes and is so enmeshed with our natural reality that we cannot distinguish what is real and what is artificial. A technology that can manipulate the 5 sheaths that surround our spark and constitute our physical, subtle and causal bodies. To use a modern analogy, they have found a way to hack into our mind, emotions and energy system and they are projecting on us from there.

There are those on the planet colluding with these intruders and furthering the division and control. They have sold their soul in their pursuit of power and exaltation of the ‘i’. With every industrial revolution more technology has been introduced not so much for the betterment of humanity and society, but to further the dependency on external factors and strengthen the control on the human psyche. Nowadays they can make computer chips the size of dust - imagine what they could do with that to human consciousness. If you look at the Hollywood movies that have come out showing a dystopian world, space battles, AI rule and mind control, this may be closer to the truth than you think. Don’t be surprised if the intruders disclose beforehand what they are doing this way.

It is only those who are beyond space and time, those who are already fully Self Realized and merged with the Absolute who can show you the way out. They are sent for the benefit of those jivatmas, those mumukshus who still long for the Absolute, who somehow haven’t made it out yet but whose Atma is yearning to merge with the Paramatma. They bring the Absolute Truth to wake up seekers from the deep slumber they are in. We may have forgotten Bhagwan, but the Absolute has not forgotten us. One of those on such a Divine rescue mission is Sreemaa-Shreeji, bringing the most Benevolent and Magnificent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the Supreme Signature of the Absolute.

When someone shares the Truth, it rattles you. It rattled me. Truth cannot be realized through technology, only in silence and only by the Grace of that One and Only One. You have to stop being a player and be willing to lose yourself, this ‘i’ that has been in survival mode for so long. The Truth is that when you are the doer, you get done. If you are brave and honest enough to reflect on this, you will see this in your life every single day. But when you realize who is the All-Doer and that you are not in control and you are willing to let go and surrender, there is hope. Those on a rescue mission serve selflessly and silently and will bring exactly what is needed as it is the Absolute that is working through them. They will touch your Atma and bring you that undeniable experience of your True Self, beyond the 3 bodies. They will take your hand and show you the way out in mysterious ways that you cannot even fathom.  

Back to 2721. Imagine if you are someone still with that divine spark within that is longing to merge with its illuminator but stuck in the matrix, loaded with programmes and constantly being projected upon. For some reason you haven’t made it yet and find yourself again in a human body on this planet surrounded by holographic inserts without a soul. How will you get Home? How will your Atma fuse with the Paramatma? How will you even realize your true essence? There are no more Gurus, no methods, no school of thoughts, no more Avatars sent that teach, correct and show the way out. Yet there is hope.

It is written in the ancient Shastras that Bhagwan will come for His Bhaktas, for those who are looking for Him. The Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is that Supreme Lifeline that shows genuine seekers the way to final liberation. IT is beyond time and space and cannot be touched by any technology or destroyed by anything. IT is Beyond Beyond, All-Powerful and AI is no match for it. IT is the Formless Form of that One and Only One that connects with that Zero-Point within you, your True Self. IT is that Mysterious and Mighty Mother of all Energies, Frequencies and Vibrations that will help jivatmas find their answers even inside the matrix and as the Ultimate GPS make sure the parcel is delivered back to where it belongs. IT is Supreme Grace in action that bestows a way out.

The deluded new age followers’ psyche

Before i met SreeMaa-Shreeji, whom i am very fortunate to call Paratpar Guru, was looking for answers to my inner quest in the new age circles. Having had no exposure to Sanatana Dharma, had no idea what true spirituality was and was reading ‘spiritual’ books at random and trying out different things from the new age smorgasbord. My agyan and avidya (ignorance) was high and with my white privilege firmly in place, i was also ignorant about cultural appropriation.

New age industry
If you take a real good and honest look at the new age movement, it is not so much about the soul or genuine spirituality, but more about feeling good or special and earning money. You could call it an industry. Not surprisingly spiritual bypassing is rife, just as cultural appropriation. With all the new age spiritual coaches, channels, healers and readers out there, it is more like the blind leading the blind. All this is a recipe for getting lost in the delusions rather than moving forward and it was true that i wasn’t going anywhere in my spiritual pursuit as such. For me everything changed when i had the great fortune to meet SreeMaa in February 2012.

Touched by Supreme Grace 
I can never thank Paratpar Guru enough for taking this lost soul under Paratpar Guru’s Wings, awakening my True Soul (Atma), opening my eyes to the truth and ceaselessly guiding me in this blessed P.R.O.C.E.S.S of Awakenin Transformation Transcendence to move past the antics of the small self, to move more towards being a non-doer, embody the True Soul and remain rooted in the True SELF (Brahmroop) who is fully surrendered to the Absolute. All this while being Graced with a 24/7 connection to the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the most benevolent Signature of the Source/Void shared boundlessly by Paratpar Guru that uplifts, upgrades, heals and unifies on a scale that is beyond human comprehension. It is in the Sharan of Paratpar Guru that i learnt what real spirituality (adhyatmikta) entails and the reason why jivatmas take a human birth.

An honest look at my shallow and phony new age followers’ psyche
True spirituality requires honestly looking within to move past the narratives we tell ourselves, the grey shades and the inner enemies. Sharing a quick snapshot overview of my new (c)age explorations and the cultural appropriation i ended up doing as well as the delusions that were part of my phony new age followers’ psyche, so that others may open their eyes and think twice before falling for the new age fluff.

• I appropriated the word Goddess by running Goddess circles with another person for mothers. This was a very shallow way of operating as i had not done the required inner work nor done the research to understand what a Goddess really means.
  
  
• Had angel cards, incl a deck by Doreen Virtue’s that featured images of Deities and Devis such as Lord Ganesh and Lakshmiji, which i now realize is the pinnacle of cultural appropriation and entitlement as if they can be used to manifest what we desire.
  
  
• Before moving to Northern Beaches in Sydney, i did a 7 level reiki workshop and volunteered for the teacher’s reiki stand at MBS. Gave 2 or 3 reiki sessions in exchange for money.
  
  
• Had a couple of yoga dvd’s, using it to practice what i thought was yoga, but these only focussed on the body and mind, leaving out the most crucial part of the Atma and union with the Paramatma. Did not research to find out what yoga is really about nor who brought this gift to humanity. Pretty much the same attitude that most people in the west would have.
  
  
• In the Netherlands a lot of people think it is fashionable to have a Buddha statue and was gifted one for my birthday once which i kept as decoration for a while. Had no idea what Buddha taught or what Buddhism was about, nor did i look into it at the time.
  
  
• Played music on youtube which had mantras without understanding the meaning.
  
  
• Have been wearing Indian style clothing without thinking about how people from India would feel about this.
  
  
• Visited Swaminarayan Mandirs in the UK without checking with Paratpar Guru, which shows my white sense of entitlement.
  
  
• Bought right into the love and light programme because it made me feel good. What this means in simple terms is pretending to be loving, compassionate and giving but refusing to look at your dark/shadow/small self. Or think about the actresses whom many may admire as so beautiful, loving and kind but in reality, they are using drugs and doing things that are a far cry away from the righteous way of living, in tune with one’s True Soul. 
  
  
• Did some course titled the voice for love to be able to hear the inner voice. Thought i could hear the inner voice by doing some course instead of doing real inner work. This was linked to a Course in Miracles, which talks about surrender and Grace of God but had no clue what this really meant. Had some concept of God is Love and was hoping and praying to connect with God. This was just before i met SreeMaa (whom i then knew as KaVeeTa).
  
  
• My signature of my old email address when starting to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion read ‘sharing the love’ and had a website named presenceoflove. Think i stopped the website somewhere in 2015. My new cage psyche actually thought i knew what love was and i was here to share the love; talk about grandiosity.  
  
  
• For the longest time i have held this belief in some world of love and oneness, not seeing things for what they really are. This was a way of spiritual bypassing for me instead of facing the truth.
  
  
• Especially in the beginning of my ‘spiritual’ search, read a lot of self help books, Eckhart Tolle and the likes, mixing and matching randomly, not following one dedicated path, and following authors or teachers without knowing their foundation or lineage – generally a bad idea.
  
  
• Had Doreen Virtue’s meaning of numbers book and Louis Hays book of affirmations. Didn’t have the discipline to do affirmations but loved deriving special meaning from seeing combination of numbers and actually thought the angels were guiding me that way. Believed that i was guided by the angels to go to Australia and the angels got me a job in Australia. Later found out it was my karma bhumi, meaning i would only encounter hard karmic lessons.
  
  
• Bought into the lightworker nonsense, feeling special as ‘i’ was on the earth to do sth good and visited some spiritual circles and listened to the odd online ‘guided’ meditation by Pleiadians or sth like that. Also remember some meditation with a merkaba called diamond alignment. Completely clueless about the energetic pollution that i was exposing myself to as i really had no idea who i was opening myself up to or to what i was connecting.
  
  
• Was impressed with people who were able to channel. Did not consider what kind of energies could be coming through. Had no clue about energy hygiene apart from believing in cutting cords as taught by Doreen Virtue and Archangel Michael’s violet flame. My ignorance was extremely high. Would like to urge seekers that energy hygiene is very important and avoid these new age type of guided or channeled meditations, especially the mass meditations, as you have no idea what you are opening your energy field up to. 
  
  
• Went to have a reading a few times. Also had one or two small crystals which i kept on ‘my altar’. The new cage smorgasbord fitted right in with my consumer attitude and doing as per how i pleased, no discipline required but believing am living some special purpose.
  
  
• Believed in the soul mate, twin flame stuff and desperately wanted to be with my soul mate. This is all about human desires rather than the soul. This deluded desire got me into a lot of trouble and ended up dating two holographic inserts (ironically those without a soul), not only that but falling pregnant as well. One was even after meeting KaVeeTa and attending the Awakenin Transformation workshop. It is only the ati ati Daya aur Krupa of Paratpar Guru that the hideous energies in my womb were released. Sharing this openly as i know there are a lot of seekers out there still lost in the soul mate drama. The True Soul belongs to the Absolute and real union is the union between the Atma and Parmatma, the True Soul and the Absolute.

Forever indebted to Paratpar Guru for taking me under Paratpar Guru's Wings, guiding me into the fold of Sanatana Dharma and waking me up to the Truth  /\ô_ _/\ô_ /\ô_

Interviews with my dear kalyan mitras

Earlier this year flew down to Sydney to meet with my dear kalyan mitras to reflect back on our phenomenal journey of the last couple of years with beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji in the FiT Programme and Kosmic Fusion.

There is so much to share but in my humble understanding the essence of it is unfathomable Grace, Sree Maa Shri Ji's pure Grace, Compassion and Kindness and total selflessness that has propelled us onto and forward on the journey towards our True SELF, the Brahmroop. Even though we have made many mistakes due to our inner weaknesses and flaws, learning at the expense of Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, Sree Maa never let go of our hands and keeps ushering forward. With the GPS installed, the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse shared unconditionally by Sree Maa Shri Ji, and the Shelter of Sree Maa Shri Ji's gracious Wing we are most fortunate to be on the path of liberation Homebound.

Welcome you to watch our frank and heartfelt interviews about our transformational journeys:

















 Please stay tuned, more interviews coming :)

Why this blog?

Why this blog?

Thank you for coming to this blog, which is my personal sharing of what happened to us – a small group of volunteers who were part of a most precious FiT Programme. i am not a psychologist but have done extensive research into narcissism after what happened to try to understand and learn.

This includes learning about my own weaknesses and oblivion that gave the covert manipulators such a platform; for the longest time i had no idea what these toxic people were up to and how they were using all of us as a supply.

What i am sharing is my personal experience and analysis of what happened. The toxicity some of the people in the group displayed is of such a concern that through this sharing i hope to make others aware.

The ones with toxic agendas had been telling our mentor Sree Maa Shri Ji since 2013 Oct as well as the rest of us that they want to serve, they really want to take the work of Kosmic Fusion to the world. i took their words at face value and trusted them.

As it turned out, instead of serving they were operating under the radar pursuing their own selfish and destructive agendas. Yet there were given many chances to transform. Key part of the FiT Programme was looking at the shades of the small self, to be able to awaken, transform and transcend the small self, embody the Self to finally attain the Brahmroop (SELF).

Sree Maa was showing so much Grace and Compassion to help them look at the shades they were holding and making them see how they were completely out of touch with reality. Unfortunately, these toxic people continued to play games.

If Sree Maa Shri Ji wouldn’t have stopped them, they would have actually been working with the people in the world by using the platform of Kosmic Fusion. When a place was reached where it was absolutely not okay for Sree Maa Shri Ji to have them use the platform of Kosmic Fusion, they were removed. 

Typical of narcissists, they colluded to run a smear campaign to slander Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion in the media.

Today they are out there and based on the patterns we have seen they are going to get other people. Now it is the responsibility of others to do their homework before interacting with them, because their track record doesn’t look very promising. However, we wish them all the best and we wish they’d change.

Throughout this blog i refer to certain admittance these toxic people have given about their behaviour and motives. It is the utmost Grace of Shreeji Maharaj and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that we even succeeded to this extent for them to speak the truth. 

To actually make a narcissist speak the truth is impossible. So, the kind of information we’ve got through them is quite something. Because they were very sure Sree Maa Shri Ji is so compassionate and because it was happening in a safe space, they were just letting it all out. Of course, as narcissists do nothing without an agenda, it was with an agenda to be absorbed back into the group again. 

Based on their behaviour after they left, it doesn’t look like they were really wanting to change. The proof is the paid revenge article they published, which is a complete sham and lie. 

Irene/Komal changed her name to Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and is now shamelessly calling herself a spiritual healer whereas she hasn’t done the work on herself. Iphigenie Amoutzias/Dallia/Meera has moved to Europe, changed her name to Malana Taresi and claims to be a flower essence healer. 

You draw your own conclusion about what their moves mean. Forwarned is forarmed…