My response to "Awakening with Joy's" cult attack claims

This is my response to 'Awakening with Joy Vottus' cult attack claims based on my own experience with her. You can skim through the video if you like, using the following timestamps:

0:00 min: Why the claims are baseless (with clear evidence)
5:40 min: What's really behind the attack (see also my other blog)
6:48 min: Lessons learned and signs to watch out for (spoiler alert: someone who always plays the victim)
10:50 min: What Joy Vottus has actually done (with proofs)

Utopian oneness

Love and oneness - sounds beautiful doesn’t it? i was a believer in a utopian oneness, the kind of ‘one love, one light, one happy world’. It is a belief that circulates a lot in new age circles. When i joined the FiT Programme, this belief came with me.

i saw everyone through this lens and believed that all the other people who joined the FiT Programme came with the same genuine intention. But i was wrong. There is no one universal path and one universal way as on this planet everyone is different, the gradation of souls is different. Yet i kept believing in this oneness and not adequately reflecting on the precious teachings Sree Maa was giving. 

At the start of the Retreat in 2016, Sree Maa told us about the Samudra Manthan in which there were devas (heavenly beings) and danavas (demonic beings), but i never looked if there were possibly any danavas sitting in our group…

As it turned out there were. Some of ones who joined the FiT Programme came with devious hidden intentions of stealing and destruction and sadly they never changed, though they were given the most gracious opportunity to do so. For a very long time i was completely oblivious to this and trusted each one completely.

All this while i was wearing these rose coloured glasses and kept believing in this oneness, which gave the toxic people the opportunity to manipulate me and use me. They would steal credit, would marginalize and minimize me, would come up with excuses to make me all do the work and i didn’t mind as i thought we are doing this as one team for the mission of Kosmic Fusion.

Because of my trusting nature and false beliefs, i failed to clue on to what was really going on and did not realize that people are not exactly what they show. Some of the toxic ones were subtly spreading their poison in the group, creating disharmony and driving people away.

Sree Maa was enduring a lot of harassment at the hands of the toxic ones in the Ashram and i only woke up to this once their masks were literally falling off as i was living in some lala land. 

Never asked the right questions or joined the dots even though there were moments and clues where i could have woken up and smelled the coffee. This is not about judging others but coming from clarity and discernment is important.  

It is my own nature that made me fail to see clearly and take action when some of the people were damaging the mission of Kosmic Fusion. When we cling to false beliefs it can be very damaging. 

Oneness at the level of the world is impossible. Oneness at the level of Atma, True Self is another matter. The potential of the Absolute is present in each one. In the 2015 Retreat we had experienced such priceless fusion and love through the most Gracious initiations bestowed by Sree Maa Shri Ji which i will humbly write about in another blog.

A narcissist's malicious web of lies

Anyone who knows a little bit about narcissism knows that narcissists are pathological liars. Below image sums up well why they lie and that they don't feel bad about it either.

Will share about one such lie that was part of a smear campaign by a narcissist after she was asked to leave due to her highly destructive behaviour for many years. Iphigenie Amoutzias, now going under the name Malana Taresi doing some flower essences in Germany, has claimed in media interviews and podcasts she was surprised the FiT Programme turned “all Hindu” in 2016.

All this is just a ploy on the part of a malignant narcissist to spread lies and confusion, make herself look innocent and the other party look questionable. They are cunning and clever but cannot stand in front of the facts, in front of the Truth.

First of all, before Iphigenie came to Kosmic Fusion, she was a Buddhist for 20 years (!). She talked about how she had been a Buddhist leader who guided others, so in that case her knowledge about Buddhism must have been pretty solid. She must have known about the concepts of karma, reincarnation and that Buddhism has its origins in Hinduism, or a more correct word for this is Sanatana Dharma, the eternal way of righteous living.

None of us were ever surprised that the FiT Programme was based on Sanatana Dharma because Sree Maa has always been very transparent. Straight away Sree Maa has spoken about being the non-doer and used the word akarmi. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see that is a Sanskrit word…

In the FiT Programme trial intake in 2013 it was most clear this was about Sanatana Dharma, as Sree Maa spoke about chakras, karma, dharma, the atma, reincarnation, the small self (jivatma), the true SELF (Brahmn) and many other concepts from Sanatana Dharma and mentioned Sanatana Dharma itself. In facebook posts and messages shared with all FiTs in 2013 Sree Maa wrote at the end OM Sai Brahman. We were introduced to the greeting Hari OM Brahmn in 2014, silent Guru mantra was given in 2015, well before that she was graced with a new name Meera to support her in her spiritual journey, which is the name of a great devotee of Lord Krishna. Think the picture is crystal clear here. She is lying through her teeth that things all of a sudden turned Hindu. Sanatana Dharma always was the very basis.

Then the other question is. If she had such trouble with it like she is now claiming, why did she stay? Everyone was always free to leave. In fact, there are some who left as they felt the FiT Training was no longer resonating with them, no judgement, no questions asked. And why did she come on a trip to India to visit temples as late as 2017 when this too was completely optional, some of the group didn’t come.

Nothing was ever co-erced. Before each initiation we were given the choice, at the end of each year we were encouraged to reflect to see if this was still our path. But then after she was asked to leave the FiT Programme and Kosmic Fusion mid 2017 due to her highly unethical and malignant behaviour that had come to light, she runs to the media to take revenge and goes around saying it all turned Hindu.

It is clear this is just a question of sour grapes and most of all she is trying to slander and malign the reputation of Kosmic Fusion to keep other people away from Kosmic Fusion. While in the FiT Programme she was trying to veer others off course and get them out (see this blog) as her mission in her own words was to destroy Kosmic Fusion. After she got found out and left, she is still trying to do the same, as summed up aptly in the below image:

P.S.

Sharing this to stand up for the truth and to raise awareness about narcissism so that innocent people don't fall victim to these wolves in sheep clothing. See also my answer to a Quora question regarding malignant narcissists.

Sree Maa: living embodiment of Grace and Compassion

Writing this, tears well up. Sree Maa has done so much for me, a meritless, agyani soul, not only ignorant but also arrogant who was deeply lost in Maya and drunk on ego. My sense is i am not even aware of 1% of what Sree Maa has done for my soul and countless other souls to elevate them and eventually lead them back to where they belong, to Bhagwan Swaminarayan.

i am not able to adequately describe the Greatness of someone so elevated, loving and supremely Divine like Sree Maa Shri Ji as my understanding is very limited, but will attempt to share my experience and thoughts as my humble tribute to my Supreme Lifeline and Ultimate Well-Wisher, the one whom i am fortunate to call my Guru, and also as a stance to share the Truth.

There are some who are so deluded by their false self and ego fabrications and so caught up in their narcissistic self, they have spread lies about Sree Maa Shri Ji, things that couldn’t be further from the Truth. How anyone can talk lies about One who is so Compassionate, Loving and Kind really beats me but with this humble sharing i hope to go some way in dispelling those falsities.

Wherever Sree Maa walks everything gets uplifted and is touched by Grace so Supreme, there are simply no words for it. A small example: when we visited Vrindavan with Sree Maa during a Pilgrimage in 2017, clearly remember this place where pandits were literally screaming and fighting out of greed. Recently one of the Faculty members had the great fortune to travel with Sree Maa to Vrindavan again and she saw that the greed had gone down tremendously, not only in that particular place but in the whole of Vrindavan and Mathura where we had gone at that time. There is no doubt in my head this is the Grace of Sree Maa. My heart delights thinking about all the places Sree Maa has been that have been showered with an invisible but All-powerful touch of Grace.

i was not always aware of this, in fact i did not recognize the Divinity and Greatness of Sree Maa Shri Ji at first. Sree Maa has explained, this is Kali Yuga, this is the time where God can walk past and people will not recognize God. i was one of those people… Only by Sree Maa’s Supreme Grace has my Soul been awakened and my eyes opened up.

To be in the Presence of Sree Maa Shri Ji is a Blessing and boon beyond compare. Bodily awareness decreases, less sleep is needed, awareness increases as the Soul comes in the forefront rather than the small self, but also that which needs to be let go of will come up so it can graciously be discarded for the Soul to move closer to Bhagwan. To even have Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Darshan is a Blessing and not to be taken lightly, something which i with my western background was slow to comprehend. Apart from Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Darshan, Sree Maa’s eyes and voice have always mesmerized me and truly are from beyond this world.

Can honestly say that Sree Maa has not only lifted up my soul but also made me a better human being in the first place, one who can be honest with herself and with others. Through Sree Maa’s unconditional Love, Compassion and Grace have changed from quite an uncouth individual, fluffed up by a miss goody two shoes fakeness and useless people pleasing tendencies to a more refined human being, even though am very much still work in progress, as is my Atmanishta.

Sree Maa has never ever held my agyan against me, even though must have unknowingly shown a lot of disrespect as i had no clue how to even talk or behave appropriately in the Presence of Grace and Utmost Divinity. Sree Maa is an Anaadi Mukt, completely one with the One and Only One, Bhagwan Swaminarayan, a paramekantik Bhakt of Bhagwan Swaminarayan, and yet has met me where i was no matter how ignorant and gone out of Sree Maa Shri Ji’s way to uplift my soul. Sree Maa has picked me up from the hole i had dug myself in. Can only imagine what it must be like having to put your hand into the sewer to pull someone out, and to do so without any resistance and with pure Love.

Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Compassion knows no bounds. This you can immediately feel when you are in the Presence of Sree Maa. Have had the great fortune to see Sree Maa bless all creatures, be they simple flies, cows or deer. Never Sree Maa loses sight of the Paramatma within the Atma within all and Sree Maa does not leave a stone unturned to elevate souls. Even the two covert malignant narcissists who infiltrated the FiT Programme have had moments of reflection and conscience, through Sree Maa’s supernova empathy and unlimited Compassion, which is unprecedented.

Have heard Charitras about Nandsantos (elite saints) in the time of Shreeji Maharaj who were sometimes beaten black and blue by wicked people. Being the elevated Souls they are, they would not retaliate but forgive the attackers and pray for their well-being. Have seen the same thing with Sree Maa Shri Ji who was attacked, slandered, backstabbed by some of the FiTs, one of the FiT even tried to poison Sree Maa Shri Ji but Sree Maa Shri Ji would silently endure and still pray for their well-being, shower them with Compassion, Guidance and show them the way. i failed to keep the Paksh of Sree Maa, but Sree Maa always had my back and protected me from the attacks from the narcissists, taking the brunt of the attacks on herself. 

Sree Maa is the epitome of selflessness. Always going above and beyond what is humanly possible to support others, making untold personal sacrifices and spending tireless days, sleepless nights to guide others, without thinking twice always putting the welfare of others before Sree Maa. 

Sree Maa has taken on and processed a lot of my negativity and that of all the FiTs, experienced so many bodily discomforts, but never once Sree Maa would complain. i was the one failing to look after Sree Maa, and making sure Sree Maa Shri Ji’s is comfortable, but Sree Maa never ever failed me or anyone else. Sree Maa is the ultimate Giver, who hears all prayers and who gives and gives and gives.

Sree Maa Shri Ji knows me better than i know myself and has only ever my well-being, the kalyan of my Atma at heart. Like a true Mother Sree Maa has nurtured me so lovingly, holding my hand as i stumbled and fell and acted up. Even when i was taking Sree Maa Shri Ji for granted or acted inappropriately, Sree Maa still held on tight and ushered me forward. Sree Maa has spent countless hours on me, guiding me personally, explaining things again and again in ways so that my thick head can understand, making sure the ego doesn’t get the better of me and towards my Brahmroop is where this soul is headed. Very patiently and lovingly Sree Maa has guided me into the fold of Santana Dharma, the eternal Truth and righteous way of living. When Sree Maa isn’t physically present, Sree Maa is still there, very tangibly so guiding, supporting, showing the way Home.

The Gnan showered by Sree Maa Shri Ji is simply Supreme. Have never come across anyone who can teach like this and who is the living embodiment of not just Grace and Compassion but Ultimate Wisdom, the Absolute Truth. The effortlessness with which Sree Maa Shri Ji can talk and teach about the most elevated things in the most understandable manner with a great sense of humour and crystal-clear clarity, always in tune with the pulse of the room and the inner most feelings of all present, still baffles me. Sree Maa’s Discourses and Teachings are truly unparalleled and exquisitely Divine.

Sree Maa has shown utmost humility and levelling, which is something only someone who is truly great can do. Nirmanipanu – that which Sree Maa has emphasized so much, always be without pride and arrogance, be meek and humble, Sree Maa is like that only. Sree Maa walks the talk and is the ultimate non-doer, knowing it is Bhagwan Swaminarayan, Sarva Karta, who is doing everything. Sree Maa is not only the ultimate non-doer but also the epitome of Bhakti. Have had the great fortunate to witness Sree Maa’s care and utmost love for the Murti of Maharaj in the Mandir at Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Abode. Just thinking about this my heart smiles, this is a Love so Great, it is Bhakti that is off the charts. And the biggest proof (for want of a better word) is the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse.

It is the living Bhakti of Sree Maa Shri Ji to Bhagwan Swaminarayan that we receive as the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. A 24-7, 365-day connection to the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is the most precious Gift of Grace that Sree Maa Shri Ji has bestowed to all who have attended the Awakenin Transformation workshop and no doubt to many more. One can tune in anywhere any time they like. Teachings of Kosmic Fusion have always been straight forward and beautifully universal: be the non-doer, step back and let the QVSWPP step in. Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is the Supreme Signature of Source-Void, IT is the Swaminarayan Mahamantra, the Name of the Supreme Almighty, shared unconditionally and boundlessly by beloved Sree Maa. It brings the Soul back to the Super Soul, It is the GPS installed that will bring the Atma back to Bhagwan. It is supremely all-knowing and supremely intelligent, It touches everyone and doesn’t judge or shun even the densest of people and places. It knows exactly what each one needs and immersed in this Grace spontaneous healing on all levels is the by-product.

Sree Maa once said “you guys simply have no idea what you have received. Simply not even remotely aware of how much GRACE has been showered.” Just thinking about these lines gives me goose bumps as i know it is true. Sada Aapki Abhaari Rahungi Sree Maa for the unfathomable Grace bestowed and for holding me tight. You are my Guru, my Lifeline, my Comforter, my Saviour, my Everything. Humbly surrender in the Lotus Feet of Beloved SreeMaa-Shreeji _/\_ _/\ô__ _/\ô__

Jai Shree Swaminarayan _/\_

New age movement and the nexus (part 2)

When i saw the following quote about the new age movement, was a little surprised. Did not realize that in the 70s and 80s the new age movement had such close ties with India and its unparalleled wisdom.

"For example in the 1970s, the new age movement was very much related to India. Even in 1982, at a conference in Mumbai about ancient wisdom and modern science, which was organized by the International Transpersonal Association, it was openly acknowledged that the conference was held in India, because India’s wisdom (the concept of Atman) is the consistent background for the new findings of unity underlying the diversity.
At that time, I was very happy thinking that, since now science validates Indian wisdom, the knowledge of all of us being connected surely will trickle down to the common man.
I was wrong. Today, almost 40 years later, India has been completely cut out in Wikipedia’s entry on transpersonal psychology. New age, too, has been disconnected from India. It is revealing how Wikipedia’s piece on transpersonal psychology ends:
“…transpersonal psychology has been criticized by some Christian authors as being a mishmash of New Age ideas that offer an alternative faith system to vulnerable youths who turn their backs on organized religion.”
Those Christian authors are not interested to find out, if there is indeed a transpersonal dimension to our existence, but fear, even more youth could leave the Church if they come to know about it…"
- Maria Writh

Wonder what drove the new age movement away from its relation to India, apart from the arrogance and sense of superiority that white people tend to carry? And how did Christianity sneak into a description of transpersonal psychology on Wikipedia?

Pondering a bit on this, it actually doesn’t surprise me when i think about what happened with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme. After the mask of two of the malignant narcissists in the FiT Programme had fallen off and their true destructive intentions had become apparent, they were asked to leave. Narcissists don’t take the truth very well and the narcissistic injury leads them to run a smear campaign. In our case, the smear campaign of Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and Iphigenie Amoutzias/Malana B. Taresi (as they now call themselves) involved going to some anti-cult organizations and a paid biased article in the media filled with lies slandering the name of Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. And it looks like they are still continuing to work hand in glove with the anti-cult movement to spread lies through podcasts and youtube videos. 

Church-media-anticult nexus
You would think this situation could be a one off… but when you do a little research something more sinister appears. Any spiritual minority or movement promoting Santana Dharma (eternal way of righteous living) will encounter opposition from the church-media-anti-cult nexus who work in cahoots to carry out the church’s agenda of keeping people under their dogmatic control.

This is perfectly explained with proofs and evidence in this article, which is well worth a read to open your eyes. Coming back to the above quote by Maria Writh and the fact that somehow Christianity snuck in there... It seems that certain echelons in Christianity have long arms reaching many places and do everything to keep people ignorant and unaware. Indeed, what if people would break away from organized religion and got in touch with their True Soul? Surely this would mean some would lose their power and control… 

Deflection
What if the mass media would cover the truth of the widespread scandals and abuse of the sickest kind in the Christian and Catholic churches? And why aren’t they bar a few articles here and there?

What i saw the two malignant narcissists do in the FiT Programme was create a lot of smoke and mirrors to deflect from the damage and unethical acts they were doing. Somehow this rings a bell, when i see that the media in NZ went to great lengths to cover a false story about only a very small group of 12 people who received a training of whom only a few actually lived in NZ and they failed to cover what truly matters. Does anyone smell a rat here?

Would like to leave you with the following questions: 

#standupforwhatisright

False Claims Vs Truth – Reality check on the story of Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus

This is a response from the Kosmic Fusion Faculty to the continued attack and slander committed by two disgruntled individuals who were officially dissociated from our movement in April 2018. This explanation is meant to provide information to maintain clarity, and is not intended to slander or sabotage any individuals mentioned. As you may be aware, Kosmic Fusion was attacked by two ex-volunteers, who were backed by Journalists Tony Wall and Steve Kilgallon of New Zealand. 

This response also shines a light on the anti-cult, media and church nexus and how they work in connivance to tarnish genuine organizations and movements.

Discover the facts and continue to read on the Kosmic Fusion website >>

Spiritual bypassing and cognitive dissonance

Anyone who is on a spiritual journey needs to be aware of spiritual bypassing. Have to admit, i wasn’t always aware of this and it is also something that i have seen happening a lot in new age circles.

Spiritual bypassing is a term coined in the early 1980s by psychologist John Welwood. It refers to the use of spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with uncomfortable feelings, unresolved wounds, and fundamental emotional and psychological needs. Or as psychologist Ingrid Mathieu aptly put its “checking out, rather than checking in”.

Examples include using spirituality as a justification for failing to take responsibility for one’s actions, using spirituality to feel superior to other people, disease to be nice, emotional numbing and repression, overemphasis on the positive, blind or overly tolerant compassion, weak boundaries etc.

In the FiT Programme too we were asked to look at spiritual bypass and even research this topic together with cognitive dissonance to reflect on where we were practising spiritual bypass.

Reflection and introspection were an important part of the FiT Programme because if you want to rise above your small self, you have to look within (see also this blog about inner enemies).

Looking back, i can see how the white ass and new age mentality says: “we have got the guru inside us, we look ourselves”. Because i was fed these concepts, was practising this bypass too. But when it came to actually looking within, there was no guru inside me that would show me the way.

If it was not for the tireless guidance from my Mentor whom i humbly take as my Guru, beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, would not have been able to look at the grey shades & blind spots within, let alone begin to air those things out. Some of my unhelpful swabhaav (nature) included people pleasing, disease to be nice where i don’t speak up when it is needed, blindly trusting because of a faulty believe in a world of love and oneness instead of understanding that there is different gradations of incarnated souls and using discernment, and putting others above me in my head – coming from comparison instead of seeing the divinity in all and also a subtle way to remain in my comfort zone and shirk responsibility.

In hindsight, these were also my character flaws that made me enable the covert narcissists that had snuck into the FiT Programme pretending they wanted to serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion but who came with hidden malicious agendas. In that way spiritual bypass cannot only hamper one’s own growth but also have an impact on group dynamics and result in affecting innocent parties.
 
The interesting thing is, the two narcissists Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and Iphigenie Amoutzias/Malana B. Taresi who were asked to leave after their true face came out, only briefly reflected but then fell back into victim mode.  

Still remember how even at the Reunion in July 2017, Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus tried to wiggle out of going through the questionnaires we ourselves had put together to help us reflect. In fact, at some point she had pulled me aside and while trying to fill my ears about another FiT, she said this person told her she has a dark side that she needs to look at. And she said it with such disbelief like she couldn’t believe this was true… In her head, she must have felt perfect and this is the grandiosity typical of people with NPD.

My Kalyan Mitra Tara has written a great blog on how these two pretend volunteers, Joy and Iphigenie were both into Buddhism before and how they failed to look at the false self/ego self then and continued to do the same when they joined Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme.

Because of Sree Maa's supreme empathy and support, the voice of conscience was awakened in Joy and she did eventually reflect on her actions for a while, but then fell back into playing the victim game big time. Perhaps the attempt to reflect was only to try and reel back in the one person, Clarito, whom she had groomed and been obsessed with for years. In September 2017 she was kindly asked to resign.

Iphigenie had been voted out by the other FiT in May 2017 as we felt unsafe around her and couldn’t trust her after all the covert games that she had played for almost 5 years like only a sociopath with malignant narcissism knows how to play. She too was able to reflect on her actions because of the Grace and super nova empathy of Sree Maa and shared some of her narcissistic games and motives (though she would have never revealed everything). But when she didn’t get back into the group which she wanted, she fell back and joined hands with Joy to ran a smear campaign slandering the name of Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion. Needless to say, they now completely deny the few reflections and admittances they have done.

One’s their true face is exposed the shame narcissists feel leads to narcissistic injury and the cognitive dissonance is so great that narcissists resort to slandering and maligning the ones who can see behind their carefully crafted masks in order to protect their own fake image and face, even if this is their Ultimate Well-wisher. Sadly, they end up cutting the branch they are sitting on.
 
Have to admit, they played their games well and when the truth came out for a while i was shocked, couldn’t believe had trusted these two individuals. Initially it is very easy to just put all the blame on them and their abuse but i think this too would be a form of bypassing, if i wouldn’t reflect and take responsibility for playing into their hands, missing essential red flags and the wounds, ignorance and unawareness i was and am still carrying. This is discussed quite well in these 2 videos by Melanie Tonia Evans about how to thrive after narcissistic abuse and what you can learn from it.
How i exposed the narcissistic smear campaign: https://youtu.be/k0ojZn13p0w 

& Why narcissists go after lightworkers:  https://youtu.be/XTAZhjnxa7k

Forever grateful to my beloved Sarvopari Paratpar Akshar Mitra Sree Maa Shri Ji for awakening my Atma, for helping me look within and taking off my blinkers, always shining the light of Absolute Truth, for graciously guiding me and showing the supersonic shortcut Home and for the unfathomable Grace of the Quantum Vortex Scalar WavePhoton Pulse, the Swaminarayan Mahamantra. 

P.S.
Please also read the insightful blog by my Kalyan Mitra Jeeya about narcissists doing spiritual bypassing

Joy’s modus operandi: playing the martyr

If there is one thing Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus does well it is to play the victim. Came across an image that i feel describes what Irene/Joy has displayed to the T in the nearly 6 years that i have known her. Have to admit, i fell for the mask for a long time, but no longer.

Playing the martyr and the victim was and still is her number one game. And her best performance came after she was asked to leave Kosmic Fusion….

Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus joined Kosmic Fusion end of 2012. She immediately started volunteering after she did the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop and very soon started taking over the scene, telling others what to do and pointing out other’s mistakes (or what she perceived as their mistake).
This was also the case at the Newcastle expo in August 2013 that was organised by the volunteers themselves, where she would be domineering and push her way irrespective of the efforts or views of others.

i made the mistake of failing to hold my space and heed Sree Maa’s guidance to not form small groups and pulled away from Joy towards another volunteer and played right into Joy’s hands. She used this to play the victim with Clarito, saying that nobody is supporting her. Clarito is a true empath and a gentleman and stepped up to support her. She also claimed her English is not so good to woo Clarito in further and started to manipulate the scene so that she would always end up working together with him, fencing him off from others. She would fill his ears about the others, often pulling the poor me card and always adding in how much she is sacrificing for Kosmic Fusion so that Clarito would be on her side and do her bidding.

She actually had problems with every single one of the other volunteers, but of course it was all their problem, not hers and it was very stressful for poor Joy to have to deal with everyone, but she did it anyway “for the sake of Kosmic Fusion”. This was the story she was telling herself and publicly. Please note, prior to Joy joining the group dynamics were fine, but after she joined it started going downhill fast.

19/09/14, 20:03 - Meera: How are you feeling after last night's call? 💖💖💖

19/09/14, 20:16 - Komal Irene Kuo: Most of the time people have issues with me 😅 Maa said it's competition... had some issues with Elliaa, Siann (even this year mbs Sydney the seminar meditation)  Sheree ...Nat used to have bad attitudes to me... they're okay now. .. but now a little bit with Jabeen. ... 😅 sounds like my problem but not really. ..... maybe they feel I'm threatening to them and react. ...and that affects me. .. but now they know where I'm coming from and know who is the one taking responsibility all the way through
 (Iphigenie was called Meera at that time, Joy was called Komal)

She was always priding herself on her high standard of volunteering and if she corrected others it was only because they would not meet “her high standards”. She was constantly portraying herself to other FiTs as a martyr who was giving up her health (she had high blood pressure), her sleep and time with her son and husband to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion. In reality, she was pursuing her ambition of becoming a famous and wealthy healer – her self-proclaimed example was Marie Forleo - under the guise of a hardworking volunteer and later on devotee. She even made it look like she gave up her job so that she could serve Kosmic Fusion but let us look at the real story here.

She was working at the library at Sydney University. When there was a restructuring, employees could choose to either apply for one of the new jobs available or opt for a retrenchment package (in her case about $50,000). Joy opted for the latter which was her own personal choice, nobody asked her to. All the other volunteers still have a job and happily volunteer in their own time.

You can see a message that she wrote but made Hanuman send to the Sydney FiTs group that clearly illustrates the big martyr’s mask she was wearing. She had fully groomed and brainwashed Clarito/Hanuman by that time so that he had lost sight of what was really going on.

26/10/16, 02:38 - Hanuman: Jai Swaminarayan 🙏 🙏 🙏

Coming together as FIT and we all making history and paving for

Kosmic Fusion and working as One. Wish to clear everything out

before the end of October and be straight forward express my sharing

and feedback on what have been observing of late. As we taking on

more responsibilities and learning as this is our training ground

thus would like to make some awareness to be considerate of other

FITs as we have to think of Kosmic Fusion first.

My observation of Komal, she have always step up and take

responsibilities ever since 2014 when everyone still considering

about volunteering and or have not put their hands up yet like

mySelf,... it was a great training ground and a lots bricks and bats

blessing from SreeMaaShriJi. But through her passion and as she can

be black and white and protective of Kosmic Fusion and being zealous

– and it may come as a bit extremist to others and dislike by

others…

Have witness some of accomplishment Komal have since then and always

try to lead with example and by putting Kosmic Fusion first, even

with the cause of her health. Have witness one time after attending

Kosmic Fusion exhibition event, i have to take her in the hospital

and where she felt dying…. But thanks to SreeMaaShriJi and FITs

sharing of QVSWPP everything went great. There are more occasions i

could share… there are many occasions where there are only few hour

sleep including now, where Kosmic Fusion have to come first even

when Komal’s husband and son who still crave her attention have to

be put aside.

 (…)
Since early 2015 Komal have hired a marketing consultant specialist
in internet and learn what need to be learned to build a website
template in consideration of Practitioner, Kosmic Fusion, and FITs.

Komal have invested $20K+ and also hired an American marketing

consultant and spend a lot of time and efforts to come up with the

write up and marketing materials in her website and flyers. Have

assisted as I could see the bigger picture and make sure that i

could support Kosmic Fusion by supporting Komal. She pain-stackingly

created her website Holistic Freedom with all the consultant at hand

and work on content line by line. Put a lot of pride in her work and

its content.
(Joy was called Komal at the time)

This also mentions what she had actually done with the retrenchment money, contrary to her claims that she spent it on Kosmic Fusion. She hired an internet consultant for $20k+ and also a marketing expert to help with her own website and marketing efforts. Please have a look at her Holistic Freedom Wellness Centre website, do you see any gratitude or mention of Sree Maa Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion? A sample of Joy’s social media messages below (click on it to enlarge it). Can you spot Kosmic Fusion or Sree Maa Shri Ji anywhere? Can see a lot of #Komal and #Hanuman but no gratitude or homage to Sree Maa Shri Ji. 

It is also clear that i was sleeping and had my blinkers on because i did not spot any of this at the time. Now it is very obvious, she is passing off and using Sree Maa’s Teachings for her own monetary gain and claim to fame. Interesting detail: notice the big banner of her and Hanuman in the background. Another interesting detail: Joy manipulated one of the 5D++ Pulsars who is a professional photographer and got him to take pictures of her and Hanuman for free in exchange for a few QVSWPP sessions.

 

Without Sree Maa Shri Ji, we wouldn’t be able to receive the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. It is Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Supreme Bhakti to and union with Sarvopari Swaminarayan Bhagwan, that we most Graciously receive as the QVSWPP. We were Facilitators in Training not Facilitators at all which Joy claimed herself to be. We were only allowed to practice Akashic Records Neutralising sessions, and still very much learning in every which way as Bhakti is not something you can buy off the shelf. Where is the question of commercializing it offering sessions packages? 

5/10/2016, 5:47 pm - Komal: Normally the energy exchange is $150 per session, but we have 3

sessions package $360, 5 sessions package $500 or if you would like to have long term sessions

such as once every few months etc. Then $88 per session

5/10/2016, 5:48 pm - Komal: You can include you and your mum as one package

5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Komal: Or you can try one session first. ... which is $120 we offer special for

the first time

5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Komal: Then you can decide

5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Polly: Hmm ok

5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Polly: Thanks for the details Komal

5/10/2016, 5:50 pm - Polly: How do you count me and my mum as one pkg?

It was Joy’s unbridled ambition for money and fame that drove her to approach Pulsars and innocent people for paid sessions. She baits her victims with a free session or a discounted session and then reels them in further by using marketing techniques like above. And isn’t it ironic that the one person who was struggling with money is offering the abundance circle? Doubt there was any love in her heart for the mission of Kosmic Fusion, which is to take the QVSWPP to as many souls as possible. To her it was a business venture she tried to abuse and make money off it.  

This was of course not how she portrayed it. Her favorite sentence was always she was doing it for Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. She misused the name of Sree Maa Shri Ji at every opportunity. This is also how she managed to manipulate Clarito/Hanuman and his dedication and devotion to Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. She was and is a master at impression management. She would carefully curate her physical appearance, always looking well dressed and with make-up on – you can see her still do the same in her current youtube videos.

She was actually carefully copying Sree Maa’s dressing style, hair style and even the way Sree Maa moves, as if she believed that by copying Sree Maa that way she would become Sree Maa.  She would made it appear to other FiTs that she was very close to Sree Maa Shri Ji and knew what Sree Maa Shri Ji wanted. She also made it appear she had permission for all her business ventures, little did we know this was not the case. 

She would act very soft and nice in front of Sree Maa Shri Ji and in the public view but to the FiTs, especially in Sydney she would act like a bully and a big manipulator.

Joy also displayed double standards. While she was promoting and i quote "Bhakti Bhaav Transmissions" and shamelessly stealing from Kosmic Fusion, she made a big scene when two other FiTS in Sydney printed a Bhakti Bhaav flyer without permission. In fact, she manipulated the whole situation in Sydney setting the other FiTs up and then when the other FiTs reacted she would portray herself as a victim that had to suffer at the hands of the other FiTs who were doing her and Kosmic Fusion wrong (you can read more about it in this blog).

Sharing a sample message of how Joy played the victim at the hands of her fellow FiT, whilst she was the one who was stirring the pot. i was also on the website team and had no problems with Jwala at all.

The Reunion in July 2017 was an opportunity for all of us to truly reflect, honestly look how we had contributed to the failure of the FiT Programme and to sort out any issues amongst us. Joy did nothing of the sorts, she did nothing but blame shifting and pointing fingers, of course in the style she knows best: by playing the victim. This time she was a victim of Clarito/Hanuman, the very person whom she had manipulated and exploited financially, mentally and emotionally for years. Shortly after the Reunion her mask fell off completely. As she was still not willing to be honest and admit to all that she has done, she was kindly asked to leave end of 2017. She did briefly reflect on her actions by the Grace and supreme empathy of beloved Sree Maa who had awakened the voice of conscience in her, but somehow fell back into victim mode big time.

After she left is when she planned her best Oscar material performance till date, because narcissists cannot stand their true face being exposed. They will go to extreme lengths to protect their fake face, and their favourite tactic to do so is: a smear campaign.

She first removed her name from the company and businesses she had set up with Hanuman without informing him, leaving him with all the debts. Debts the company had racked up due to her unbridled ambitions. She then changed all the passwords to the joint email accounts she had with Hanuman.

Her and Iphigenie Amoutzias, another narcissists who was asked to leave Kosmic Fusion, joined hands and started a smear campaign.

They blatantly lied to some cult watch organization and to the two so-called investigative journalists who failed to investigate and were used as flying monkeys in an article to slander the name and character of beloved Sree Maa and Shri Ji, claiming that Kosmic Fusion is a cult. Narcs can act very convincingly mimicking emotions and these two are very good at their game, i was fooled for years. However, the whole article doesn’t hold up to the truth at all. Each one of the FiTs have written extensively about the bias, the many incorrect facts and absolute lies in the paid smear campaign article. This picture captures and sums it up it perfectly what they have done:

Joy is now portraying herself as a person who was completely broken down in a cult and exploited and abused by cult leaders but then miraculously with the help of her loving husband and cult watch people was able to rise and find herself again. Let me check, do the above pictures and anything shared so far in my blog looks like she was beaten down or exploited? Not at all, quite the opposite. This is exactly what narcissists do, they switch everything around and make themselves look like the victim and the real victim like the perpetrator. If there was anyone who was domineering, controlling and after money and power, it was Joy.

It was her who had breached Sree Maa’s trust and stabbed Sree Maa Shri Ji in the back but after her true face came out lo and behold she is telling lies and making it look like the other way around.

Sree Maa had given us a beautiful platform to volunteer, never ever was there any control. Sree Maa always led by example and trained everyone to be a leader themselves, to take responsibility for one’s own actions, work with integrity, honesty and authenticity and move towards embodying one’s highest potential, the Brahmrup. Sree Maa had graced us with and countless beautiful Discourses explaining in English the most precious spiritual teachings from renowned scriptures like the Sreemad Bhagwad Gita, Purans, Vedas and everything Sree Maa has taught was in line with the Vachanamrut, the most respected spiritual scripture in the Swaminarayan Sampraday where the words that Swaminarayan Bhagwan spoke about 200 years ago have been written down, Sree Maa’s isht-Bhagwan. This is studied and followed by MILLIONS of Swaminarayan Satsangis around the world.

Sree Maa is the living embodiment of Grace and Compassion, giving everyone who came a chance to move beyond their small self into their Brahmrup, including Joy and Iphigenie as Sree Maa looks only at one’s Atma and sees Bhagwan sitting within the Atma. Where in the world does even the question of this being a cult come in? Only in the head of a narcissists who projects their wrong-doings onto their victims.

Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus then started a youtube channel, cleverly making use of a famous singer called Dimash so that she could benefit of people who like his music and would look for it online. She had reinvented herself (read: put on a new mask) as a spiritual adviser with 10 years of experience. She also bought 8000 fake followers for her youtube channel to make it look like she is popular and knows what she is talking about, guess she has learned a few tricks from the internet consultant she hired. She then starts up a FB group called “Awakening with Joy”, adding random people to her group where she is presenting herself as a a spiritual adviser who is helping people to “raise their vibration for a better new earth living”, but in reality is preying on innocent victims as her next narcissistic supply for sympathy, attention and money. If you look at the conditions of this Facebook group, you will see that members are not allowed to share posts offering their services, only Joy can offer hers… Does anyone smell a rat here?

This is a person who has shown no remorse, no empathy and no integrity in all the 6 years that i have known her. Who has lied and back-stabbed her ultimate well-wisher who had welcomed her with open arms and given her every chance. She is after attention, after money and fame. She is a fantastic actress, but if you hang around her long enough, you will see her for who she truly is.

P.S. Sharing this to stand up for the truth because silence is not ok

Kosmic Fusion - Media trial

My response to a supposedly fun but factually incorrect media show (The Project aired on three in NZ) featuring #KosmicFusion and one of my Kalyan Mitras Ritu Bhargava (on 17 Oct) who had the courage to speak openly about her mental condition and her phenomenal progress by the Grace of Sree Maa. Complete lack of ethics shown again by the media, when what is so sorely needed is the #Truth and Integrity. Forever grateful to beloved #SreeMaa for being the breath of fresh air in this world, bringer of the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, unconditionally sharing Compassion, Kindness and Grace with all and championing honesty, integrity, authenticity with the highest of ethics. Jai Shree Swaminarayan. https://www.kosmicfusion.com/ https://www.sreemaa.com/ Curious to experience a Silent Transmission?https://www.cosmicmeetup.com/ My blog about the FiT Programme: http://kosmicfusionmusings.blogspot.com/ Ritu Bhargava (Nandini)'s blog: https://transformationofnarcissist.blogspot.com/