Sree Maa: living embodiment of Grace and Compassion

Writing this, tears well up. Sree Maa has done so much for me, a meritless, agyani soul, not only ignorant but also arrogant who was deeply lost in Maya and drunk on ego. My sense is i am not even aware of 1% of what Sree Maa has done for my soul and countless other souls to elevate them and eventually lead them back to where they belong, to Bhagwan Swaminarayan.

i am not able to adequately describe the Greatness of someone so elevated, loving and supremely Divine like Sree Maa Shri Ji as my understanding is very limited, but will attempt to share my experience and thoughts as my humble tribute to my Supreme Lifeline and Ultimate Well-Wisher, the one whom i am fortunate to call my Guru, and also as a stance to share the Truth.

There are some who are so deluded by their false self and ego fabrications and so caught up in their narcissistic self, they have spread lies about Sree Maa Shri Ji, things that couldn’t be further from the Truth. How anyone can talk lies about One who is so Compassionate, Loving and Kind really beats me but with this humble sharing i hope to go some way in dispelling those falsities.

Wherever Sree Maa walks everything gets uplifted and is touched by Grace so Supreme, there are simply no words for it. A small example: when we visited Vrindavan with Sree Maa during a Pilgrimage in 2017, clearly remember this place where pandits were literally screaming and fighting out of greed. Recently one of the Faculty members had the great fortune to travel with Sree Maa to Vrindavan again and she saw that the greed had gone down tremendously, not only in that particular place but in the whole of Vrindavan and Mathura where we had gone at that time. There is no doubt in my head this is the Grace of Sree Maa. My heart delights thinking about all the places Sree Maa has been that have been showered with an invisible but All-powerful touch of Grace.

i was not always aware of this, in fact i did not recognize the Divinity and Greatness of Sree Maa Shri Ji at first. Sree Maa has explained, this is Kali Yuga, this is the time where God can walk past and people will not recognize God. i was one of those people… Only by Sree Maa’s Supreme Grace has my Soul been awakened and my eyes opened up.

To be in the Presence of Sree Maa Shri Ji is a Blessing and boon beyond compare. Bodily awareness decreases, less sleep is needed, awareness increases as the Soul comes in the forefront rather than the small self, but also that which needs to be let go of will come up so it can graciously be discarded for the Soul to move closer to Bhagwan. To even have Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Darshan is a Blessing and not to be taken lightly, something which i with my western background was slow to comprehend. Apart from Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Darshan, Sree Maa’s eyes and voice have always mesmerized me and truly are from beyond this world.

Can honestly say that Sree Maa has not only lifted up my soul but also made me a better human being in the first place, one who can be honest with herself and with others. Through Sree Maa’s unconditional Love, Compassion and Grace have changed from quite an uncouth individual, fluffed up by a miss goody two shoes fakeness and useless people pleasing tendencies to a more refined human being, even though am very much still work in progress, as is my Atmanishta.

Sree Maa has never ever held my agyan against me, even though must have unknowingly shown a lot of disrespect as i had no clue how to even talk or behave appropriately in the Presence of Grace and Utmost Divinity. Sree Maa is an Anaadi Mukt, completely one with the One and Only One, Bhagwan Swaminarayan, a paramekantik Bhakt of Bhagwan Swaminarayan, and yet has met me where i was no matter how ignorant and gone out of Sree Maa Shri Ji’s way to uplift my soul. Sree Maa has picked me up from the hole i had dug myself in. Can only imagine what it must be like having to put your hand into the sewer to pull someone out, and to do so without any resistance and with pure Love.

Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Compassion knows no bounds. This you can immediately feel when you are in the Presence of Sree Maa. Have had the great fortune to see Sree Maa bless all creatures, be they simple flies, cows or deer. Never Sree Maa loses sight of the Paramatma within the Atma within all and Sree Maa does not leave a stone unturned to elevate souls. Even the two covert malignant narcissists who infiltrated the FiT Programme have had moments of reflection and conscience, through Sree Maa’s supernova empathy and unlimited Compassion, which is unprecedented.

Have heard Charitras about Nandsantos (elite saints) in the time of Shreeji Maharaj who were sometimes beaten black and blue by wicked people. Being the elevated Souls they are, they would not retaliate but forgive the attackers and pray for their well-being. Have seen the same thing with Sree Maa Shri Ji who was attacked, slandered, backstabbed by some of the FiTs, one of the FiT even tried to poison Sree Maa Shri Ji but Sree Maa Shri Ji would silently endure and still pray for their well-being, shower them with Compassion, Guidance and show them the way. i failed to keep the Paksh of Sree Maa, but Sree Maa always had my back and protected me from the attacks from the narcissists, taking the brunt of the attacks on herself. 

Sree Maa is the epitome of selflessness. Always going above and beyond what is humanly possible to support others, making untold personal sacrifices and spending tireless days, sleepless nights to guide others, without thinking twice always putting the welfare of others before Sree Maa. 

Sree Maa has taken on and processed a lot of my negativity and that of all the FiTs, experienced so many bodily discomforts, but never once Sree Maa would complain. i was the one failing to look after Sree Maa, and making sure Sree Maa Shri Ji’s is comfortable, but Sree Maa never ever failed me or anyone else. Sree Maa is the ultimate Giver, who hears all prayers and who gives and gives and gives.

Sree Maa Shri Ji knows me better than i know myself and has only ever my well-being, the kalyan of my Atma at heart. Like a true Mother Sree Maa has nurtured me so lovingly, holding my hand as i stumbled and fell and acted up. Even when i was taking Sree Maa Shri Ji for granted or acted inappropriately, Sree Maa still held on tight and ushered me forward. Sree Maa has spent countless hours on me, guiding me personally, explaining things again and again in ways so that my thick head can understand, making sure the ego doesn’t get the better of me and towards my Brahmroop is where this soul is headed. Very patiently and lovingly Sree Maa has guided me into the fold of Santana Dharma, the eternal Truth and righteous way of living. When Sree Maa isn’t physically present, Sree Maa is still there, very tangibly so guiding, supporting, showing the way Home.

The Gnan showered by Sree Maa Shri Ji is simply Supreme. Have never come across anyone who can teach like this and who is the living embodiment of not just Grace and Compassion but Ultimate Wisdom, the Absolute Truth. The effortlessness with which Sree Maa Shri Ji can talk and teach about the most elevated things in the most understandable manner with a great sense of humour and crystal-clear clarity, always in tune with the pulse of the room and the inner most feelings of all present, still baffles me. Sree Maa’s Discourses and Teachings are truly unparalleled and exquisitely Divine.

Sree Maa has shown utmost humility and levelling, which is something only someone who is truly great can do. Nirmanipanu – that which Sree Maa has emphasized so much, always be without pride and arrogance, be meek and humble, Sree Maa is like that only. Sree Maa walks the talk and is the ultimate non-doer, knowing it is Bhagwan Swaminarayan, Sarva Karta, who is doing everything. Sree Maa is not only the ultimate non-doer but also the epitome of Bhakti. Have had the great fortunate to witness Sree Maa’s care and utmost love for the Murti of Maharaj in the Mandir at Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Abode. Just thinking about this my heart smiles, this is a Love so Great, it is Bhakti that is off the charts. And the biggest proof (for want of a better word) is the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse.

It is the living Bhakti of Sree Maa Shri Ji to Bhagwan Swaminarayan that we receive as the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. A 24-7, 365-day connection to the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is the most precious Gift of Grace that Sree Maa Shri Ji has bestowed to all who have attended the Awakenin Transformation workshop and no doubt to many more. One can tune in anywhere any time they like. Teachings of Kosmic Fusion have always been straight forward and beautifully universal: be the non-doer, step back and let the QVSWPP step in. Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is the Supreme Signature of Source-Void, IT is the Swaminarayan Mahamantra, the Name of the Supreme Almighty, shared unconditionally and boundlessly by beloved Sree Maa. It brings the Soul back to the Super Soul, It is the GPS installed that will bring the Atma back to Bhagwan. It is supremely all-knowing and supremely intelligent, It touches everyone and doesn’t judge or shun even the densest of people and places. It knows exactly what each one needs and immersed in this Grace spontaneous healing on all levels is the by-product.

Sree Maa once said “you guys simply have no idea what you have received. Simply not even remotely aware of how much GRACE has been showered.” Just thinking about these lines gives me goose bumps as i know it is true. Sada Aapki Abhaari Rahungi Sree Maa for the unfathomable Grace bestowed and for holding me tight. You are my Guru, my Lifeline, my Comforter, my Saviour, my Everything. Humbly surrender in the Lotus Feet of Beloved SreeMaa-Shreeji _/\_ _/\ô__ _/\ô__

Jai Shree Swaminarayan _/\_

Sick with envy part 3 & why narcissist are drawn to empaths

Sree Maa Shri Ji are the epitome of Compassion and Grace and believe in the potential of the Absolute in everyone. Sree Maa lovingly and graciously welcomed anyone to the FiT Programme who wrote a letter to Sree Maa Shri Ji expressing how they were ready and willing to volunteer and serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion - to share the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) with as many souls as possible. Sree Maa supported all of the FiTs tirelessly no matter their issues to move into embodying our Brahmroop. Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias too wrote a letter, but in truth she was on a whole other mission.  

Dallia/Iphigenie kept asking for a group in New Zealand after seeing the buzz in Australia where a group of volunteers was very active. Sree Maa Shri Ji therefore did a few events in New Zealand and personally did a few intro evenings and the 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop in October 2013 and Jan 2014 but after seeing Iphigenie's pathological behaviour didn't personally appear anywhere in NZ events. Therefore in a way Sree Maa Shri Ji are supremely gracious to let her realize that her envious and jealous nature's need to destroy will only get onto her demerits accounts. 

From the time Iphigenie was presenting herself as the face of Kosmic Fusion in NZ, the number of participants attending the meetings reduced drastically: from about 25 before she took on the leading role to approx. only  3-4 participants were regularly showing up. She was cunningly driven away all the 5D++ Pulsars and Auckland Meet Up participants by spreading rumours that Kosmic Fusion was a “cult” and by isolating all participants from Sree Maa Shri Ji. Iphigenie even tried to turn the Meetups into a pick-up place, as she would regularly show up with inappropriate clothing and try to flirt with all the male participants. She was also misrepresenting the key philosophies of Kosmic Fusion - she would call Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse the “Source Energy”, which was a term made up and used by her. All the people who had joined through Sree Maa's efforts and the group she was given, she made sure to destroy it. Her now claiming and acting like she is a victim actually proves she is beyond psychopath. 

Spreading her poison as much as possible

She was creating havoc within the New Zealand team, in a way only a malignant narcissist knows how to with triangulations, gaslighting and psychic warfare. Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias was twisting Sree Maa Shri Ji’s words constantly when talking to participants and 5D++ Pulsars. For example, Iphigenie had told Sarala that “QVSWPP would protect you 24/7” when Sree Maa Shri Ji had clearly said “QVSWPP would be with you 24/7”. Iphigenie statements created some miscommunications with Sarala, however Sarala still joined the FiT training in May 2015. Iphigenie was clearly not happy about this, as she went around telling other NZ 5D++ Pulsars and FiT that Sarala had a “dark and dense” energy in her house, and letting everyone know that Sarala had a birthday party but “no one turned up for it”, Iphigenie had made sure of that. Sarala’s relationships and communications with the other NZ FiT were slowly getting severed through Iphigenie's meddling and eventually she left.

Early 2016, the Ashram Project was set up by two NZ FiT, Nandini and Jeeya. It was a trial to see what it would take to run an Ashram based on the Vision Sree Maa had shared about a physical place where people could come and have spontaneous realization of themselves and their Atma. Sree Maa had graciously agreed to support the initiative and to move into the Ashram. As soon as Iphigenie heard about it, she immediately began showing signs of jealousy and looked upset as was unable to accept that the Ashram Project had been established without her involvement.

In November 2016, Iphigenie moved into the Ashram after inviting herself to join, she literally planted herself in the Ashram using Jeeya even though she had received most loving guidance from Sree Maa that she was not yet ready. Only after she sorts out her jealousy issues and is debt free would she be ready. Still she forced her way into the Ashram. Please read the Gracious message from Sree Maa sent to Dallia/Iphigenie/Meera, which she told nobody about and completely ignored...

Immediately after Iphigenie moved into the Ashram, she started to create fights between Nandini and Jeeya, creating distress in the Ashram Project. Iphigenie was also trying to break Jeeya’s self-confidence and self-esteem by putting Jeeya down, lecturing Jeeya for not being organised, correcting Jeeya’s every Seva and making Jeeya feel confused all the time. Gaslighting this is called. Iphigenie was playing with Jeeya’s guilt and kept asking Jeeya, “why are you still around? Why don’t you go back to Singapore” and even saying things like “if I am Sree Maa Shri Ji, I would not have you around” just to implicate Sree Maa Shri Ji. Iphigenie would purposely ruin Sree Maa’s clothing in the laundry and not wash and rinse the brass plates after using the toxic brass polish. Items including jewellery disappeared while Iphigenie was in the Ashram, just to name a few things. 

Iphigenie has received countless chances to change and much much guidance and support. Sree Maa had even graced her with the precious name Meera, the name of a humble and renowned devotee of Lord Krishna, to help her move past her old self but Iphigenie never let go of her vicious intentions and never worked to overcome her deep-rooted issues. Instead she worked hard to cause problems in the FiT group and sowed seeds of doubts everywhere. Narcissists are masters at this and they do so in a very insidious fashion. It is only in hindsight that for me the picture is clear after everything came out. Iphigenie was a true snake in the grass, slowly and surely spreading her poison into everyone, causing disruption, fights amongst the NZ FiTs and harassment to Sree Maa.

Why was Iphigenie so obsessed with Sree Maa? Narcissists are drawn to empathetic people. Narcissists know those people have a conscience and will go over and above themselves and if need come sacrifice their own peace to uplift them. The reason why Sree Maa was selected by Iphigenie, Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Awakening (as she calls herself now) and various other narcissists is because they all knew that Sree Maa will help until the end and they can get away with their tantrums or drama or whatever games they are playing. Sree Maa was surrounded by narcissists in the Ashram House but being the most empathetic and kind Sree Maa would allow the abuse to happen and constantly guide them to help them move beyond their issues. This is true selflessness. And absolute greatness.

You can hear in this audio clip how beautifully Sree Maa Shri Ji is giving a discourse to Iphigenie about envy and that it is important to overcome this dynamic energy within. Sree Maa gently mentions the example of someone manipulating fellow students to make sure they don't go to the campus party, to help Iphigenie reflect on what she had done to Sarala (see above). 

However, Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias did absolutely nothing to change, quite the opposite and eventually the rest of the FiTs voted her out (see also this public statement). She had not come for her Soul, her sole intention was to destroy as her jealousy and envy completely consumed her. You can hear her own admittance to this in this blog by one of my Kalyan Mitras.

Read Sick with Envy part 1 and Sick with envy part 2

PS
This blog is only intended to openly share about my spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme in particular, where some who joined turned out to be frauds and meddlers. This is not in judgement but in discernment, as i have learned that in my failure to remain aware and discern i have enabled those with vicious agendas and toxic behaviours and this doesn't serve any soul. And unfortunately, narcissists will be drawn to spiritual circles in particular as usually they can find a huge unsuspecting narcissistic supply of compassionate and empathetic people there.