Saturday, 27 October 2018

2015 FiT Retreat - Absolute Hug

Sree Maa Shri Ji showered so many Initiations and Blessings during the 2015 Kawai Pura Pura Retreat, it would take pages to share them all.

Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with the Biggest Gift of non-action and being an akarmi and really helped us move deeper into this at this Retreat. Dynamic and experiential as the workshops always are, we practised this with giving each other a hug, where we could move beyond the sense of “i” am hugging,  into a sense of there is no one there but the hugging is happening and deeper still to go beyond the hugger, hugged or embrace into the internal infinite love of the Absolute that is always there. Such a profound, beautiful experience.

Sashtang Dandavat and embraced by the Divine

Earlier in the Retreat during the Practitioner Training part, Sree Maa Shri Ji also explained in great detail about the value and energy dynamics of prostration, a moment to slow down and move towards Stillness. There were some who were hesitant, but no one was ever forced or coerced.

i personally felt no hesitation and had a most profound experience one time when bowing down in Sashtang Dandavat touching Sree Maa’s Lotus Feet. i completely lost awareness of the body even the floor disappeared and just felt this most powerful and magnificent Presence and some sort of merging happening, it is really hard to put into words. Sree Maa Shri Ji also explained when you touch the Feet of your Guru and when you get up and are embraced by the Guru that is the biggest Blessing of Welcome to this Abode. Forever Grateful to Sree Maa Shri Ji for embracing this meritless soul and accepting me into Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Fold.

At some point, Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with the opportunity to release our unconcious acts and it got very hot in the room. We had lit up our own fire, releasing countless unconcious acts - swa ahuti Sree Maa called it. Here you can listen to my sharing afterwards where i cried when Sree Maa Shri Ji came and hugged me, felt like finally have come Home. Forever grateful to beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji _/\_

Akarmi deh names

Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with a akarmi deh Initiation and with new names, akarmi deh names, to help us settle into the non-doer a bit better. We all looked with excitement at the board where the new names were written. i had seen the name Ekta written there, meaning Unity, and was drawn to it but part of me also felt it was too ‘big’ a name. All the names were the virtues of Brahmn and calling each other by that name would remind us of that quality. Beautiful names included Simran, meditation or remembrance of God, Mahima, meaning Glory to remember the Glory of God, Archita, the one who is surrendered to God as the Brahmn is always surrendered to Bhagwan. Really felt grateful to receive the precious name Ekta and made a sankalp within to honour it the best i could.

Interestingly, at this same Retreat and afterwards i got the opportunity to do just that. When i arrived at the Retreat, some of the FiTs invited me to their rooms to catch up, have a little chat. Even though i felt a little tired as i had flown from Europe to New Zealand, i decided to come. As i was listening, i noticed how one of them, Jeeya, would talk about others and not always in a favourable way, basically she was gossiping. After a while i did not feel comfortable and left saying i was tired and wanted to sleep. Later on, i confided with Archita that i didn’t like the gossiping. What i should have done was stood up right there and then and said something about it. Sree Maa told me to reflect and then apologize to everyone as i had come from separation and thought that i was ‘better’. Was very grateful to Sree Maa for pointing this out to me and giving me to chance to see through the subtleties of the ego and its arrogance. Only someone who is your true Well-Wisher would go to this extent to make sure your Atma is honoured and the ego is dissolved.

i know for sure that the one who walked into the door is not the one who left the Retreat – all only by the Grace and Shakti of beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji. Sada Aapki Abhaari Rahungi Sree Maa Shri Ji _/\_

Friday, 26 October 2018

Boundless Blessings at the 2015 FiT Retreat

The Facilitator in Training (FiT) Programme graced by Sree Maa Shri Ji was a powerful, dynamic, experiential Training. Still getting my head around the magnanimity of the Training and most of all the Greatness of our Teacher Sree Maa who gave of herself 24/7 to support us in our P.R.O.C.E.S.S of AwaKeNiN TrAnSForMaTioN TrAnSCenDEncE.

Core principles were authenticity, honesty, integrity and transparency, practiced fully by beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, who always led by example.

The FiT intake Ceremony, completely complementary, took place in October 2013. There Sree Maa already spoke about many concepts and principles that you can find in Sanatana Dharma so it was ALWAYS clear what this was about. In addition, we touched Sree Maa’s Lotus Feet, and i would say we were very fortunate to be able to do so. Key take away from that FiT intake ceremony was also to trust and surrender.

Snapshots of the beautiful 2015 Kawai Pura Pura Retreat
There are now two ex-volunteers who claim in their media smear campaign that the curriculum of the FiT Training all of a sudden changed. i really don’t know what course they were sitting on and why they stayed on and did not leave, as everyone was always free to leave if it wasn’t your cup of tea. It was clear to me and there are no words enough to express my gratitude to beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji for the most Gracious FiT Training. Anyone with half a dose of common sense can see through the games of Joy Kuo/ #AwakeningwithJoy and Iphigenie Amoutzias/Amoutsias.

Gift of the akarmi

One of the key principles that Sree Maa teaches straight from the very first moment is to be a non-doer, an akarmi; step back and let the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse step in. No intention, no expectation no judgement, happy to not know. A non-doer serves without wanting anything out of something.

This seems simple and in truth it is but in 2014 and beyond we could experience ourselves how the small self/doer can step in. In order to become akarmi, there will be obstacles, generally it doesn’t happen overnight but Sree Maa supported us in every way possible.

Early 2015 Sree Maa encouraged us to do a homeopathic detox in preparation for the TrAnSceNDenCE that would be offered at the phenomal 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat. Quite frankly am still absorbing the profound Teachings and all the Supreme Blessings Sree Maa Shri Ji bestowed on us at this Retreat.

Body of devotion and silent Guru Mantra

One of the things Sree Maa beautifully explained was that it is the biggest Gift that you can ever get is to be an akarmi. Sree Maa laid the foundation for Bhakti (devotion) in that Retreat, gracing us with an Initiation of a (formless) body of devotion, a new body of bliss – like armour that will help one fight one’s inner resistance when the ego crops up. This is a body of true transcendence that would develop more as one's power of devotion becomes stronger.

Sree Maa also asked us if we wanted to receive a Guru Mantra, which means one would be a Sanatana Dharmi from then on. The choice was ours. Everyone present at the Retreat (including the wolves in sheep clothing) said yes.

Remember i was very humbled and grateful to receive such a Blessing to help us come out from our old karmic cycle. Now one’s Guru becomes your biggest mirror, learning through the attributes of the Guru instead of the lessons in one’s life. No greater Blessing than to be graced with Sree Maa as one’s Guru, as the years went on my understanding of the precious Guru-disciple relationship deepened (see also my other blog) - all only possible by the Grace and Kindness of Sree Maa Shri Ji. 

Niranjana (who has written with amazing detail and understanding about the FiT Retreat and Programme, can highly recommend to read her blog) asked a beautiful question about the difference between the silent Guru Mantra and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse and Sree Maa enlightened us that Guru Mantra is for one’s doer and the QVSWPP - that which Sree Maa Shri Ji had given us already straight up on the platter in the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop -comes to one in non-action to the non-doer. 

Niranjana and me at the Kawai Pura Pura Retreat

Of course, one cannot take a Guru Mantra without a Guru Dakshina, and Sree Maa was so Gracious to ask us to offer a bad habit that we don’t need as Guru Dakshina. Actually can’t remember which bad habit i offered but do remember this humbled me to the core and really showed the selflessness and Daya of our Ultimate Well-Wisher Sree Maa Shri Ji. And this was only the beginning, there were many more Blessings to come.... :-) <3

Thursday, 18 October 2018

How Narcissists Run in Packs - part 5 When the mask cracks

Written together with my Kalyan Mitras Simran, Tara and Jeeya

Eventually when you spend enough time around a narcissist and pay attention, it becomes impossible for them to hide who they are. As most of us were sleeping and tend to run away from conflict rather than speak up, we failed to spot the many red flags and it took us a long time to see through the games that Joy Kuo and Iphigenie Amoutzias were playing. It is in hindsight and only by the Grace of Sree Maa that we can recognize the full extent of their behaviour and can put the pieces of the puzzle together.

Sree Maa’s Compassion and Kindness knows no bounds. Sree Maa is a highly evolved, enlightened Being who allows people be who they are and then show them why they need to transform, and ultimately why they need to let go of their dark self. While we were in a deep unconscious slumber, Sree Maa was taking all the narcissistic ‘bullets’ on herself so that the rest of the FiTs would not be impacted. Such is the Grace of Sree Maa who not only protected us but also enlightened us to recognise how we unwittingly invited these narcissists into our space and liberated us from wearing blinkers.

Truth prevails

 As Nandini had expressed her wish to get over her afflictions during the 2016 Taupo Retreat and Jeeya too wanted to transform, Sree Maa patiently worked with them in a safe, open and transparent manner through voice dialoguing and enlightening Discourses that were of benefit to all FiTs. It taught us a lot about spiritual bypassing and how to overcome the small/false/dark self and move into our Brahmroop. Joy and Iphigenie never put this knowledge into practise and never said a word they were having similar narcissistic shades in them. Though they tried to hide and remain under the radar, in the course of 2017 the Truth started to come out.
During the 2017 India Pilgrimage, Tara had experienced the true shades of Joy and Iphigenie. Joy went so far as to physically bully Tara which was shocking because Irene/Joy always portrayed herself as soft and gentle. She had asked Tara to help with voice recording. One incident, they were at the back of the group of FITs and Joy told Tara to go to the front to do the recording and then unexpectedly shoved Tara sideways that she almost lost her balance. Tara then told Joy not to push her but she gave her a blank look and said “It was not a push.” instead of offering a simple apology. Again, narcissists never think they are ever in the wrong and would gaslight you to think that nothing happened. In another incident, Joy out of the blue suddenly grabbed Tara’s wrist while she was holding the voice recorder and handled her roughly until it hurt her while bossing her to “do it properly”.

A Narcissist´s Prayer

Iphigenie was behaving very passive-aggressively with Tara throughout the pilgrimage. And Tara had brought this to light to Joy and had regretted it because later Iphigenie approached Tara to instigate a verbal attack on her when they were alone.

Needless to say, Tara was very shaken by the experience she had with both of them on the trip and she wasn’t the only one who had experienced intimidation and nasty behaviour at their hands during the trip. Tara was further made to keep quiet as they both worked together to continue to put her down in the Whatsapp chat groups creating a bad image of her to the other FITs.


Sree Maa had suspended all events and workshops since end of 2016 due to everything going on and stepped down as the Teacher of the FiT Programme 18 March 2017. This did not deter Joy to want to continue with all her activities, running meditation circles and Abundance circles online without approval. She even went to the extent of hosting a fake AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop.

Iphigenie had no qualms to help move another FiT into the Ashram (her accomplice) while Sree Maa and Shri Ji were travelling in April 2017, again no permission taken.

Irene/Joy tried hard to deflect the spotlight from herself after Iphigenie was voted out by the other FiTs in May 2017, making a big deal about a Bhakti Bhaav brochure Simran and Jwala had printed and an advertisement they took out. She ‘conveniently’ forgot to mention how she framed Simran and Jwala into this and also that she was doing much worse behind everyone’s back. The rest of the FiT had no clue what had happened or what had even gone on in the dynamics of the FiTs in Sydney so a call was organised to clarify matters. Joy (then called Komal) completely hijacked this call to shift the blame on Simran and also put Jwala in a bad light.


On that call she was using all the Narc’s tricks in the book of taking over the conversation, playing the victim and telling lies, completely manipulating the situation and using the rest of the core team members as flying monkeys. Irene would constantly give half truths and complete lies to pull wool over the other core team members eyes, so she could control the situation.
Joy Awakening came to the Ashram House in June 2017, believing herself to be a great sevak and devotee who would show the other FiTs in the Ashram House how to offer seva. She would also lead the organisation of the Reunion Retreat, a gathering organised by the FiT for the FiT to come together and honestly look at what each one had contributed to the failure of the FiT Programme. Initially Joy wanted to have the Reunion at her place, the ideal place for her to have control, but some of the FiTs were not comfortable with that idea. Sree Maa had kindly offered the basement area of the Ashram House as a place where the Reunion could be held and also said children were welcome to come.

Here Joy played another dirty game. She didn’t want Jwala to show up at the Reunion as she knew Jwala had started to see through her games and could expose her. She also knew that if Jwala wasn’t able to bring her daughter, she wouldn’t come to the Reunion. So she painted a picture to the other FiTs that the schedule of the Reunion would be really busy and it could get quite intense, so that the mothers would conclude it is best not to bring the children. She actually confided in Jeeya this was her intention before getting on call with other FiTs regarding the Reunion. She also blatantly lied to one of them that what Sree Maa actually meant was not to bring the children. 

None of the FiT ended up bringing their children and Jwala ended up not coming to the Reunion Retreat and left the FiT Programme.

During the Reunion Irene behaved like a bully and was not participating like the rest of the FiT. She did not want to fill out the questionnaires made by the FiTs for the purpose of honest reflection, and in conversations kept pushing the blame on others and pointing fingers at Clarito/Hanuman. Prior to the Reunion, all FiTs in Sydney were asked to reflect and without any judgement write down their observations of the team. If you read what Irene/Joy wrote down, you can see that it is far from a neutral observation and more a litany of finger pointing to others. 

It was shortly after the Reunion that Joy’s true face became crystal clear to everyone. And it was thanks to Sree Maa's intuitive move to cut off Irene/Joy's access to Sree Maa and Kosmic Fusion resources that things came out in the open. Hanuman went no contact with her and Simran also was offered no contact under the guise of 'quarantine' to keep her safe from Joy who wanted her out. Joy made some admittance about her dubious intentions, as she was hoping to get access to Hanuman again, but mostly continued to hide. She was given many chances to be honest and admit to what she had done so she could move beyond it but continued to play games till the end. In September 2017 she was lovingly asked to leave.

Narcissists present themselves as the victim

Narcissists can’t stand their true face being uncovered and Joy and Iphigenie ganged up and instigated a smear campaign where they organised a paid article filled with lies to slander and malign Sree Maa and Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion out of revenge. They actively recruited one of the volunteers who had left in 2015 to collude with them. They also approached another ex-FiT, Renu, but she would not support them at all, knowing the truth of what happened.  Irene/Joy is still continuing her fake victim story and trying to harm the name of Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa and Shri Ji in her new youtube channel "Awakening with Joy" and Facebook group she set up. There she is balantly plagiarizing the work of Sree Maa Shri Ji which you can see in the post below.

Below you can see Joy's Youtube channel where she claims to be an energy healer and spiritual consultant with 10 years of experience and were she is still playing the victim and using Dimash to trap innocent people. Where are the certificates and proofs of her 10 years of experience? Interesting to note that in 2013 (i.e. 5 years ago) she herself said in a video testimonial about the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop that she is so happy she has now become an instant healer...

  Red flags of psychopaths  Red flag of psychopaths

When Iphigenie was being questioned in May 2017 by the other FiT for why she was labelling Kosmic Fusion to Pulsars/new FITs/volunteers, see how quickly Joy stood by Kosmic Fusion to defend her own self and being very cold to Iphigenie. Weren’t they were like best friends before? 

Around that same time, Joy sent the following scathing email to Iphigenie in response to her facebook post.

But oh look, now that Joy was also asked to leave, is it surprising that they gang up together to create a smear campaign? Amoutzias of course isn’t angry at Joy for betraying her before because Amoutzias needs someone driven like Joy and use her to do all the smear campaigning while playing the victim and quiet one. They are merely being a shill for each other to make their smear campaign more believable.

Narcissists hunt in packs

It is sad to see how Iphigenie and Joy who were graced with such an amazing opportunity to change having been taken under the Gracious Wings of beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, chose to hold on to the blanket of the small self and cut the branch they were sitting on.  

In conclusion, we like to share this excerpt from another article that we felt was very relevant and described quite well what we have seen and experienced:

Spiritually they are closed.

They have parasitic convergences whereby they momentarily infect another person like a buzzing bee in the wrong hive. Eventually, the victim is preserved by, what in Hinduism is referred to as the forces of Vishnu, and the narcissistic charade is destroyed by Shiva. The narcissist is so closed-minded & proudly arrogant, however, that they walk away demonizing their victim as a natural defense surrounding the closed-mind. Read full article.

How Narcissists Run in Packs - part 4 Use and Abuse

Written together with my Kalyan Mitras Tara, Simran and Jeeya

The teachings in the FiT Programme were based on Sanatana Dharma principles from day one. Sree Maa gave us the freedom to keep our own moral compass as Sree Maa believes in Sanatana Dharma and had already told us that Sanatana means eternal and Dharma is the moral compass inside each person. Dharma means conscience inside is working and one is able to do the righteous things. It turned out that some of the FiTs had absolutely no moral compass and just used and abused Kosmic Fusion resources and Sree Maa’s Kindness and Compassion for their own agendas. This completely fits the characteristics of a narcissist as they lack empathy and conscience.

Irene/Joy used and abused intellectual property and Kosmic Fusion Resources however she saw fit. She approached Nick, one of the Pulsars, to do some of her renovation work at her home for free, only giving him board and lodgings. But when Nick needed some medical attention, she immediately wanted to get rid of him. She was very much focussed on what she could get out of the situation rather than have true empathy for Nicks plight and what he was going through. 

Irene/Joy also knew that Mala was travelling to inner and outer Sydney to support her and Clarito/Hanuman with events and would rather have Hanuman give her a lift than to give Mala a lift home. With all due respect to Mala, Mala is the eldest in our FiT Program and should have been treated as such. Again she put her own needs first and showed no empathy for others.

If Irene/Joy wanted to do an expo, she would say Clarito wanted to do it. When the others said no, she would say Clarito is really pushing, he really wants to do it otherwise he would get really upset. In addition to using Claritos name to mask her own ambition, Irene/Joy was constantly asking Simran and other volunteers in Sydney to fund events which were driven by her to keep up the appearance of being very successful, under the guise of doing it "for Kosmic Fusion". She became obsessed with building a database which she used for her own personal side business, all at the expense of the volunteers and Sree Maa  and Shri Ji.

Irene/Joy hatched a plan with Clarito who was now under her control and used as a flying monkey,  to extract money from Simran. Without consulting with the other FiTs she called a conference call and asked Simran to “backpay” Kosmic Fusion Australia for the past events that Simran had volunteered at. Using her name and shame tactics she put Simran on the spot and wrote the following message.


The fact of the matter was that she had racked up company expenses to fund her own business and this was a roundabout way of retrieving those funds, again using and abusing the volunteers for her own benefit. In addition, she would give a very distorted picture to the other FiTs outside of Australia that only her and Hanuman were contributing and none of the other FiTs in Sydney, but the truth was completely different. 

Something very similar was happening in New Zealand where Dallia/Iphigenie was using others left right and centre to fulfill her agenda.

Dallia/Iphigenie was planning to put her fangs into the Ashram house after seeing how big the Ashram house was, Dallia/Iphigenie strategically made her moves to engage Jeeya as her flying monkey. First Dallia/Iphigenie played Jeeya into believing how much she would like to be part of the Ashram house project by making sure that Jeeya was there to “witness”  how she was selling off her belly dancing items to show off how unattached she is to her possessions. Dallia/Iphigenie also told Jeeya that she was closing down her belly dance business for the Ashram House project, when the truth is her belly dance business was not making money and Dallia/Iphigenie did not have a choice but to close it down because it was not commercially viable.

Dallia/Iphigenie even played the devotee card with Jeeya by asking Jeeya to join her in getting a small mandir, frames, pooja items for Bhagwan Swaminarayan so that she will not be disrespectful.
Dallia/Iphigenie was constantly “sharing” with Jeeya how much she wanted to be in the Ashram House and kept asking Jeeya for “advice” how she can better improved herself, giving Jeeya the false impression that she was really keen on changing. Dallia/Iphigenie did not tell her about the message that she received personally  from Sree Maa telling her that she was not ready for the Ashram House, Jeeya having  her own personal agenda of wanting to leave for Singapore invited Dallia/Iphigenie into the Ashram House, lying in front of Sree Maa how devoted Dallia/Iphigenie was and encouraging her to come to the Ashram house.

Irene/Joy wasn’t the only one using the other FiTs to get money. Dallia/Iphigenie was making use of her stay in the Ashram House to trick Renu and Orja to give her a loan.  Dallia/Iphigenie was hiding the fact that she used Sree Maa Shri Ji’s name as an excuse to get the loans but was using the money to pay off her personal bills.

While Dallia/Iphigenie was acting as if she was important on the whatsapp groups towards the overseas FiTs being in the Ashram House, she was really causing a lot of harassment to everyone in the Ashram, most of all Sree Maa and Shri Ji. She never mentioned to anyone she had not been invited into the Ashram House, but forced herself into there uninvited.
In fact, the Ashram House had become more like a narcissist war zone where all the FiTs living in the Ashram House were in there for their personal gains, fighting amongst themselves, abusing and taking advantage of Sree Maa Shri Ji’s kindness and compassion. The true goal of the Ashram project had been completely lost sight of. 

Dallia/Iphigenie was behaving like she owns the Ashram House when Sree Maa and Shri Ji were not around, she went into Sree Maa and Shri Ji’s room and violated Sree Maa’s personal space by going through Sree Maa’s personal possessions. Dallia/Iphigenie would spread herself across Sree Maa and Shri Ji’s couch and even purposefully pointed her feet towards Shreeji Maharaj’s portrait which is considered very disrespectful. Dallia/Iphigenie was also making Jeeya handle all the laundry and ironing, Nandini all the housekeeping while she was lying down on the couch watching her German movies.

Jeeya and Nandini were humiliated by Dallia/Iphigenie with her constant correction of what they were doing or saying. Dallia/Iphigenie made sure that she was in control and making Jeeya and Nandini slave for her in a very subtle way. Dallia/Iphigenie did not even allow Jeeya and Nandini to use the kitchen when she was around, she constantly ridiculed Jeeya, finding faults of what Jeeya has done for the pantry with words like “why would you want to arrange it this way?” “ why are you not using containers to keep this?”.

The FiTs in the Ashram painted a false picture of the life in the Ashram, making it sound like it was very difficult, but the truth was the opposite. Sree Maa would often cook for them and even spend time how to prepare Indian dishes. Sree Maa literally gave of herself 24/7 to help the ones with narcissism to move beyond their afflictions.

The world advises a no contact rule for narcissists, but Sree Maa, being the epitome of Grace and Compassion, welcome everyone with open arms as Sree Maa only sees the Divine spark within everyone. While Nandini and Jeeya welcomed the Grace and were making a sincere effort to change, Iphigenie only kept misusing Sree Maa’s Kindness and was dead set on her mission to sabotage and destroy Kosmic Fusion.

How Narcissists hunt in packs part 1 - part 2 Narc tactics - part 3 Faking it - part 4 Use and Abuse - part 5 When the mask cracks

How Narcissists Run in Packs - part 3 Faking it

Written together with my Kalyan Mitras Simran, Tara and Jeeya

Narcissists are present in all walks of life, including in spiritual circles or especially in spiritual circles as there they are bound to find ample narcissistic supply of empathetic and compassionate people. Narcissists are drawn to empaths like moths to a flame. People with NPD are the proverbial wolves in sheep clothing as they hide behind carefully crafted masks while playing their dirty games, so that for an unsuspecting person it is hard to realize who they are dealing with. We are sharing some of our experiences in detail, not in judgement, but to bring awareness. In dealing with the narcissists we have also learnt a lot about ourselves and how they were able to prey on our weaknesses. It is only by the Grace of Sree Maa who kept the group dynamics safe that we are still together and doing well.

In 2015, all FiTs were graced with a phenomenal residential Retreat where Sree Maa showered countless blessings (see the beautiful blogs from our Kalyan Mitra Niranjana for more details) to help us move more firmly into the non-doer and lay the foundation for Bhakti. This was also where Sree Maa graced us with beautiful akarmi deh (non-doer) names, which we were free to take or not. 

Narcissists groom with gifts

At this same Retreat, we discussed how to take the 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrAnsForMaTioN workshop out to more people. Sree Maa had been conducting all the workshops either online or physically till then. We all collectively came to a very effortless ‘Homage format’ after open discussions with Sree Maa. In this format, Sree Maa does not physically show up, but removes the 3D/4D dense obsolete grids remotely. All FiTs had to do was to give a Homage to Sree Maa and Shri Ji.

As a practise run, Niranjana and Jwala were asked to come to the front of the room to present. Both Irene/Joy and Iphigenie didn’t like this at all with their envious nature. Seeing this, Irene/Joy wanted Jwala out even more which she pursued till the end of the FiT Programme as we will relate in this blog series. After the Homage format started, the narcissists went haywire as they now felt, they had even more control as Sree Maa would no longer be showing up physically in the 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshops.

In mid 2015, Jeeya was given the position to be the intimate assistant of Sree Maa.  When this happened, Irene/Joy started to use Jeeya to get close to Sree Maa, and used the fact that she spoke Mandarin to bond with Jeeya . Jeeya and Irene/Joy were always speaking Mandarin around other FiT which created a sense of distrust and separation from the others.

Despite the fact that Sree Maa is aware of all the narcissist traits and the ill manners that Jeeya has in her, Sree Maa entrusted Jeeya with this position. During that time, there was this conflict going on within the Sydney group and Jeeya was given the chance to give her feedback of the conflict.
At that point in time, Jeeya has been recruited by Irene/Joy as her flying monkey. Irene/Joy has been subtly projecting to Jeeya over the years that she was the victim and Jabeen was a big bully. So Jeeya was unable to stay neutral in her feedback and taken Irene/Joy’s side.

After taking up the position of being the intimate assistant of Sree Maa, Jeeya started to feel superior and thinking that she was better than the other volunteers. She started to enjoy the control and power with the position.  Being a typical narcissist, Jeeya started to think that she knew everything and meddled with the messages from Sree Maa. Jeeya altered the tone of Sree Maa’s messages, at the same time she wanted to look good in front of the volunteers being that fake miss goodie two shoes, all for her personal vanity.

During all this time, Jeeya was giving selective information to the volunteers, she did not maintain transparency thinking that she can filter the information from Sree Maa, so that she will remain as the most important person in Kosmic Fusion.

Irene/Joy who was out for power and money made sure that Jeeya was part of her close connection to give the impression that she too was close to Sree Maa in order to use Sree Maa’s name to abuse and exploit the Australian volunteers. Irene/Joy was making use of Jeeya to get sensitive information about Sree Maa and internal operation of Kosmic Fusion. Jeeya was also trying to boost her own ego and became the ready supply for Irene/Joy. 

Irene/Joy spent time finding out the weaknesses in Jeeya and started to act like a close friend who would groom Jeeya with gifts, to make Jeeya feel special and stroke her ego. Irene/Joy isolated Jeeya from the rest of the FiTs in Sydney to maintain control. She would do the same thing whenever any other FiTs would visit Sydney. And again the pattern occurred when Sree Maa and Shri Ji would visit Sydney. This is a typical strategy used by narcissists to isolate their victims.

After years of investment of time and small gifts to Jeeya, she was being tricked by Irene/Joy into believing that she was her friend and gained her trust.

Irene/Joy was playing the victim again when she shared with Jeeya that she suspected Marlena has stolen her QVSWPP Practitioner notes and tricked Jeeya into sharing the transcriptions that Jeeya had done of the QVSWPP Practitioner Training.

In the email Irene/Joy urgently forwarded to Sree Maa you can see how she accuses Marlena of stealing her notes, which Marlena had not done at all. This is how she would try to discredit others behind their backs to Sree Maa and Shri Ji. She would also gossip about Marlena to other people. Everything was done using the facade of a sincere volunteer who would do anything to serve and protect Kosmic Fusion, but her true motive was very sinister. '

Sree Maa is a true empath and a leader that taught, motivated and trained everyone to be a leader themselves. So much trust was imparted onto each one of us as FiTs and volunteers. Straight from the beginning before the FiT Programme even started Sree Maa invited us as volunteers to share our ideas as equals. Over the years, Sree Maa has tirelessly and beautifully explained in simple English the precious principles of Sanatana Dharma, righteous living. 
The QVSWPP Practitioner Notes were entrusted in the hands of the volunteers. And as explained above, Sree Maa and Shri Ji trusted us to organize and host AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop, where Sree Maa and Shri Ji wouldn't even but physically present but do the work remotely. Same for the Cosmic Meetups and Tribe meetings. Irene/Joy abused this trust, leniency, non-interference and freedom to the max.  

Jeeya was blinded by her own greed that she was unable to see the ill intention that Irene/Joy had for Kosmic Fusion. It was only during the stay in the Ashram House mid 2017 that Jeeya got to witness how Irene/Joy was demeaning the FiTs  in the Ashram House and how she was bullying the FiTs with power and control, shoving FiTs in the Ashram House, pushing blame and stealing credits of the FiTs because she wanted to get into Sree Maa’s good books.

Jeeya was the witness to Irene/Joy’s greed when she took everything (clothings, accessories) that Sree Maa wanted her to share with the rest of the FiTs if it’s unsuitable for her. Irene/Joy ensured she gave reasons to justify herself for claiming everything, she barely left any items for the rest of the FiTs to share and was taking at least 2 big luggages of clothing for herself.

At Akashic Records Master Readers Workshop Phase 2 end of 2015, Sree Maa showed us the potential of the Akashic Records being neutralized through Bhakti. Sree Maa never said a fake devotee would work, but Irene/Joy immediately jumped on it to commercialize and encash on Akashic Records Neutralizing, even though we were only allowed to practise it, see for example her conversation with an unsuspecting Pulsar Polly.

Irene/Joy even gave an interview about Akashic Records Neutralizing behind everyone’s back, only promoting herself and completely edging Sree Maa out without whom there would be no QVSWPP or any Akashic Records Neutralizing.
Dallia/Iphigenie saw Irene/Joy’s website promoting Akashic Records Neutralizing and wanted the same of course.

12/04/16, 12:06 - Meera: hArI OM brAhmn Komal 🙏🏻💗🙏🏻
Could I ask you for advice please. Since a few days I have been working on creating a German website. I am overwhelmed by the templates on wix.i had chosen one I like but it is a blog. And that somehow doesn't seem to work.
Could you please tell which page you have used or could recommend? 🙏🏻🙇🏻🙏🏻
12/04/16, 14:09 - Komal Irene Kuo: hArI OM brAhMAn Meera 🙏💓🙏
It would be the best we have a zoom meeting so you can show me where you are up to... i'm still unpacking and some renovations happening 😅 when would you like to have a call so we'll see what we can do 🙏💓🙏
12/04/16, 14:44 - Meera: Gosh you are too kind 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Only after I had send the text did I remember your move. I do not want to create any trouble for you. I am just planning to create atwo page site offering Akaashik Records neutralising session and one about short description of myself.
12/04/16, 14:45 - Meera: Then I will gradually add more content. But I want to start offering the neutralising session first

In May/June 2016, we were graced with another amazing residential Retreat where Sree Maa spoke in depth about Bhakti and also revealed that it was Sree Maa’s utmost devotion to the main holder of the Shunya Bindu, Bhagwan Swaminarayan, that we receive as the QVSWPP.

Bhakti had only just been introduced, but Irene/Joy and Dallia/Iphigenie were doing their best to pretend what great devotees they were. Dallia/Iphigenie even got a flyer printed for an expo in Christchurch in 2016 which was all about her being a great devotee. She had written the same on her German website. This is around the same time where Irene/Joy gave her secret interview about Akashic Records Neutralizing sessions.

Both of them were trying to fool the other FiTs and Sree Maa and Shri Ji with their display of fake seva and devotion, but you can only fake sincerity and affection for so long, eventually the Truth came out.

How Narcissists Run in Packs - part 2 Narc tactics

Written together with my Kalyan Mitras Jeeya, Tara and Simran

Narcissists hunt in packs and when a couple of narcissists joined our group, they exploited our most compassionate Teacher mercilessly and created a lot of havoc. One average narcissist can affect up to 30-40 people in their lifetime, so it actually a miracle we are still standing and doing fine, having had to deal with 5 narcissists (out of which 2 very malignant ones) in our group of 18.

It is only by the Grace of Sree Maa and the all-powerful, most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that we are still fine and by the precious Teachings of our beloved Sadguru that we have been able to reflect and come to see things clearly. We feel strongly about sharing the Truth of what happened, as Irene/Joy Awakening and Iphigenie Amoutzias are spreading lies on the internet about Kosmic Fusion and our beloved Teacher, still trying to fulfill their vicious aim of sabotaging the philanthropic mission of Kosmic Fusion. We also hope this may give insight to other genuine seekers as we suspect that more people with NPD will be roaming around spiritual circles.

How to spot a narcissist

Narc Tactics

While Irene/Joy Awakening was causing discord in the Sydney team, Dallia/Iphigenie was meddling with the team she had been graced with by Sree Maa in New Zealand after she kept asking for one. As the representative of Kosmic Fusion in New Zealand, Iphigenie was liaising with the Pulsars and was suggesting it was a cult to some of the attendees at the Kosmic Tribe. She was also organising Meet-up meditations were she was talking more nonsense, spreading seeds of doubt and on top of it using it to pick up men.

She was creating havoc within the team of volunteers/FiTs. Initially she was hanging out with Sarah but when Sarah didn’t give her what she wanted, she moved onto Renu who would do write-ups and help with the organising. She purposely caused problems between them to drive them apart. Narcissists work in a very sly and covert fashion so that it is hard to pinpoint at the time what is happening. Gaslighting, triangulations, flying monkeys, psychic warfare; the narcissist has got a whole arsenal to cause discord and confusion. It is only in hindsight that you can put the pieces of the puzzle together. And Dallia/Iphigenie and Irene/Joy were a pro at it.

Narcissist tactics

2014 was a year of practical training where through assisting in the organising of online workshops and events, we could practise being the non-doer. But not all were sincere in their practise… Dallia/Iphigenie and Irene/Joy were not only trying to control what was happening in the area where they lived, but also the FiT Programme as a whole. Iphigenie was squeezing out the other volunteers in the on-line events, by always putting herself forward as the facilitator with no regards for others. She was using the top dog strategy to do this.

Irene/Joy too used the top dog strategy, always trying to trump others in subtle and not so subtle ways. End of 2014 we were asked to do a beautiful exercise of tuning in with the QVSWPP for 2 times a day for 21 days and then reflect and share how we experience our relationship with Sree Maa Shri Ji, QVSWPP and other FiTs. Simran wrote a beautiful, honest letter that shows true deep reflections. Irene purposely replied to this (not sending her own letter) to top Simran off with a letter that we feel is more like a boast than a genuine reflection.
Looking back the lead was being taken by Dallia/Iphigenie and Irene/Joy who were working together to take over control. Irene would report others mistakes to Dallia and vice versa and also try to fill Sree Maa Shri Ji’s ears.

25/08/14, 19:49 - Komal Irene Kuo: So the second day we make it clear no talking inside the temple. .and Jabeen was another headache
25/08/14, 19:49 - Komal Irene Kuo: She was also in the stand but she tried to step in and keeps talking which is not helping
25/08/14, 19:50 - Meera: Of course no talking. Did the psychic talk?
Jabeen Jabeen....
25/08/14, 19:50 - Komal Irene Kuo: She also spent lots of time inside the temple to receive the energy
25/08/14, 19:50 - Meera: Haha, it's all about her
25/08/14, 19:51 - Komal Irene Kuo: Sharing some post with you
25/08/14, 19:51 - Komal Irene Kuo: Maa, something clicked to me while I was sleeping this morning, as Jabeen mentioned she is doing work placement receiving phone calls and giving  consultation for suicidal cases recently, not sure if this would affect her and also the stand energetically; as I noticed she tends to spend more time inside the temple and receiving the energy transmission, and she followed Clarito going inside the temple nearly each time he went in, which I feel strange, Clarito also mentioned he never felt so heavy in the stand before like these two days.  I don't know if  there are any connections between these incidences, would like to bring my observations for your attention and would like to have your feedback on this, also your guidance on what to do if we have similar situation in the future events
25/08/14, 19:52 - Meera: Wow. Very good.
25/08/14, 19:52 - Meera: What did Maa say?
25/08/14, 19:53 - Meera: Must have been rather heavy. Jabeen still has so much ego too work through.  ..

Tara has also personally witnessed how Irene/Joy confides in Dallia/Iphigenie when she needed to vent her anger towards Clarito. It was after the 2015 Kawai Pura Pura, New Zealand retreat where she and Clarito had an argument about Clarito wanting to move out of Sydney to go work in Auckland to be physically closer to Sree Maa and Shri Ji. She had raised her voice at Clarito across the dinner table to make him feel guilty by saying “FINE! You go to New Zealand and I will handle Sydney all by myself! How’s that?” After dinner, she was pacing up and down with rage in the hotel room that Tara and Irene/Joy were sharing that night because Irene/Joy was so fearful and upset about losing her biggest supply and flying monkey to Sree Maa and Shri Ji. When Tara did not want to engage in her drama, that is when Irene/Joy called Iphigenie to the hotel room to rant and complain as they normally would about others behind their backs (in this case, Clarito’s).

When you read through their whatsapp conversation it is a constant judging and bad mouthing others with a sense of grandiosity that is typical of narcissists. In this excerpt of Dallia/Iphigenie and Irene/Joy’s conversation you can see their sense of grandiosity and how they are even using their ‘dreams’ to gaslight others.

Narcissists project their behaviour onto you

It is interesting Irene/Joy and Dallia/Iphigenie are talking about the two faces of others, while they themselves turned out to be the biggest cheats and hypocrites on the FiT Programme. Throughout their whole conversation on whatsapp you can see the projection of what they were doing onto others.

In fact, both Joy and Iphigenie have been working very hard but very slyly to get others out of the FiT Programme so they could be the best and eventually reach their goal of taking over and destroying the mission of Kosmic Fusion. Irene/Joy tried everything she could to get Jabeen/Jwala and Simran out playing very twisted games, and she kept suggesting to Mala to move back to the UK. Irene/Joy would attack Jwala time and again or use Clarito as her flying monkey.
Conversations are verbal competitions for a narcissist

Twisting and blaming

Irene/Joy said that Simran was the one who was responsible for destroying the relationship with Deb - an event organiser. She used the following incident regarding lunch to frame Simran so that she could get rid of her, making a mountain out of a molehill. You can read the email conversation here.

After this email was sent, Irene/Joy accused Simran of destroying the relationship and putting Kosmic Fusions reputation on the line. Immediately after this occurred, she reported this to Jeeya, complaining about Simran. This was later brought up again by Irene/Joy in the 2017 reunion as a reason for asking Simran to leave the FiT training due to incompetence. Irene/Joy completely exaggerated the incident to a point where it was a “dismissable offence” in her eyes.

At events, it was clear that Irene/Joy was trying to control matters. Irene/Joy would constantly take photos of herself on the stand. Other volunteers would not necessarily like to be photographed but Irene/Joy wanted the volunteers to be photographed on the stand so that she could boast about how well things were going in Sydney, as she saw herself as the leader she thought it would impress Sree Maa and Shri Ji. She then duped Simran into posting the messages on whatsapp by saying that Sree Maa wanted to know what we were doing on the stand and what it looked like etc.  Irene/Joy then went on to tell Jeeya that Simran came to the stand to take photographs and check in so that Sree Maa thought that Simran was busy on the stand. It was clear that other volunteers ie Simran, Mala and Jwala did not like their photographs taken but felt pressured to do so to buy into the front of “oneness” that Irene/Joy was trying to create.

Gaslighting and mindgames by a narcissist

 Irene/Joy and Hanuman wanted to participate in an advert in the local press, but when Simran and Jwala declined, the situation was turned around to point fingers at Jwala and Simran by saying that we were not contributing to Kosmic Fusion so they signed up for the ad. By this time Irene/Joy and Hanuman had pulled out of doing the ad and Simran and Jwala were in a position where it was too late to pull out and had to go ahead with filling the advertising space. Irene/Joy then used it as evidence against Simran at the reunion. There are more examples of how Irene/Joy was twisting things around to point fingers at others and actually try to remove them from the FiT Programme.
Below is the feedback shared by Irene/Joy towards fellow volunteer Simran:

For the magazine advertisement for Northern Beaches Embrace Life event she and Jwala went ahead without consulting me and Hanuman, and then wanted to change to smaller size from 1/3 to 1/9 of the page after she and Jwala realised me and Hanuman not participating as we were not informed in the first place, the event organiser Deborah was not happy about the last minute change just before the due date as the magazine space been allocated, Deborah even wrote email asking me and Hanuman what’s happening, from her forwarded email we saw Simran told her because Kosmic Fusion is moving to new phase so not able to come up with bigger advertising space… this is how she slander Kosmic Fusion’s name and doing whatever she wants, if Deborah didn’t forward the email would have any clues of what’s happening. Same as Jwala in the advertisement she also put her consultation services before “Energy Healing with Bhakti Bhaav”.

Dallia/Iphigenie too was working hard towards her goal of destruction. After she became the face of Kosmic Fusion in New Zealand, Pulsars and FiTs started leaving. Now there is only 1 left, Nandini. 
The way she has used and abused one of the fellow FiTs, Renu is typical of narcissists and clearly shows the malignancy Dallia/Iphigenie was carrying inside. 

Narcissists see people as objects

Dallia/Iphigenie first played a friend to Renu, pretending to give a listening ear and support. This is how she won Renu’s trust. Renu was actively contributing with write-ups and organising Meetups, which came in handy to Dallia who tends to be lazy. Of course, while she was pretending to be her friend, she was gossiping about Renu to Irene/Joy behind her back. When Renu came back very ill from a trip to Europe mid 2015, she stayed with Dallia whom she thought was her friend to recover. Renu was actually very ill with encephalitis and required medical attention but Dallia/Iphigenie didn’t care. It was Sree Maa and Shri Ji who had to intervene and personally take Renu to the hospital. Dallia/Iphigenie later admitted that she didn’t care if Renu died. Zero empathy, zero conscience.

When Renu came too much to handle as she needed a lot of attention, Dallia/Iphigenie gave her the cold shoulder. This came to a pinnacle at the India trip and shocked Renu who didn’t understand why a friend would treat her that way. Narcissists see others as objects to use and abuse. Dallia/Iphigenie in fact wanted Renu out as she had seen her strength during the India Pilgrimage, where she encountered a lot of physical challenges.

Early 2017 Renu all of a sudden left the FiT Programme. Other FiTs were baffled and had no idea what happened and of course Dallia/Iphigenie kept her mouth shut. Well, she did write a shaming and blaming email to Renu as a reply to Renu’s genuine apology. The letter is actually a complete projection from Dallia/Iphigenie’s side. She made sure she copied all the rest of us in (but not Sree Maa and Shri Ji…) to desensitize us.

How Narcissists Run in Packs - part 1

Written together with my Kalyan Mitras Simran, Jeeya and Tara

Only narcissists defend narcissists

During the FiT program we discovered that several narcissists were running wild, causing mass destruction wherever they went. As we have worked more deeply in hindsight reflecting on the various games that were played in the FiT program, we identified that there were several patterns that reoccurred time and time again, because we were wearing our blinkers we were unable to spot the cunning games that were being played at the expense of Sree Maa and Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion.

When we reflect back the signs and red flags were there, we were given a blank canvas to paint a vivid picture of unity, trust and respect. At the beginning there were a few of us who approached Sree Maa to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion. Initially Sree Maa and Shri Ji were funding the exhibition stands around Australia and New Zealand and things were beginning to unfold very quickly. There was a lot of interest in the amazing Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) and curiosity was building. There was a very positive response from people when they were touched by the Grace of Sree Maa Shi Ji and Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse.

In 2012 and 2013 a small group of volunteers formed (including Nat, Nathan, Nick, Sheree Ekta and Simran) and were given a platform by Sree Maa. In Feb 2013 Irene/Komal/Joy Kuo (as she calls herself now) and Clarito also started to be involved and from this point we branched out into supporting Sree Maa Shri Ji to introduce the QVSWPP to other states.

At this time Nat, Ekta and Simran were helping to organise a festival in the Gold Coast in early 2013.  This is where Dallia/Meera/Iphigenie and Irene/Joy first met. Enter Narcissist no 2. Iphigenie wanted to know who was volunteering in Australia and wanted to suss things out. She befriended Irene/Joy to obtain inside information of how to get a big group of people in New Zealand.

During the Melbourne MBS festival that same year both Nat and Irene/Joy were attending and during the trip Nat and Irene/Joy had some conflict. One key point to note is that conflict did not arise until Irene/Joy appeared on the scene. On return from the Festival both Irene/Joy and Nat were not on speaking terms and Irene/Joy then told Liping that she was being bullied by Nat. Irene/Joy then played the victim to Liping and recruited Liping as a flying monkey. Irene/Joy was the one having problems with everyone but was always blaming the other party. Could it be possible that the one person who had problems with everyone, had nothing to look at within herself??

19/09/14, 20:03 - Meera: How are you feeling after last night's call?
19/09/14, 20:16 - Komal Irene Kuo: Most of the time people have issues with me 😅 Maa said it's competition... had some issues with Elliaa, Siann (even this year mbs Sydney the seminar meditation)  Sheree ...Nat used to have bad attitudes to me... they're okay now. .. but now a little bit with Jabeen. ... 😅 sounds like my problem but not really. ..... maybe they feel I'm threatening to them and react. ...and that affects me. .. but now they know where I'm coming from and know who is the one taking responsibility all the way through
 (Iphigenie was called Meera at that time)

The Narcissists blames you

Bully who plays the victim

Straight upon her entry, Irene/Joy had started to play with the Sydney team and caused splitting within the team often undermining Ekta and Simran by pointing out their flaws and even at one point falsely accused them of stealing money from the Tribe Meetings. Obviously, we did not spot this red flag because we were busily defending ourselves from the Narcissist.
Irene/Joy had already started to recruit Clarito as her flying monkey and he was slowly but surely being primed. She had other uses in mind for him, but the grooming of her Narcissist supply had started.

At this point Nick was assisting Sree Maa and Shri Ji with administration related to Kosmic Fusion.  Irene/Joy then set out to impress Nick. She began to take the lead in meetings, her method was to bulldoze others until they submit and let her take the lead. She also volunteered for all the tasks with no regard to other volunteers in the group. There was absolutely no time taken by Irene/Joy to understand her place in the group or when she stepped over others’ boundaries. Narcissists tend to not have any respect for others’ boundaries and are purely driven by their own agenda which is based on power and control over others.

Using her bulldozing and badmouthing method, Irene/Joy had taken over the hosting of the Kosmic Tribe together with Clarito. One time when Sree Maa and Shri Ji were visiting Sydney and gracing the Kosmic Tribe with their Presence, Irene/Joy actually put Sree Maa and Shri Ji on the side while she put the chairs for herself and Clarito in the centre of the gathering. Looking back, we can see how her true intentions were shining through already from the start…

Narcissists love to play the victim

It was at an expo in Newcastle mid 2013 where Irene/Joy started to groom Clarito fully and turned him against Simran and Ekta, playing the victim again and gaining his sympathy. Irene/Joy knows Clarito’s failing is to protect the weak, therefore she used him in a way that he witnesses situations where she plays the victim. She complained to him that nobody was supporting her and pretended that her English is not so good and asked Clarito to help her. Interesting to note she has an English degree for Chinese speakers and used to assess Chinese university students. She also doesn’t seem to have any problem speaking English on her current youtube channel. In any case, this trick of ‘my English is not so good’ she would pull out of her narcissist hat regularly.

Irene/Joy was constructing a facade of a docile and sincere, dedicated volunteer in front of Sree Maa and Shri Ji, but behaving very differently towards the volunteers and other FiTs. It is no surprise that people started leaving when Irene/Joy was the face of Kosmic Fusion in Australia. She pushed herself to be the leader, even though Sree Maa had always emphasized the importance of no hierarchy and no forming small groups.  Irene/Joy was not just behaving like a bully towards fellow FiTs but also towards Pulsars. In this small excerpt you can see how she was communicating in a harsh, uncaring tone to Camilla, who was not part of the FiT Programme but kindly offered to help out. Is this how you would talk to someone who was happy to give of their free time or to anyone for that matter?
Read Joy's conversation with Camilla with a harsh tone (then she was called Irene/Komal) 

Narcissists cannot do earnestness

In 2014 Irene/Joy set up Kosmic Fusion Australia with Clarito. She tricked Clarito into taking on the credit card for the company. She first convinced him they needed a credit card, and while they were both standing in the bank in front of the bank clerk, she would play the victim again. She told Clarito husband doesn’t really agree with her name being linked to the credit card, thereby putting him on the spot. Clarito being the protective gentlemen that he is, took the company credit card on his name.
Narcissists hunt in packs

Hunting in packs

Narcissists hunt in packs and you can see the same in this conversation between Dallia/Iphigenie and Irene/Joy, where Iphigenie is sending aggressive emails to Jabeen and to Sheree, who had been a most mature, dependable and dedicated volunteer. Both Jabeen and Sheree are very well-spoken and beautiful, so for Irene/Joy and Dallia/Iphigenie they were a threat. Narcissists are jealous by nature and want to be the best, so anyone perceived as better than them has to go. Irene/Joy is literally applauding the aggressive emails and they are gossiping about these two volunteers.

The Pulse of the FiT Programme was very different from what Irene/Joy Kuo and Dallia/Iphigenie were displaying. It was about honesty, integrity, authenticity and transparency, about working as one, introspection and self-reflection (not judging others, gossiping and finding faults) and most of all about being the non-doer, stepping back and letting the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse step in.  

We had no clue at the time what these two were up to, because we assumed everyone was there with the same genuine intention as ourselves. We were also vulnerable and porous as we were genuinely looking within and in the process of transformation. It is only in hindsight that we can see the subtle games that were being played and how Dallia/Iphigenie and Irene/Joy without any conscience kept using and abusing Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Compassion, Kindness and Trust. The golden rule of stepping back and being the non-doer, they completely ignored.