Interviews with my dear kalyan mitras

Earlier this year flew down to Sydney to meet with my dear kalyan mitras to reflect back on our phenomenal journey of the last couple of years with beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji in the FiT Programme and Kosmic Fusion.

There is so much to share but in my humble understanding the essence of it is unfathomable Grace, Sree Maa Shri Ji's pure Grace, Compassion and Kindness and total selflessness that has propelled us onto and forward on the journey towards our True SELF, the Brahmroop. Even though we have made many mistakes due to our inner weaknesses and flaws, learning at the expense of Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, Sree Maa never let go of our hands and keeps ushering forward. With the GPS installed, the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse shared unconditionally by Sree Maa Shri Ji, and the Shelter of Sree Maa Shri Ji's gracious Wing we are most fortunate to be on the path of liberation Homebound.

Welcome you to watch our frank and heartfelt interviews about our transformational journeys:

















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My interview with Mala

Faculty Interview – Ekta

Had the great honour of meeting my dear kalyan mitras in Sydney early 2019 and Mala interviewed me about my journey with Kosmic Fusion and beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji.

You can also see this interview on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dXCf67E-i-0

In this edition, Mala candidly interviews Ekta to sum up 7 years at Kosmic Fusion. Ekta is one of the very few Faculties that have grown immensely on Personal, Emotional, Mental and Spiritual levels.

Ekta has an inspiring story, in 2012 she was a single mother living in alien country, surviving on government dole; she came to know about Kosmic Fusion through common friends and was awestruck with the brochure, which in her words “was talking to her” literally.

The next 18 months changed Ekta’s life for good, she returned back to Netherlands to a job she loves, close to her parents & family  and lovely daughter who looks at mum for inspiration.

Coming from an Atheist background, it was challenging for Ekta to understand and accept spirituality however with Sree Maa as a friend, Philosopher and Guide; nothing was impossible.

In this interview, Ekta talks about her journey since knowing Sree Maa Shri Ji and shares her experiences through past 7 years, how she came to know about Kosmic Fusion, interactions with Sree Maa, teachings and most importantly lessons learnt at one of the most revolutionary programme the “Facilitators in Training”.

How long have you known Sree Maa Shri Ji?
I know them since February 2012 when I did Awakenin & Transformation workshop. At that time I had a small child and Sree Maa was very free and allowed the child into the workshop as well.

Sometimes it is very hard to put into words, but I was touched so profoundly but I had no words for it. Sree Maa came back couple of months later and we were able to join one of the Kosmic Fusion stand at the Mind, Body Spirit Festivals in Sydney.

Sree Maa Shri Ji said, just put your hands on anyone and just see what happens. It was so profound and so amazing, it was the Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photon Pulse.

“At the Awakenin & Transformation workshop, Sree Maa awakens you Atma and anyone who connects with the Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photon Pulse.”

We could tune in with anyone, any time, any place, 24/7. Most benevolent signature of the Source Void. It is shared by Sree Maa Shri Ji, lovingly and unconditionally.

When I put my hands on somebody’s shoulder, I could see this instant healing, expansion, feeling inner bliss and then when the testimonials that came back from the people who were so touched with Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photo Pulse.

How has Sree Maa Shri Ji brought difference to your life?

I will try to keep it brief. Since knowing Sree Maa Shri Ji, they have taken me under their wings and worked with me very patiently, lovingly and compassionately. They always supported me with the right guidance. So I could become more open and in tune with the Atma (the Soul).

I was such a drama queen; till Sree Maa Shri Ji walked into my life. Because of Sree Maas grace, patience and nurturing and become more in-tune with yourself.

I can now embrace anything with love and grace. I still remember this Soul Mapping session with Sree Maa, I was told to embrace everything that comes my way, those sentences always struck by me. With all the workshops that followed, the Facilitators in Training programme, it became easier to actually live with that wave.

“The golden phrase we were told since day 1 was to step back and let Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photon Pulse step in, be the Non-Doer. It has been quite a journey to embody that, I can’t say that straight from the start. I had the doer step in through Facilitators in Training programme. More teachings and insights were shared about Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photon Pulse.”

It was actually easier and effortlessly came from a non-doer state not so much effort to come together.

Are Sree Maa’s teachings consistent with Ancient Eastern philosophy or change over period of time.

I could say it was always consistent. Being from atheist background, I always had these questions, What is love, Why am I here. I had sense of God or something that is greater.

There was nothing I could refer to, I dabbled into the new age groups and modalities but that wasn’t giving me the answers. So it just didn’t sit.

Then Sree Maa Shri Ji started speaking and explaining Sanatan Dharma. I felt so light and refreshing. I just knew this is it for me. Sree Maa just knows how to explain the most complex teachings to break it down to someone like me with zero background.

Do you think people will have resistance to such direct and open way of talking?

I can imagine there will be people. I was living in Sydney in 2012 and then I moved back to Netherlands in early 2014. When we were volunteering, Sree Maa Shri Ji had given this beautiful platform.

Everyone was so touched by the experiences. Part and parcel of it is, how to be the non-Doer. Sree Maa Shri Ji was very frank with giving such feedback. I have to say that my ego was little bit at that time.

I knew this is best for me, this is for the benefit of my Soul. I have to say that “Sree Maa has always always always nurtured my Soul”. Even when I was letting it down. I feel very grateful.

Yes there might be people, who might not be able to stand beyond that but that’s they are losing out.

Did you ever feel that Sree Maa indoctrinated or imposed any belief system on you?

Quite the opposite Mala. Sree Maa Shri Ji’s teachings are universal. I felt so free learning about Sanatan Dharm, which is not a religion – it is the eternal truth and righteous way of living., spiritual democracy and such a breath of fresh air.

I have seen man made religions, very dogmatic and written in a book but this (Sanatan Dharma) covers about the journey to the Soul and the Super Soul, God or Bhagwan or however you refer to the absolute. It cannot be captured in a book, it is not something dogmatic. It is the most natural thing, the Bhagwan when you say.

Living such life is a second nature. Just the way Sree Maa Shri Ji have taught that and brought us into the nature and to my life, I feel so grateful.

How was your experience with Facilitator in Training Programme?

I joined the Facilitator in Training programme in 2013 when there was a trial intake. I remember we write letters expressing your interest & pledge on how you would like to take Kosmic Fusion mission forward.

When I read my letter in front of Sree Maa Shri Ji, I had to cry. There was something like a connection in there, so deeply. I still have a lot to learn about my self.  The Facilitators in Training programme was also about the Awakenin, Transformation and Transcendence process i.e. moving from your small “self” to your True “Self”, the Brahmaroop.

Then there was shades of small self, getting in the way.  I have learnt it really helps to look honestly at your self. All the shades come up and how to move forward. I was not always honest with my self but thank to Sree Maa Shri Ji and their guidance, sense of humour and guidance, that I have been able to grow and move forward.

A lot had changed through that FiT programme.   For a while I have to say I lived in a little bit of a daze, sleepy that I had my own belief systems about love, light etc. Sree Maa Shri Ji woke me up to the truth and remove these blinkers. That is truly what sets you free, that is liberating and it’s not in judging others but it’s in discerning.

I have become very honest. I know my soul is nurtured so deeply. Everything that I have learnt from Sree Maa Shri Ji, putting it into practice more. I’m so grateful that I’m still under Sree Maa Shri Ji’s wings, they are still holding my hand.

What motivates you to take Sree Maa as your Guru, Guide and Teacher?

Sree Maa has always embraced me with so much of love, so much understanding, so much compassion. Whatever I need each moment, Sree Maa & Shri Ji have always given it unconditionally, boundlessly, lovingly.

“I have seen in the Facilitators in Training Programme, Sree Maa Shri Ji have gone above and beyond humanly possible, to give all of us in the FiT programme, to support us in our journey of Awakenin, Transformation and Transcendence.”

What are the chances that you meet someone like that? They are my supreme lifeline…. Everything!


Please also watch the interviews with my other dear kalyan mitras:

Archita: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nwiFzU-yHoM&t=5s
Niranjana: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_kRSyrj_WE

Mala: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzhhsHvMeLs

Jeeya; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XI3yKGrL3rM

Hanuman: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PVMi-Kp8XN4

Forever grateful to beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji for coming into our lives and taking us under Sree Maa Shri Ji's Wing _/\ô__

Sree Maa: living embodiment of Grace and Compassion

Writing this, tears well up. Sree Maa has done so much for me, a meritless, agyani soul, not only ignorant but also arrogant who was deeply lost in Maya and drunk on ego. My sense is i am not even aware of 1% of what Sree Maa has done for my soul and countless other souls to elevate them and eventually lead them back to where they belong, to Bhagwan Swaminarayan.

i am not able to adequately describe the Greatness of someone so elevated, loving and supremely Divine like Sree Maa Shri Ji as my understanding is very limited, but will attempt to share my experience and thoughts as my humble tribute to my Supreme Lifeline and Ultimate Well-Wisher, the one whom i am fortunate to call my Guru, and also as a stance to share the Truth.

There are some who are so deluded by their false self and ego fabrications and so caught up in their narcissistic self, they have spread lies about Sree Maa Shri Ji, things that couldn’t be further from the Truth. How anyone can talk lies about One who is so Compassionate, Loving and Kind really beats me but with this humble sharing i hope to go some way in dispelling those falsities.

Wherever Sree Maa walks everything gets uplifted and is touched by Grace so Supreme, there are simply no words for it. A small example: when we visited Vrindavan with Sree Maa during a Pilgrimage in 2017, clearly remember this place where pandits were literally screaming and fighting out of greed. Recently one of the Faculty members had the great fortune to travel with Sree Maa to Vrindavan again and she saw that the greed had gone down tremendously, not only in that particular place but in the whole of Vrindavan and Mathura where we had gone at that time. There is no doubt in my head this is the Grace of Sree Maa. My heart delights thinking about all the places Sree Maa has been that have been showered with an invisible but All-powerful touch of Grace.

i was not always aware of this, in fact i did not recognize the Divinity and Greatness of Sree Maa Shri Ji at first. Sree Maa has explained, this is Kali Yuga, this is the time where God can walk past and people will not recognize God. i was one of those people… Only by Sree Maa’s Supreme Grace has my Soul been awakened and my eyes opened up.

To be in the Presence of Sree Maa Shri Ji is a Blessing and boon beyond compare. Bodily awareness decreases, less sleep is needed, awareness increases as the Soul comes in the forefront rather than the small self, but also that which needs to be let go of will come up so it can graciously be discarded for the Soul to move closer to Bhagwan. To even have Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Darshan is a Blessing and not to be taken lightly, something which i with my western background was slow to comprehend. Apart from Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Darshan, Sree Maa’s eyes and voice have always mesmerized me and truly are from beyond this world.

Can honestly say that Sree Maa has not only lifted up my soul but also made me a better human being in the first place, one who can be honest with herself and with others. Through Sree Maa’s unconditional Love, Compassion and Grace have changed from quite an uncouth individual, fluffed up by a miss goody two shoes fakeness and useless people pleasing tendencies to a more refined human being, even though am very much still work in progress, as is my Atmanishta.

Sree Maa has never ever held my agyan against me, even though must have unknowingly shown a lot of disrespect as i had no clue how to even talk or behave appropriately in the Presence of Grace and Utmost Divinity. Sree Maa is an Anaadi Mukt, completely one with the One and Only One, Bhagwan Swaminarayan, a paramekantik Bhakt of Bhagwan Swaminarayan, and yet has met me where i was no matter how ignorant and gone out of Sree Maa Shri Ji’s way to uplift my soul. Sree Maa has picked me up from the hole i had dug myself in. Can only imagine what it must be like having to put your hand into the sewer to pull someone out, and to do so without any resistance and with pure Love.

Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Compassion knows no bounds. This you can immediately feel when you are in the Presence of Sree Maa. Have had the great fortune to see Sree Maa bless all creatures, be they simple flies, cows or deer. Never Sree Maa loses sight of the Paramatma within the Atma within all and Sree Maa does not leave a stone unturned to elevate souls. Even the two covert malignant narcissists who infiltrated the FiT Programme have had moments of reflection and conscience, through Sree Maa’s supernova empathy and unlimited Compassion, which is unprecedented.

Have heard Charitras about Nandsantos (elite saints) in the time of Shreeji Maharaj who were sometimes beaten black and blue by wicked people. Being the elevated Souls they are, they would not retaliate but forgive the attackers and pray for their well-being. Have seen the same thing with Sree Maa Shri Ji who was attacked, slandered, backstabbed by some of the FiTs, one of the FiT even tried to poison Sree Maa Shri Ji but Sree Maa Shri Ji would silently endure and still pray for their well-being, shower them with Compassion, Guidance and show them the way. i failed to keep the Paksh of Sree Maa, but Sree Maa always had my back and protected me from the attacks from the narcissists, taking the brunt of the attacks on herself. 

Sree Maa is the epitome of selflessness. Always going above and beyond what is humanly possible to support others, making untold personal sacrifices and spending tireless days, sleepless nights to guide others, without thinking twice always putting the welfare of others before Sree Maa. 

Sree Maa has taken on and processed a lot of my negativity and that of all the FiTs, experienced so many bodily discomforts, but never once Sree Maa would complain. i was the one failing to look after Sree Maa, and making sure Sree Maa Shri Ji’s is comfortable, but Sree Maa never ever failed me or anyone else. Sree Maa is the ultimate Giver, who hears all prayers and who gives and gives and gives.

Sree Maa Shri Ji knows me better than i know myself and has only ever my well-being, the kalyan of my Atma at heart. Like a true Mother Sree Maa has nurtured me so lovingly, holding my hand as i stumbled and fell and acted up. Even when i was taking Sree Maa Shri Ji for granted or acted inappropriately, Sree Maa still held on tight and ushered me forward. Sree Maa has spent countless hours on me, guiding me personally, explaining things again and again in ways so that my thick head can understand, making sure the ego doesn’t get the better of me and towards my Brahmroop is where this soul is headed. Very patiently and lovingly Sree Maa has guided me into the fold of Santana Dharma, the eternal Truth and righteous way of living. When Sree Maa isn’t physically present, Sree Maa is still there, very tangibly so guiding, supporting, showing the way Home.

The Gnan showered by Sree Maa Shri Ji is simply Supreme. Have never come across anyone who can teach like this and who is the living embodiment of not just Grace and Compassion but Ultimate Wisdom, the Absolute Truth. The effortlessness with which Sree Maa Shri Ji can talk and teach about the most elevated things in the most understandable manner with a great sense of humour and crystal-clear clarity, always in tune with the pulse of the room and the inner most feelings of all present, still baffles me. Sree Maa’s Discourses and Teachings are truly unparalleled and exquisitely Divine.

Sree Maa has shown utmost humility and levelling, which is something only someone who is truly great can do. Nirmanipanu – that which Sree Maa has emphasized so much, always be without pride and arrogance, be meek and humble, Sree Maa is like that only. Sree Maa walks the talk and is the ultimate non-doer, knowing it is Bhagwan Swaminarayan, Sarva Karta, who is doing everything. Sree Maa is not only the ultimate non-doer but also the epitome of Bhakti. Have had the great fortunate to witness Sree Maa’s care and utmost love for the Murti of Maharaj in the Mandir at Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Abode. Just thinking about this my heart smiles, this is a Love so Great, it is Bhakti that is off the charts. And the biggest proof (for want of a better word) is the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse.

It is the living Bhakti of Sree Maa Shri Ji to Bhagwan Swaminarayan that we receive as the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. A 24-7, 365-day connection to the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is the most precious Gift of Grace that Sree Maa Shri Ji has bestowed to all who have attended the Awakenin Transformation workshop and no doubt to many more. One can tune in anywhere any time they like. Teachings of Kosmic Fusion have always been straight forward and beautifully universal: be the non-doer, step back and let the QVSWPP step in. Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is the Supreme Signature of Source-Void, IT is the Swaminarayan Mahamantra, the Name of the Supreme Almighty, shared unconditionally and boundlessly by beloved Sree Maa. It brings the Soul back to the Super Soul, It is the GPS installed that will bring the Atma back to Bhagwan. It is supremely all-knowing and supremely intelligent, It touches everyone and doesn’t judge or shun even the densest of people and places. It knows exactly what each one needs and immersed in this Grace spontaneous healing on all levels is the by-product.

Sree Maa once said “you guys simply have no idea what you have received. Simply not even remotely aware of how much GRACE has been showered.” Just thinking about these lines gives me goose bumps as i know it is true. Sada Aapki Abhaari Rahungi Sree Maa for the unfathomable Grace bestowed and for holding me tight. You are my Guru, my Lifeline, my Comforter, my Saviour, my Everything. Humbly surrender in the Lotus Feet of Beloved SreeMaa-Shreeji _/\_ _/\ô__ _/\ô__

Jai Shree Swaminarayan _/\_

New age industry and stealing credit (part 1)

When i first felt some inner spiritual calling, started looking into what was readily available around me and living in the west ended up exploring a good part of the smorgasbord of the new age industry. Am saying industry, as i have found it had more to do with the (spiritual) ego & making money than with genuine spiritual awakening, never mind transformation and transcendence.

Dabbled into healing with the angels, met people who claimed to be channelling the masters, people who were into crystals, followed a reiki course and some other courses, read quite a few books including A course in Miracles which was actually the only book that talked about the Grace of God. But after a few years of searching, nothing had felt quite right, maybe i felt good for a while but the deep yearning wasn’t answered and had seen nothing that actually brought me much closer to the truth or in connection with my True Soul.

Saving Grace
All this changed when i met beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji. Sree Maa awakened my Atma (True Soul), graced me with a 24/7 connection to the Signature of the Source/Void known as Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse or Swaminarayan Mahamantra and in the FiT Programme gently introduced me to Sanatana Dharma, the eternal way of righteous living. It is hard to put into words, felt a sense of coming Home straight from the start with Sree Maa Shri Ji and “this is It” with everything Sree Maa Shri Ji was sharing, the QVSWPP and with Words, though my ego was baffled at times at the Absolute Truths shared that rattled the many faulty and limited beliefs i held within my mind. Forever grateful to Bhagwan for sending beloved Sree Maa into my life.

Have had the great fortunate to have been graced with countless Blessings and many unparalleled enlightening Discourses by Sree Maa. Sree Maa has always spoken in a way that someone like me can understand, with modern day analogies, in simple English but that contained the most profound Wisdoms and Absolute Truth from the Satshastras that truly nourish the True Soul, show the Glory of the Absolute and the way to liberation. This by the way also involves honest reflection and introspection and not trying to shove the grey shades under the carpet or sugar coating them, like i had seen so much in the new age circles and which i had also indulged in very much.

There is a lot going on and i don’t pretend to know much, in fact if there is one thing i have learnt is that i know nothing but can see there are plenty of times where so-called spiritual teachers in the west are drawing on Ancient Wisdom from India but are not paying homage and credit to the true source. A stark example would be the theosophical society which the healing industry draws on so heavily, unfortunately they have twisted information and spread a lot of misconceptions in the west.

Micro-macro
Thinking about it, what i have seen happening in the FiT Programme in a micro scale, is what is going on in the world at large. There two covert narcissists who had snuck into the FiT Programme were and still are stealing Sree Maa’s teachings without giving credit and also tried to Sree Maa's identity. One even went to the point of promoting herself as a Facilitator and bringer of Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the other pretended to be such a great devotee that healings were happening because of that. Things couldn’t be further from the truth… Stealing credit is of course a narcissists middle name, and the sad thing is they are cutting the branch they are sitting on. Without the One and Only One nothing is possible and without a true Guru this problem called the “i”/ego is impossible to transcend.

One of the many empowering things taught in the FiT Programme includes not stealing credit and think this is one many so-called spiritual teachers in the west should take to heart. Have actually shared this with my daughter too and it is beautiful to see that she makes sure not to steal anyone’s credit or forget to acknowledge the true source.

Narcissists are pathological liars

We were in a small village in India with shops where they sold beautiful local artisan products. In one of the shops, Iphigenie starts whining she really wants this big orange shawl but doesn’t have any money. She put on a full show including a sad puppy face. Feeling for her at the time, i offered to borrow her the money or even buy her the shawl as a gift and she quickly took it. Later on, i found out Iphigenie had a habit of fleecing money from people all the time and i wasn't the only one whom she had approached in India.

Shortly after the India Pilgrimage in February 2017, Iphigenie had borrowed 1000 dollars from Renu under false pretences. She had made it appear that it was for the Ashram, but that was a lie. Iphigenie used it to pay off personal expenses, such as her car loan. Telling lies and deceiving others is what narcissists do. She had also borrowed a big amount from another FiT whom had made sure this was recorded on paper and witness by a third party. Guess deep down this FiT knew the kind of person she was dealing with.

Interestingly, when i met Iphigenie in Auckland in 2015 and saw her apartment, she was renting in a fancy neighbourhood and she must be paying at least 300 a week for it. Also noticed how all the food items she had were expensive organic items bought from health food stores. She was living a life larger than her income based on relief teaching and as a belly dance teacher due to her own grandiose.

Iphigenie had brought her money problems to Sree Maa shri Ji and Sree Maa Shri Ji being the living embodiment of Grace and Compassion had recommended her to Ritu/Nandini so she could learn how to do hair extensions and work in Nandini’s shop for a steady income. Instead of being grateful and seizing this wonderful opportunity, Iphigenie played dirty games, pitching Nandini’s staff against Nandini and causing discord amongst the staff. No wonder Nandini had to let her go.

Iphigenie’s belly dance business was going nowhere, but she claimed she stopped it so she could dedicate her time and energy more fully to Kosmic Fusion… Hey, where have we heard this before? Right, with Irene/Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus in Sydney who chose the retrenchment package of about 40,000 dollars instead of a new job when the University where she was working went through a restructuring. She claimed she quit her job so she could dedicate her time more to Kosmic Fusion, but in reality, she was investing this money in her own business called Holistic Freedom Wellness Centre and another sole trader business she had set up with Hanuman. Narcissists have a funny way of twisting everything to suit their story and make themselves look like a victim. But the truth is, Irene/Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus was stealing Kosmic Fusion data (personal contacts of people) and copyright for her own benefit.

While Irene was hiring some expensive internet consultant for 20,000 dollars or so, Iphigenie bought some expensive "build your own business package" by Marie Forleo. They are free to do this, of course, but they can’t later on claim they were giving up everything for Kosmic Fusion when they were only doing so for their own interests and business ventures.

For your information, all the other FiTS/volunteers still had and have their full time jobs so they can look after their families and themselves and take responsibility in life.

Iphigenie was also eyeing the money from her father, whom she didn’t like and had even accused of sexually abusing her as a child, but she has no qualms about taking money from him… To me this shows the true character of a person.

The real question is, if Iphigenie felt Sree Maa Shri Ji’s teachings were not resonating with her as she now says, why did she stay in the FiT Programme? And why did she come on the India Pilgrimage when she was struggling with money? There were others who hadn’t come to India due to work commitments or other reasons why they couldn’t make it. We were never forced to do or pay for anything. At the end of each year we were told explicitly to reflect if this path was still for us and write letters only if we wished to stay. Some people have left after they felt the FiT Programme was no longer for them without any judgement or any questions asked. Iphigenie’s claims she was forced to stay are blatant lies. She stayed on as she was on a mission to destroy Kosmic Fusion due to her pathological envy and jealousy. If she can’t have it, nobody can.

She came to the Ashram uninvited through manipulating one of the other FiTs Jeeya and was the one contributing least to the Ashram House rent, yet now claims she has given so much. How? What? When? She was causing harassment in the Ashram and purposefully bullying and gaslighting Jeeya and Rita to create chaos and stop their progress. She even had the audacity to bill the Murti of Swaminarayan Bhagwan for the Prasad. While living in the Ashram she purposefully forgets to host Cosmic Meetup in Auckland twice, leaving the ones who had come for the meditation stranded.

The whole time she was the representative of Kosmic Fusion in NZ, people were leaving; from a vibrant community of about 25-30 people, the numbers were reduced to two in New Zealand because of her sick covert games and sowing seeds of doubt. What giving is she talking about? Her claims are completely baseless and an outright lie. Everywhere she has gone she has left a path of destruction and chaos. This is exactly what a covert malignant narcissist does. They lie, cheat, purposefully withhold information and twist the truth.

Sree Maa Shri Ji has been the ONLY ONE giving non-stop, literally 24/7 of her time, energy and effort and all Iphigenie has done is misuse Sree Maa’s Kindness, Compassion and Grace.

i urge anyone not to fall for Iphigenie’s sob stories and story of victimhood. This is not a nice person, this is someone who uses and abuses, slyly, covertly and insidiously. i have witnessed and experienced this myself. And like a narcissist when their true face is out, they don’t take responsibility but instead take revenge and try to smear the other party and project on them the things they have done themselves. 

Because of Sree Maa's super nova empathy and tireless support, even Iphigenie has had her moments where she was able to reflect on her actions but she fell back into playing the victim game. Iphigenie is trying to portray herself as a victim and put labels on Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji as she is still hellbent on destruction. Do not be deceived by her superficial charm or claims that she is a spiritual person. Do not fall for her lies. Please do your own investigation and read the blogs of my Kalyan Mitras Jeeya and Nandini who were living in NZ and also lived with her in the Ashram House. Feel free to contact me with any question.

P.S.
i am standing up for the truth as there are too many people being victimised by narcissists in today’s world and silence is not okay. i failed to raise my voice on the FiT Programme due to my own limitations, but will not keep quiet anymore.

Spiritual bypassing and cognitive dissonance

Anyone who is on a spiritual journey needs to be aware of spiritual bypassing. Have to admit, i wasn’t always aware of this and it is also something that i have seen happening a lot in new age circles.

Spiritual bypassing is a term coined in the early 1980s by psychologist John Welwood. It refers to the use of spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with uncomfortable feelings, unresolved wounds, and fundamental emotional and psychological needs. Or as psychologist Ingrid Mathieu aptly put its “checking out, rather than checking in”.

Examples include using spirituality as a justification for failing to take responsibility for one’s actions, using spirituality to feel superior to other people, disease to be nice, emotional numbing and repression, overemphasis on the positive, blind or overly tolerant compassion, weak boundaries etc.

In the FiT Programme too we were asked to look at spiritual bypass and even research this topic together with cognitive dissonance to reflect on where we were practising spiritual bypass.

Reflection and introspection were an important part of the FiT Programme because if you want to rise above your small self, you have to look within (see also this blog about inner enemies).

Looking back, i can see how the white ass and new age mentality says: “we have got the guru inside us, we look ourselves”. Because i was fed these concepts, was practising this bypass too. But when it came to actually looking within, there was no guru inside me that would show me the way.

If it was not for the tireless guidance from my Mentor whom i humbly take as my Guru, beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, would not have been able to look at the grey shades & blind spots within, let alone begin to air those things out. Some of my unhelpful swabhaav (nature) included people pleasing, disease to be nice where i don’t speak up when it is needed, blindly trusting because of a faulty believe in a world of love and oneness instead of understanding that there is different gradations of incarnated souls and using discernment, and putting others above me in my head – coming from comparison instead of seeing the divinity in all and also a subtle way to remain in my comfort zone and shirk responsibility.

In hindsight, these were also my character flaws that made me enable the covert narcissists that had snuck into the FiT Programme pretending they wanted to serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion but who came with hidden malicious agendas. In that way spiritual bypass cannot only hamper one’s own growth but also have an impact on group dynamics and result in affecting innocent parties.
 
The interesting thing is, the two narcissists Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus and Iphigenie Amoutzias/Malana B. Taresi who were asked to leave after their true face came out, only briefly reflected but then fell back into victim mode.  

Still remember how even at the Reunion in July 2017, Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus tried to wiggle out of going through the questionnaires we ourselves had put together to help us reflect. In fact, at some point she had pulled me aside and while trying to fill my ears about another FiT, she said this person told her she has a dark side that she needs to look at. And she said it with such disbelief like she couldn’t believe this was true… In her head, she must have felt perfect and this is the grandiosity typical of people with NPD.

My Kalyan Mitra Tara has written a great blog on how these two pretend volunteers, Joy and Iphigenie were both into Buddhism before and how they failed to look at the false self/ego self then and continued to do the same when they joined Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme.

Because of Sree Maa's supreme empathy and support, the voice of conscience was awakened in Joy and she did eventually reflect on her actions for a while, but then fell back into playing the victim game big time. Perhaps the attempt to reflect was only to try and reel back in the one person, Clarito, whom she had groomed and been obsessed with for years. In September 2017 she was kindly asked to resign.

Iphigenie had been voted out by the other FiT in May 2017 as we felt unsafe around her and couldn’t trust her after all the covert games that she had played for almost 5 years like only a sociopath with malignant narcissism knows how to play. She too was able to reflect on her actions because of the Grace and super nova empathy of Sree Maa and shared some of her narcissistic games and motives (though she would have never revealed everything). But when she didn’t get back into the group which she wanted, she fell back and joined hands with Joy to ran a smear campaign slandering the name of Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion. Needless to say, they now completely deny the few reflections and admittances they have done.

One’s their true face is exposed the shame narcissists feel leads to narcissistic injury and the cognitive dissonance is so great that narcissists resort to slandering and maligning the ones who can see behind their carefully crafted masks in order to protect their own fake image and face, even if this is their Ultimate Well-wisher. Sadly, they end up cutting the branch they are sitting on.
 
Have to admit, they played their games well and when the truth came out for a while i was shocked, couldn’t believe had trusted these two individuals. Initially it is very easy to just put all the blame on them and their abuse but i think this too would be a form of bypassing, if i wouldn’t reflect and take responsibility for playing into their hands, missing essential red flags and the wounds, ignorance and unawareness i was and am still carrying. This is discussed quite well in these 2 videos by Melanie Tonia Evans about how to thrive after narcissistic abuse and what you can learn from it.
How i exposed the narcissistic smear campaign: https://youtu.be/k0ojZn13p0w 

& Why narcissists go after lightworkers:  https://youtu.be/XTAZhjnxa7k

Forever grateful to my beloved Sarvopari Paratpar Akshar Mitra Sree Maa Shri Ji for awakening my Atma, for helping me look within and taking off my blinkers, always shining the light of Absolute Truth, for graciously guiding me and showing the supersonic shortcut Home and for the unfathomable Grace of the Quantum Vortex Scalar WavePhoton Pulse, the Swaminarayan Mahamantra. 

P.S.
Please also read the insightful blog by my Kalyan Mitra Jeeya about narcissists doing spiritual bypassing

Joy’s modus operandi: playing the martyr

If there is one thing Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus does well it is to play the victim. Came across an image that i feel describes what Irene/Joy has displayed to the T in the nearly 6 years that i have known her. Have to admit, i fell for the mask for a long time, but no longer.

Playing the martyr and the victim was and still is her number one game. And her best performance came after she was asked to leave Kosmic Fusion….

Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus joined Kosmic Fusion end of 2012. She immediately started volunteering after she did the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop and very soon started taking over the scene, telling others what to do and pointing out other’s mistakes (or what she perceived as their mistake).
This was also the case at the Newcastle expo in August 2013 that was organised by the volunteers themselves, where she would be domineering and push her way irrespective of the efforts or views of others.

i made the mistake of failing to hold my space and heed Sree Maa’s guidance to not form small groups and pulled away from Joy towards another volunteer and played right into Joy’s hands. She used this to play the victim with Clarito, saying that nobody is supporting her. Clarito is a true empath and a gentleman and stepped up to support her. She also claimed her English is not so good to woo Clarito in further and started to manipulate the scene so that she would always end up working together with him, fencing him off from others. She would fill his ears about the others, often pulling the poor me card and always adding in how much she is sacrificing for Kosmic Fusion so that Clarito would be on her side and do her bidding.

She actually had problems with every single one of the other volunteers, but of course it was all their problem, not hers and it was very stressful for poor Joy to have to deal with everyone, but she did it anyway “for the sake of Kosmic Fusion”. This was the story she was telling herself and publicly. Please note, prior to Joy joining the group dynamics were fine, but after she joined it started going downhill fast.

19/09/14, 20:03 - Meera: How are you feeling after last night's call? 💖💖💖

19/09/14, 20:16 - Komal Irene Kuo: Most of the time people have issues with me 😅 Maa said it's competition... had some issues with Elliaa, Siann (even this year mbs Sydney the seminar meditation)  Sheree ...Nat used to have bad attitudes to me... they're okay now. .. but now a little bit with Jabeen. ... 😅 sounds like my problem but not really. ..... maybe they feel I'm threatening to them and react. ...and that affects me. .. but now they know where I'm coming from and know who is the one taking responsibility all the way through
 (Iphigenie was called Meera at that time, Joy was called Komal)

She was always priding herself on her high standard of volunteering and if she corrected others it was only because they would not meet “her high standards”. She was constantly portraying herself to other FiTs as a martyr who was giving up her health (she had high blood pressure), her sleep and time with her son and husband to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion. In reality, she was pursuing her ambition of becoming a famous and wealthy healer – her self-proclaimed example was Marie Forleo - under the guise of a hardworking volunteer and later on devotee. She even made it look like she gave up her job so that she could serve Kosmic Fusion but let us look at the real story here.

She was working at the library at Sydney University. When there was a restructuring, employees could choose to either apply for one of the new jobs available or opt for a retrenchment package (in her case about $50,000). Joy opted for the latter which was her own personal choice, nobody asked her to. All the other volunteers still have a job and happily volunteer in their own time.

You can see a message that she wrote but made Hanuman send to the Sydney FiTs group that clearly illustrates the big martyr’s mask she was wearing. She had fully groomed and brainwashed Clarito/Hanuman by that time so that he had lost sight of what was really going on.

26/10/16, 02:38 - Hanuman: Jai Swaminarayan 🙏 🙏 🙏

Coming together as FIT and we all making history and paving for

Kosmic Fusion and working as One. Wish to clear everything out

before the end of October and be straight forward express my sharing

and feedback on what have been observing of late. As we taking on

more responsibilities and learning as this is our training ground

thus would like to make some awareness to be considerate of other

FITs as we have to think of Kosmic Fusion first.

My observation of Komal, she have always step up and take

responsibilities ever since 2014 when everyone still considering

about volunteering and or have not put their hands up yet like

mySelf,... it was a great training ground and a lots bricks and bats

blessing from SreeMaaShriJi. But through her passion and as she can

be black and white and protective of Kosmic Fusion and being zealous

– and it may come as a bit extremist to others and dislike by

others…

Have witness some of accomplishment Komal have since then and always

try to lead with example and by putting Kosmic Fusion first, even

with the cause of her health. Have witness one time after attending

Kosmic Fusion exhibition event, i have to take her in the hospital

and where she felt dying…. But thanks to SreeMaaShriJi and FITs

sharing of QVSWPP everything went great. There are more occasions i

could share… there are many occasions where there are only few hour

sleep including now, where Kosmic Fusion have to come first even

when Komal’s husband and son who still crave her attention have to

be put aside.

 (…)
Since early 2015 Komal have hired a marketing consultant specialist
in internet and learn what need to be learned to build a website
template in consideration of Practitioner, Kosmic Fusion, and FITs.

Komal have invested $20K+ and also hired an American marketing

consultant and spend a lot of time and efforts to come up with the

write up and marketing materials in her website and flyers. Have

assisted as I could see the bigger picture and make sure that i

could support Kosmic Fusion by supporting Komal. She pain-stackingly

created her website Holistic Freedom with all the consultant at hand

and work on content line by line. Put a lot of pride in her work and

its content.
(Joy was called Komal at the time)

This also mentions what she had actually done with the retrenchment money, contrary to her claims that she spent it on Kosmic Fusion. She hired an internet consultant for $20k+ and also a marketing expert to help with her own website and marketing efforts. Please have a look at her Holistic Freedom Wellness Centre website, do you see any gratitude or mention of Sree Maa Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion? A sample of Joy’s social media messages below (click on it to enlarge it). Can you spot Kosmic Fusion or Sree Maa Shri Ji anywhere? Can see a lot of #Komal and #Hanuman but no gratitude or homage to Sree Maa Shri Ji. 

It is also clear that i was sleeping and had my blinkers on because i did not spot any of this at the time. Now it is very obvious, she is passing off and using Sree Maa’s Teachings for her own monetary gain and claim to fame. Interesting detail: notice the big banner of her and Hanuman in the background. Another interesting detail: Joy manipulated one of the 5D++ Pulsars who is a professional photographer and got him to take pictures of her and Hanuman for free in exchange for a few QVSWPP sessions.

 

Without Sree Maa Shri Ji, we wouldn’t be able to receive the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. It is Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Supreme Bhakti to and union with Sarvopari Swaminarayan Bhagwan, that we most Graciously receive as the QVSWPP. We were Facilitators in Training not Facilitators at all which Joy claimed herself to be. We were only allowed to practice Akashic Records Neutralising sessions, and still very much learning in every which way as Bhakti is not something you can buy off the shelf. Where is the question of commercializing it offering sessions packages? 

5/10/2016, 5:47 pm - Komal: Normally the energy exchange is $150 per session, but we have 3

sessions package $360, 5 sessions package $500 or if you would like to have long term sessions

such as once every few months etc. Then $88 per session

5/10/2016, 5:48 pm - Komal: You can include you and your mum as one package

5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Komal: Or you can try one session first. ... which is $120 we offer special for

the first time

5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Komal: Then you can decide

5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Polly: Hmm ok

5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Polly: Thanks for the details Komal

5/10/2016, 5:50 pm - Polly: How do you count me and my mum as one pkg?

It was Joy’s unbridled ambition for money and fame that drove her to approach Pulsars and innocent people for paid sessions. She baits her victims with a free session or a discounted session and then reels them in further by using marketing techniques like above. And isn’t it ironic that the one person who was struggling with money is offering the abundance circle? Doubt there was any love in her heart for the mission of Kosmic Fusion, which is to take the QVSWPP to as many souls as possible. To her it was a business venture she tried to abuse and make money off it.  

This was of course not how she portrayed it. Her favorite sentence was always she was doing it for Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. She misused the name of Sree Maa Shri Ji at every opportunity. This is also how she managed to manipulate Clarito/Hanuman and his dedication and devotion to Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. She was and is a master at impression management. She would carefully curate her physical appearance, always looking well dressed and with make-up on – you can see her still do the same in her current youtube videos.

She was actually carefully copying Sree Maa’s dressing style, hair style and even the way Sree Maa moves, as if she believed that by copying Sree Maa that way she would become Sree Maa.  She would made it appear to other FiTs that she was very close to Sree Maa Shri Ji and knew what Sree Maa Shri Ji wanted. She also made it appear she had permission for all her business ventures, little did we know this was not the case. 

She would act very soft and nice in front of Sree Maa Shri Ji and in the public view but to the FiTs, especially in Sydney she would act like a bully and a big manipulator.

Joy also displayed double standards. While she was promoting and i quote "Bhakti Bhaav Transmissions" and shamelessly stealing from Kosmic Fusion, she made a big scene when two other FiTS in Sydney printed a Bhakti Bhaav flyer without permission. In fact, she manipulated the whole situation in Sydney setting the other FiTs up and then when the other FiTs reacted she would portray herself as a victim that had to suffer at the hands of the other FiTs who were doing her and Kosmic Fusion wrong (you can read more about it in this blog).

Sharing a sample message of how Joy played the victim at the hands of her fellow FiT, whilst she was the one who was stirring the pot. i was also on the website team and had no problems with Jwala at all.

The Reunion in July 2017 was an opportunity for all of us to truly reflect, honestly look how we had contributed to the failure of the FiT Programme and to sort out any issues amongst us. Joy did nothing of the sorts, she did nothing but blame shifting and pointing fingers, of course in the style she knows best: by playing the victim. This time she was a victim of Clarito/Hanuman, the very person whom she had manipulated and exploited financially, mentally and emotionally for years. Shortly after the Reunion her mask fell off completely. As she was still not willing to be honest and admit to all that she has done, she was kindly asked to leave end of 2017. She did briefly reflect on her actions by the Grace and supreme empathy of beloved Sree Maa who had awakened the voice of conscience in her, but somehow fell back into victim mode big time.

After she left is when she planned her best Oscar material performance till date, because narcissists cannot stand their true face being exposed. They will go to extreme lengths to protect their fake face, and their favourite tactic to do so is: a smear campaign.

She first removed her name from the company and businesses she had set up with Hanuman without informing him, leaving him with all the debts. Debts the company had racked up due to her unbridled ambitions. She then changed all the passwords to the joint email accounts she had with Hanuman.

Her and Iphigenie Amoutzias, another narcissists who was asked to leave Kosmic Fusion, joined hands and started a smear campaign.

They blatantly lied to some cult watch organization and to the two so-called investigative journalists who failed to investigate and were used as flying monkeys in an article to slander the name and character of beloved Sree Maa and Shri Ji, claiming that Kosmic Fusion is a cult. Narcs can act very convincingly mimicking emotions and these two are very good at their game, i was fooled for years. However, the whole article doesn’t hold up to the truth at all. Each one of the FiTs have written extensively about the bias, the many incorrect facts and absolute lies in the paid smear campaign article. This picture captures and sums it up it perfectly what they have done:

Joy is now portraying herself as a person who was completely broken down in a cult and exploited and abused by cult leaders but then miraculously with the help of her loving husband and cult watch people was able to rise and find herself again. Let me check, do the above pictures and anything shared so far in my blog looks like she was beaten down or exploited? Not at all, quite the opposite. This is exactly what narcissists do, they switch everything around and make themselves look like the victim and the real victim like the perpetrator. If there was anyone who was domineering, controlling and after money and power, it was Joy.

It was her who had breached Sree Maa’s trust and stabbed Sree Maa Shri Ji in the back but after her true face came out lo and behold she is telling lies and making it look like the other way around.

Sree Maa had given us a beautiful platform to volunteer, never ever was there any control. Sree Maa always led by example and trained everyone to be a leader themselves, to take responsibility for one’s own actions, work with integrity, honesty and authenticity and move towards embodying one’s highest potential, the Brahmrup. Sree Maa had graced us with and countless beautiful Discourses explaining in English the most precious spiritual teachings from renowned scriptures like the Sreemad Bhagwad Gita, Purans, Vedas and everything Sree Maa has taught was in line with the Vachanamrut, the most respected spiritual scripture in the Swaminarayan Sampraday where the words that Swaminarayan Bhagwan spoke about 200 years ago have been written down, Sree Maa’s isht-Bhagwan. This is studied and followed by MILLIONS of Swaminarayan Satsangis around the world.

Sree Maa is the living embodiment of Grace and Compassion, giving everyone who came a chance to move beyond their small self into their Brahmrup, including Joy and Iphigenie as Sree Maa looks only at one’s Atma and sees Bhagwan sitting within the Atma. Where in the world does even the question of this being a cult come in? Only in the head of a narcissists who projects their wrong-doings onto their victims.

Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus then started a youtube channel, cleverly making use of a famous singer called Dimash so that she could benefit of people who like his music and would look for it online. She had reinvented herself (read: put on a new mask) as a spiritual adviser with 10 years of experience. She also bought 8000 fake followers for her youtube channel to make it look like she is popular and knows what she is talking about, guess she has learned a few tricks from the internet consultant she hired. She then starts up a FB group called “Awakening with Joy”, adding random people to her group where she is presenting herself as a a spiritual adviser who is helping people to “raise their vibration for a better new earth living”, but in reality is preying on innocent victims as her next narcissistic supply for sympathy, attention and money. If you look at the conditions of this Facebook group, you will see that members are not allowed to share posts offering their services, only Joy can offer hers… Does anyone smell a rat here?

This is a person who has shown no remorse, no empathy and no integrity in all the 6 years that i have known her. Who has lied and back-stabbed her ultimate well-wisher who had welcomed her with open arms and given her every chance. She is after attention, after money and fame. She is a fantastic actress, but if you hang around her long enough, you will see her for who she truly is.

P.S. Sharing this to stand up for the truth because silence is not ok