Tuesday, 25 September 2018

Commitment to transformation

Sree Maa has worked tirelessly and graciously with a small group of us in the Facilitator in Training (FiT) Programme gracing us with an opportunity to be of service to the mission of Kosmic Fusion to spread the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse to the world.

Sree Maa Shri Ji, being the living embodiment of Grace and Compassion, welcomed everyone with open arms no matter their background, culture, religion or issues as Sree Maa sees the Divine spark, the potential of the Absolute in everyone.

As part of the FiT intake Ceremony, all of us wrote letters to Sree Maa Shri Ji why we felt ready to become a Facilitator and how we were going to serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion. Irene/Joy Awakening and Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias also wrote their letters and read them out loud.

Some of the FIT came with severe issues but Sree Maa never rejected anyone. These are patterns and issues of the personality (small/dark/shadow/ego self) which have nothing to do with the True SELF and can be overcome, provided someone is committed to transformation.

As it turned out there were quite a number of FiT who had NPD in the group. Narcissists are draw to empathetic and compassionate people and Sree Maa Shri Ji, being the epitome of Compassion and Kindness, is like the jackpot for them.

Sree Maa has always beautifully spoken about the True SELF/Brahmroop, our highest potential, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse and the golden rule to step back and be the non-doer.

In countless precious Discourses Sree Maa has explained about the incarnational soul (self), True Soul (Self) and True SELF (Brahmroop) and how to transcend the small self and move into the Brahmroop. Sree Maa broke everything down in simple English, showering so much True Knowledge and Absolute Truth for us to absorb and put into practice, knowledge that would normally take lifetimes to even find.

It has always been clear from the start that Awakenin Transformation Transcendence is a P.R.O.C.E.S.S, that one has to commit to. It doesn’t happen overnight. It takes discipline, consistency and most of all surrender and humility.

Honesty, integrity, authenticity and transparency were the core principles of the FiT Training and Sree Maa always led by example. We have written many letters from self to Self to SELF and SELF to Self to self to help us reflect and move into our higher potential. So many unfathomable Blessings were bestowed by Sree Maa Shri Ji to make it easier for us, where Sree Maa and Shri Ji even took the processing of energies onto their bodies for us. Such selflessness and ultimate Compassion.

And when the whole world shuns people with Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD), Sree Maa Shri Ji took them under their Wings and gave every opportunity and non-stop support to help them identify, accept and work on their shadow self. Everything was always done is a safe, open and transparent manner through voice dialoging and enlightening Discourses. This is especially important for narcissists as normally pretence, lying and playing the victim are very pronounced in people with NPD and it would be too easy for them to fall back into those patterns.

Sree Maa literally gave of herself 24/7 to support Jeeya and Nandini in their P.R.O.C.E.S.S after it came out they had narcissistic tendencies and imparted many powerful Discourses that were not just for them but for all of us to support us in our awakening and transformation. During all this time, Dallia/Iphigenie and Irene/Joy never came forth to speak honestly that they were experiencing similar issues, instead they continued to hide and play their games.

In fact, Iphigenie made sure to gaslight and stir the pot between Nandini and Jeeya so that the spotlight remained on them and she could operate under the radar. Irene/Joy Awakening did the exact same thing by creating a big scene around two of the FiTs in Sydney about them printing a Bhakti Bhaav brochure that had not been approved whereas she was doing much worse, all behinds everyone’s back. She was steadfast working on her plan to move everyone out including Sree Maa Shri Ji and take Kosmic Fusion over instead of her transformation.

In May 2017, after her mask had fallen off, Dallia/Iphigenie was voted out by all FiT and she had to leave as the others were scared of her malignancy, even her own enablers like Gillian and Renee had experienced malevolent psychic attacks at her hand.

She would also strip naked to scare Jeeya and purposely leave the door open of the bathroom as that bathroom being in the games room was close to the passage which Shri Ji used to get his car. All was done with a malignant agenda to scare off others by acting crazy all of a sudden and provoke everyone to point fingers at Sree Maa.

Regarding Irene/Joy, no one wanted to be around her as her betrayal was way to malicious. She was asked to resign. She assured that she would admit to what she had done in order to avoid legal implications, as she knew she had done much wrong, but she kept playing games and then joined hands with Dallia in November 2017 and started to play the same game that Dallia/Iphigenie played to implicate Sree Maa for her feeling vulnerable and wanting to kill herself. These are malignant Narcissists and will do anything to hurt others...

Sree Maa has only given unconditional acceptance and compassion and endless support to Dallia/Ipigenie and Irene/Joy, which they kept misusing and misusing. They had such a beautiful opportunity to shift but they chose to hold on to their greed for narcissistic supply and their vicious intentions of sabotage and stealing.

People can only be helped if they want to be helped. Eventually Sree Maa had to let go of Irene/Joy and Dallia/Iphigenie, as when it came to honouring their own Self they chose to stay wrapped in the blanket of the small self.

Jeeya and Nandini on the other hand really wanted to change and they have shown great strength and commitment to their P.R.O.C.E.S.S and their transformation is an inspiration to behold, all by the amazing Grace and selfless support of beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji.

Sunday, 23 September 2018

Non-doer in practice

2014 was a year of change for me and one where trust grew. At the Guidance of Sree Maa Shri Ji, end of January 2014 i moved from Sydney back to the Netherlands. Actually, Sree Maa had already been hinting that Australia was not the place for me, i would only encounter endless karmic challenges, but i didn’t like the idea of moving back to the Netherlands. Sunny, tropical Australia was much more appealing to my ego.  

Eventually after Sree Maa graciously mentioned it two more times, i went together with my daughter back to my parents' house, my ego came along kicking and screaming. And through the unfathomable Grace of Bhagwan, my child’s father let us go. Also feel it is the Shakti of Bhagwan only that i actually made the move. 

Would also like to take a moment to offer my gratitude to my Kalyan Mitra, dear Archita, who kindly let my daughter and me stay at her place in Dubai on the stop-over halfway to Europe. Her deep Faith and beautiful presence somehow calmed me down and moved me more into the mode of acceptance. 

Cannot say the first few months were easy, but this was only the experience of the personality, on a deeper level surrender had taken place and my Soul could begin to blossom.

So yes, back in my parent’s house at the age of 40, with a 4 hour commute each day to and from work. Now my mind would make one thing of it, but something deeper would stir and actually those train journeys i took the time to tune in with the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) and reflect. This was exactly what i needed. The job had miraculously fallen into my lap despite the fact that i had not lived in the Netherlands for over 8 years and there were 300 applications for that position. There were many more examples in that time that would show how powerfully the QVSWPP can manifest what is needed, as long as we remain step back.

Let me share some exercises (one highlighted below) that i did at the Guidance of Sree Maa Shri Ji in one of the many Facilitators in Training calls Sree Maa Graced us with, completely for free. The force i am talking about is the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the beautiful Grace that when we step back, are real and honest with ourselves and TRUST will work ITs magic.

Started feeling uncomfortable after my mum mentioned her vision/advice for my future, 'find a cheap old rental in Den Helder' (a town in the far corners of NL) 'sth you can afford when you can't find a job again when you are on a pension again after this maternity leave position ends'. This hit an ego sore spot.... This brought up feelings of doubt, resentment over my decision to come to the Netherlands, feeling even more stuck and trapped. So when I sat down very late in the evening that day and recalled this moment, felt contracted at the heart, heavy, sad anger, frustration came up. At some point started to lean and slouch forward so sad. Started feeling dizzy in the head, slight pressure at temples. I just let it be. After a while started feeling very very sleepy. I lay down in a child's pose position and then feel asleep...

That morning woke up and first sat in receptive mode for 11 minutes. Then I tuned in again to the moment of the previous day and still noticed a cocktail of sadness, despair, anger, heaviness in my heart area and in the energy field around my heart. Again I just let it all be. The mind wanted to race and loop in it's sorry thoughts but there was an unmistakenly powerful 'invisible force' (best way I can describe) that instantly with a calming soothing effect made everything feel spacious and still in the mind, melting away the thoughts & upsetting emotions. Then Faith & Trust came back. I felt peaceful again.
It feels actually very freeing to not get sucked into the small self’s drama. Sree Maa once described the ego as follows: a drunken monkey with its tail on fire bitten by a scorpion. Think that’s sums it up quite well. And that is part of the P.R.O.C.E.S.S., to keep the ego in check.

In my Soul Mapping session in 2013, Sree Maa Shri Ji had given a certain Guidance that really touched my heart: “embrace everything that happens with love and grace”. And this would come back to me a lot in this year, especially when i encountered more difficult situations. Now i know that a true Aashrit/Devotee sees and understands everything that happens as a GIFT of Bhagwan only. Slowly, was moving into this understanding.  

2014 was also the practical training ground for the FiT Programme, where we helped organize a lot of online events and Awakenin Transformation workshops, which Sree Maa Shri Ji would always conduct. We were lucky enough to be able to join those workshops as part of the Training but would always log out for the 0 zero session, where Sree Maa Shri Ji removed the dense obsolete 3D/4D Grids of the participants.

Now this wasn’t so much about organizing, as it was about learning to remain stepped back and being the non-doer, letting the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse weave IT’s miracles. This seems simple but actually requires constant awareness and practice as the doer will step in. Sree Maa was always emphasizing to work as a team, work in oneness, and through many training calls and Discourses was giving everything to support this, but not all made the effort to honour this. 

Some in the FiT group did not make an effort to step back, instead they were constantly meddling. We were all supposed to rotate with helping out online but Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias would try to hog all the online events for herself, pushing other FiTs to the background. This was around the same time where she was sowing seeds of doubts during the meditation evenings and Kosmic Tribes. She was making sure the unity would not happen. Same goes for Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy who was acting like the boss in Sydney, creating hierarchy and pushing away volunteers with her bullying.

But at the time i was still sleeping and unaware of this sabotage going on…

Removal of ignorance

Since Sree Maa Shri Ji came into my life early 2012, there have been so many profound experiences and moments, would not be possible to write them all down. i know in my heart of hearts that where i am today in my P.R.O.C.E.S.S of Awakenin Transformation Transcendence is all only because of the Grace, Kindness, Blessing and Shelter of Sree Maa, my beloved Paratpar Guru.

As i am born and raised in Europe in a white atheist household, really didn’t have a clue what Guru meant. There were many things i was completely ignorant about, even simple energy hygiene protocols, but Sree Maa has patiently and lovingly worked with me in a way i could understand, opening me up to true knowledge and a greater understanding of Absolute Truth including the purpose of human life – helping remove layers of agyan and avidya (ignorance). There is nothing more fortunate that a Guru-disciple relationship for any genuine seeker and quite frankly the depth of this i am only just beginning to understand, but energetically have felt it for a longer time.  

Throughout the years, Sree Maa has played the role of my Teacher, my Friend, my Guide, my Philosopher, my Benefactor, my Guru. Complex scriptural knowledge from the ancient scriptures, Sree Maa would explain in simple English with examples and analogies of the ‘modern world’ and a great sense of humour. Any question we had, we could ask. Sree Maa would give us a voice in the volunteering, listening to our inputs. When Sree Maa knew i was struggling financially in Sydney, while we were at the expo in Sydney CBD Sree Maa took me to buy a beautiful skirt. Still have that skirt
馃槉 Always always, Sree Maa Shri Ji has been available to us.

Sree Maa sees only the potential of the Absolute in everyone, the Atma (True Soul), that which has been created by the Absolute and belongs to the Absolute, Swaminarayan Bhagwan only and accepts all with open arms, no matter their background, culture, religion, the densities or issues they may carry. Truly the glorious living embodiment of Grace, Compassion and Kindness.

How beautifully Sree Maa worked with me so that my Faith in Bhagwan could grow and the bond with Sree Maa could develop. In a letter in 2014 i wrote about it as:
I am forever grateful to Sree Maa and Shree Ji for being the living TRUTH and LOVE and restoring my Faith in LOVE. Their embracing this lost sheep with such GRACE truly shows the Benevolance of GOD.

Sree Maa also guided me in an experiential way to understand that a true Guru, someone who truly cares for your Soul (Atma), points out the obstacles to your Soul’s liberation and fusion with Bhagwan so that you can honestly look at it and let go, be they inner enemies (like lust, greed, jealousy etc.), faulty beliefs, habits or whatever layers of the small/false/dark/ego self.

As i have written before, this took me a little while to accept with love and grace my ego did not like feedback, but now i feel so grateful. It is not through judging others or ourselves that we can shed the layers, but through the gates of honesty and acceptance and taking responsibility we can awaken, transform and transcend beyond the small/false/dark/ego self into our True SELF who is always in seva and surrender to the One and Only One. For further inspiration please also read Vachanamrut Gadhada Madhya 37.4.

Sharing a beautiful post Sree Maa recently shared on Facebook:

In my P.R.O.C.E.S.S (and yes, it is a P.R.O.C.E.S.S, no magic pill here), there have been a number of watershed moments apart from the Awakenin Transformation workshop itself of course. One such moment was the Transcendence in 2013 in Sydney. Transcendence workshop is a profound Blessing with a lot to it, but one aspect is that Sree Maa Shri Ji Graces the ones present with the clearing of entities in the organs. A small description from Sree Maa here:

"Most parasites that feel like negative elements and entities trying to control our the entities in your organs .
We do clear entities in the organs in the TranScEndeNcE Sessions which is by invitation only.
To be honest out of the 16 people who were invited to attend the TranScEndeNcE Initiations -activations and transmissions only a handful have been able to truly step back.
The EGO really is the most malevolent Entity that which appears to be foreign but is the person's who consciousness fragments attacking themselves.

Key point to note is that the basis for Transcendence is stepping back, being the non-doer.
i can best share what happened during the 2 Transcendence workshop days, where some demonic energies sitting in my womb were released, through sharing the testimonial i wrote about it a year later in 2014. 

First of all I would like to express my deepest gratitude to Sree Maa and Shree Ji for all the GRACE and LOVE and Guidance I have received. I can't say this enough!
It was on Wesak 2013, the day before the TrAnScEnDeNcE Workshop, where we were gathered for a special Initiation and at some point while Maa was guiding us through an experiential exercise/meditation my belly began swelling up like I was instantly 9 months pregnant. I remember Maa inviting me to sit with her and to release whatever was in my womb. I still get tears in my eyes when I think about this, there was something extremely humbling to sit so close to Maa on her lap. She helped me breathe like a woman does when she is giving birth, it took a lot of breaths and considerable pushing. Guess there was some resistance within me to let go.
There were 3 dark entities in my womb if I remember correctly. I had an abortion the year before and there was also an energy of a miscarriage and something related to my current child. This is just to illustrate the amazing Grace that has blessed me and this has indeed been one of the most life-changing moments in my life. Without Sree Maa and Shree Ji's assistance I would not have been able to release it. Afterwards I lay down in a corner, while the other pulsars continued with the meditation. Shree Ji put his hand over my head, and I could still feel them there for a long time even though he had moved to another part of the room. The unconditional LOVE I was touched with that day is beyond words. The response of the other Pulsars afterwards was powerful too. They could immediately see the difference. They said something like 'you're back/welcome back'. I felt infinitely lighter and more spacious, like some things that had been draining the light within me had finally been released. 

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Sree Maa Shri Ji has explained that ultimately Transcendence can be a by-product of Transformation if one genuinely commits to transformation. All too often Transcendence is what spiritual seekers instantly strive for, but without wanting to do the ‘real work’. Forever grateful to Sree Maa Shri Ji for taking me under Sree Maa’s Wing, sharing the Absolute Truth and nothing but the Absolute Truth and holding my hand on this pathless path.

Would like to conclude with a beautiful chant played during the May/June 2015 Kawai Pura Pura Retreat in New Zealand, where i received the silent Guru mantra during the magnificent Transcendence Workshop there, humbly taking Sree Maa officially as my Guru but will write about this in another blog.

"Gurur Brahma Gurur Vishnu Gurur Devo  Maheshwaraha  Guru Saakshat ParaBrahma Tasma
ya Shri Guruve Namaha." 
Meaning Guru is verily the representative of Brahma, Vishnu ,Shiv. He creates, sustains Knowledge and destroy the weeds of Ignorance. I salute such a Guru.

P.S. This blog is intended to openly share my experience of my blessed spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion that it may inspire others. My apologies it is not in sequential order, jumping back and forth in years, but as the reflections come to me currently in hindsight.

Friday, 21 September 2018

The Benevolence of QVSWPP and how the narcissists tried to exploit that

Was profoundly touched reading one of the Pulsars beautiful sharing on Facebook about the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse the other day.

No words would ever suffice to adequately offer my gratitude to Sree Maa Shri Ji and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the Swaminarayan Mahamantra, the Ultimate Grace of the Ultimate Benefactor, the most dayalu and paramkrupalu One and Only One. The Supreme Grace that makes sure the parcel (Atma) gets delivered back to its Creator and Owner, the Supreme Almighty.

It’s so grand and so boundless, could never fathom ITs Divinity and Glory but being touched and embraced by the QVSWPP is a most mindblowing, amazing and profound experience – each and every time, all the time. 

How effortlessly it touches and embraces us, you don't need to do anything, no intention, no invocation, no nothing. Tuning in or rather letting IT tune in with me, always feel uplifted, calmer, clearer and so much bliss. All we have to do is step back and let the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse step in. That is the only condition Sree Maa has given.

Have been humbled time and again witnessing and hearing how profoundly the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse touches everyone, on stands at expos, during Kosmic meetups etc. or even in everyday life. Being all-powerful, ever present, supremely all-knowing It knows exactly what each one needs on all levels, in all dimensions, spontaneous healing is a by-product. One is graced with effortless soul upgrade and upliftment.

It has also been demonstrated time and again that when two people tune in, the QVSWPP tunes in with both of them, even if one of them is a hypocrite... IT is utmost kind and merciful and only looks at the Zero-Point inside everyone, not your nature or the personality at all. This nuance that even if only one person tunes in, both people receive IT was used as a loophole by the wolves in sheep clothing that sat amongst us in the FiT Programme. 

While some of the FiTS were tuning in genuinely with the QVSWPP, those FiTs with hidden selfish even vicious agendas of stealing and sabotaging, they could experience IT as well even when they never stepped back. That is why these narcissists were growing into the FiT programme as they knew that the QVSWPP does not reject anyone or anything.

And that is why Irene/Tzu-Ling/Joy Awakening (as she calls herself now, oh the irony) had staked a claim on Clarito Parsons and carefully groomed him and made sure he joined her on all the events, workshops and meditation meetups she organized and hosted. Irene remained stepped in (as narcissists like to have the control) and used Clarito to step out.

Yet can you lie in front of the Supreme Signature of the Shunya Bindu, the Mother of all Energies, Frequencies and Vibrations and get anywhere with it? Of course not. You stand naked in front of IT as IT is All-knowing. 

And that is why the FiTs who were genuine were protected and even though in the FiT Programme from the 18 FiTs, 6 of them turned out to have NPD, the rest of us did not endure the trauma to an extent that a victim of covert malignant narcissists would normally experience. All by the Grace and Protection of Sree Maa Shri Ji and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse.

Such is the Mahima and Glory of the QVSWPP, the Mother of All Energies, Frequencies and Vibrations. 
Please read the beautiful blog by my Kalyan Mitra Hanuman who describes in detail how the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse protected him from the narcissistic energy vampires. 

My deepest gratitude to beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji who are unconditionally and boundlessly sharing the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse with all through Sree Maa’s Supreme Bhakti to Bhagwan Swaminarayan. Sada Aapki Abhaari Rahungi Sree Maa Shri Ji 
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How i met beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji

How i met beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion

This channel is dedicated to my Paratpar Guru beloved Sree Maa who has taken me under Sree Maa's Wing and is graciously guiding me and holding my hand on the pathless path Home. Sree Maa boundlessly shares the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the Swaminarayan Mahamantra with everyone, that which uplifts and upgrades souls effortlessly. Here am humbly sharing about my journey with Kosmic Fusion where i encountered genuine seekers and those with hidden agendas (narcissists). You can read more on my blog: http://kosmicfusionmusings.blogspot.com Please also visit https://www.kosmicfusion.com/ and https://www.sreemaa.com/ as well as beloved Sree Maa's most enlightening Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/SreeMaaDhyanUrvi

Tuesday, 11 September 2018

Sick with envy part 3 & why narcissist are drawn to empaths

Sree Maa Shri Ji are the epitome of Compassion and Grace and believe in the potential of the Absolute in everyone. Sree Maa lovingly and graciously welcomed anyone to the FiT Programme who wrote a letter to Sree Maa Shri Ji expressing how they were ready and willing to volunteer and serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion - to share the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) with as many souls as possible. Sree Maa supported all of the FiTs tirelessly no matter their issues to move into embodying our Brahmroop. Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias too wrote a letter, but in truth she was on a whole other mission.  

Dallia/Iphigenie kept asking for a group in New Zealand after seeing the buzz in Australia where a group of volunteers was very active. Sree Maa Shri Ji therefore did a few events in New Zealand and personally did a few intro evenings and the 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop in October 2013 and Jan 2014 but after seeing Iphigenie's pathological behaviour didn't personally appear anywhere in NZ events. Therefore in a way Sree Maa Shri Ji are supremely gracious to let her realize that her envious and jealous nature's need to destroy will only get onto her demerits accounts. 

From the time Iphigenie was presenting herself as the face of Kosmic Fusion in NZ, the number of participants attending the meetings reduced drastically: from about 25 before she took on the leading role to approx. only  3-4 participants were regularly showing up. She was cunningly driven away all the 5D++ Pulsars and Auckland Meet Up participants by spreading rumours that Kosmic Fusion was a “cult” and by isolating all participants from Sree Maa Shri Ji. Iphigenie even tried to turn the Meetups into a pick-up place, as she would regularly show up with inappropriate clothing and try to flirt with all the male participants. She was also misrepresenting the key philosophies of Kosmic Fusion - she would call Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse the “Source Energy”, which was a term made up and used by her. All the people who had joined through Sree Maa's efforts and the group she was given, she made sure to destroy it. Her now claiming and acting like she is a victim actually proves she is beyond psychopath. 

Spreading her poison as much as possible

She was creating havoc within the New Zealand team, in a way only a malignant narcissist knows how to with triangulations, gaslighting and psychic warfare. Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias was twisting Sree Maa Shri Ji’s words constantly when talking to participants and 5D++ Pulsars. For example, Iphigenie had told Sarala that “QVSWPP would protect you 24/7” when Sree Maa Shri Ji had clearly said “QVSWPP would be with you 24/7”. Iphigenie statements created some miscommunications with Sarala, however Sarala still joined the FiT training in May 2015. Iphigenie was clearly not happy about this, as she went around telling other NZ 5D++ Pulsars and FiT that Sarala had a “dark and dense” energy in her house, and letting everyone know that Sarala had a birthday party but “no one turned up for it”, Iphigenie had made sure of that. Sarala’s relationships and communications with the other NZ FiT were slowly getting severed through Iphigenie's meddling and eventually she left.

Early 2016, the Ashram Project was set up by two NZ FiT, Nandini and Jeeya. It was a trial to see what it would take to run an Ashram based on the Vision Sree Maa had shared about a physical place where people could come and have spontaneous realization of themselves and their Atma. Sree Maa had graciously agreed to support the initiative and to move into the Ashram. As soon as Iphigenie heard about it, she immediately began showing signs of jealousy and looked upset as was unable to accept that the Ashram Project had been established without her involvement.

In November 2016, Iphigenie moved into the Ashram after inviting herself to join, she literally planted herself in the Ashram using Jeeya even though she had received most loving guidance from Sree Maa that she was not yet ready. Only after she sorts out her jealousy issues and is debt free would she be ready. Still she forced her way into the Ashram. Please read the 
Gracious message from Sree Maa sent to Dallia/Iphigenie/Meera, which she told nobody about and completely ignored...

Immediately after Iphigenie moved into the Ashram, she started to create fights between Nandini and Jeeya, creating distress in the Ashram Project. Iphigenie was also trying to break Jeeya’s self-confidence and self-esteem by putting Jeeya down, lecturing Jeeya for not being organised, correcting Jeeya’s every Seva and making Jeeya feel confused all the time. Gaslighting this is called. Iphigenie was playing with Jeeya’s guilt and kept asking Jeeya, “why are you still around? Why don’t you go back to Singapore” and even saying things like “if I am Sree Maa Shri Ji, I would not have you around” just to implicate Sree Maa Shri Ji. Iphigenie would purposely ruin Sree Maa’s clothing in the laundry and not wash and rinse the brass plates after using the toxic brass polish. Items including jewellery disappeared while Iphigenie was in the Ashram, just to name a few things. 

Iphigenie has received countless chances to change and much much guidance and support. Sree Maa had even graced her with the precious name Meera, the name of a humble and renowned devotee of Lord Krishna, to help her move past her old self but Iphigenie never let go of her vicious intentions and never worked to overcome her deep-rooted issues. Instead she worked hard to cause problems in the FiT group and sowed seeds of doubts everywhere. Narcissists are masters at this and they do so in a very insidious fashion. It is only in hindsight that for me the picture is clear after everything came out. Iphigenie was a true snake in the grass, slowly and surely spreading her poison into everyone, causing disruption, fights amongst the NZ FiTs and harassment to Sree Maa.

Why was Iphigenie so obsessed with Sree Maa? Narcissists are drawn to empathetic people. Narcissists know those people have a conscience and will go over and above themselves and if need come sacrifice their own peace to uplift them. The reason why Sree Maa was selected by Iphigenie, Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Awakening (as she calls herself now) and various other narcissists is because they all knew that Sree Maa will help until the end and they can get away with their tantrums or drama or whatever games they are playing. Sree Maa was surrounded by narcissists in the Ashram House but being the most empathetic and kind Sree Maa would allow the abuse to happen and constantly guide them to help them move beyond their issues. This is true selflessness. And absolute greatness.

You can hear in this audio clip how beautifully Sree Maa Shri Ji is giving a discourse to Iphigenie about envy and that it is important to overcome this dynamic energy within. Sree Maa gently mentions the example of someone manipulating fellow students to make sure they don't go to the campus party, to help Iphigenie reflect on what she had done to Sarala (see above). 

However, Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias did absolutely nothing to change, quite the opposite and eventually the rest of the FiTs voted her out (see also this public statement). She had not come for her Soul, her sole intention was to destroy as her jealousy and envy completely consumed her. You can hear her own admittance to this in this blog by one of my Kalyan Mitras.

Read Sick with Envy part 1 and Sick with envy part 2


This blog is only intended to openly share about my spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme in particular, where some who joined turned out to be frauds and meddlers. This is not in judgement but in discernment, as i have learned that in my failure to remain aware and discern i have enabled those with vicious agendas and toxic behaviours and this doesn't serve any soul. And unfortunately, narcissists will be drawn to spiritual circles in particular as usually they can find a huge unsuspecting narcissistic supply of compassionate and empathetic people there. 

Sick with envy part 2

i first met Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias at an expo at the Gold Coast early 2013. She was asking a lot of questions sussing out information and seemed to like to show off what she had learnt so far. At that time Sree Maa (as well as Shri Ji at times) were regularly travelling to Australia to participate in expos and doing online workshops/trainings. All expos, and promotional material were entirely paid for by Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji and we as volunteers were very blessed to be involved. Iphigenie who lived in NZ always wanted to know what was going on in Australia. In January of 2013, she convinced Sree Maa that she would also like to volunteer like other volunteers in Sydney, and that’s how she joined the Gold Coast expo. 

Sree Maa had created a beautiful group dynamics within the Sydney volunteers, where everyone was given the freedom to express ideas on how to grow Kosmic Fusion and everybody had a voice. Sree Maa gave everyone equal freedom. Iphigenie saw this when she volunteered in Gold Coast, and for someone like her, this was something she recognised she was unable to create herself and therefore decided to destroy the group dynamics instead, as she admitted later on during the Reunion Retreat in July 2017.

This is also where Iphigenie (then called Meera) met Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy Kuo and since then these two have been communicating and discussing via whatsapp, they were mostly gossiping about other FiTs. It’s obvious from their conversations they both were riddled with envy and jealousy and anyone they perceived as better than them and they couldn’t use as their supply had to be removed.

You can see the manipulations and bullying in the email that Iphigenie sent to Sheree who had been a very dependable and dedicated volunteer in Sydney who always demonstrated integrity and authenticity with a profound understanding of the Gift of Grace, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that Sree Maa Shri Ji were sharing with the world. It was clear she was jealous of Sheree and did not want her to join the FiT Programme. Do you think a normal, sincere person would send others emails with an aggressive tone like this or this? Surely not. 

In fact, these are signs to look out for. Narcissists, especially the covert malignant kind, lack empathy and conscience and even though they are great actors and can mimick emotions, the genuine touch will lack and there will be just something off or clearly off as in this case. It is only in hindsight that i can now see the signs in Iphigenie and Irene/Joy's body language, their choice of words (a lot of i i i, and you you you when they want to accuse for example), their facial expressions and just the feeling i would get. Will go into this in more detail another time. My Kalyan Mitra Hanuman has written an apt blog about how the eyes never lie. 

Most interesting to note are the whatsapp conversations (full of gossip mongering) Iphigenie and Irene were having about Sheree and Jabeen and the emails Iphigenie was sending, where you can actually see their God complex, their grandiosity and jealousy. And now these two are crying wolf and saying they are the victim? That doesn't make sense at all to me.

Interesting to note too that in the whatsapp conversations you can also see Iphigenie targeting Irene by subtly provoking her by saying how difficult Sree Maa is and Sree Maa’s words are so hurtful so that she would leave as according to Iphigenie at that time, Irene was contributing and leading so many tasks. Iphigenie was jealous of Irene too. Narcissists spare no one, not even other narcissists. 

Would also like to highlight this part in their whatsapp conversation where both Iphigenie (she was called Meera at the time) and Irene tried to edge Sree Maa Shri Ji, who are the very BRINGER of the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) out. They want to use to QVSWPP but can't bear to give credit to the one who brings this Gift of Grace onto the planet... See also my blog about how narcissists tried to use the QVSWPP.

23/09/14, 21:43 - Meera: Just don't know what to say...
Thank you 
23/09/14, 21:46 - Meera: She talks about her and Suniel lifting the frequency.  How did you say that,  please?
23/09/14, 21:47 - Meera: Did you say they will lift it remotely?  Or did you keep it neutral and say the QVSWPP will do it?
23/09/14, 22:06 - Komal Irene Kuo: I would say Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse 

Read Sick with envy part 1
Continue to Sick with envy part 3

This blog is only intended to openly share about my spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme in particular, where some who joined turned out to be frauds and meddlers. This is not in judgement but in discernment, as i have learned that in my failure to remain aware and discern i have enabled those with vicious agendas and toxic behaviours and this doesn't serve any soul. And unfortunately, narcissists will be drawn to spiritual circles in particular as they can find a huge unsuspecting narcissistic supply of compassionate and empathetic people there. 

Monday, 10 September 2018

Sick with envy part 1

On the spiritual path one may encounter obstacles; antarshatrus (inner enemies) are part of one’s prarabdh (that portion of the sanchit - collection of past life karmas - that influences you in your present incarnation) which will come up as one progresses through one’s karmas and moves closer to the One and Only One. These inner enemies must be defeated in order to move forward on your spiritual path and attain liberation. It’s important to address these as they can be an impediment to your spiritual growth and in the FiT Programme looking at the kusang within, the dark shades within was imperative. Sree Maa lovingly explains this as follows:

The antar-shatru (inner-enemies) include k茫m (lust), krodh (anger), lobh (greed), moh (uncontrolled fascination about something), m茫n (pride), irshy茫 (envy or jealousy), mad (arrogance), matsar (vanity), 茫sh茫 (an intense hope for someone or sth), trushn茫 (desire or yearning for things or someone) and ahank茫r (self pride).

Any genuine spiritual seeker would work hard to eradicate these inner enemies through honest reflection, introspection and applying thought processes. 
In Vachanamrut 15 Gadhada Madya Prakran (p 470) and 4 Gadhada Pratham Prakran (p 25), Shreeji Maharaj explains beautifully how one can tackle such nature and Sree Maa has always graciously guided and supported us non-stop to move past the small/dark/false self into the True SELF,  BrahmroopBut not all who join spiritual circles are genuine as it became clear.

Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias, one of the Facilitators in Training (FiT), was overcome by jealousy and envy, in fact by pathological jealousy and envy. She could not stand that others had something she couldn’t have. She was extremely jealous and envious of Sree Maa Shri Ji. Straight from when she met Sree Maa she was keeping a hawk’s eye on what all Sree Maa had and wanted to have what Sree Maa had. If you look at the criteria of people with NPD, jealousy & envy are one of the 9 key criteria, well explained in this interview with NPD-expert Christine Louis de Cannonville https://youtu.be/7RkICmjDNJU  (see 32:30 minutes). Can highly recommend you listen to it.

She not only wanted what Sree Maa had, but also copied what other FiTs had, the clothes Nandini was wearing, the car Simran had etc.. When narcissists can’t have something, they will destroy it. This was Iphigenie's main obsession and mission, she was hellbent on destruction. So jealous and envious of Sree Maa Shri Ji that once she confided in one of the Bhagats that she could not stand to see Sree Maa Shri Ji’s face. 

Continue to read Sick with envy part 2


This blog is only intended to openly share about my spiritual journey with Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme in particular, where some who joined turned out to be frauds and meddlers. This is not in judgement but in discernment, as i have learned that in my failure to remain aware and discern i have enabled those with vicious agendas and toxic behaviours and this doesn't serve any soul. And unfortunately, narcissists will be drawn to spiritual circles in particular as they can find a huge unsuspecting narcissistic supply of compassionate and empathetic people there. 

Saturday, 8 September 2018

Amazing Grace, How sweet the sound That saved a wretch like me

6,5 years ago, a mum from a mother’s group i had just joined handed me a brochure from Kosmic Fusion. Did not quite understand what the brochure said but the words KOSMIC FUSION resonated with me and the brochure, which had the below beautiful photo of Sree Maa Shri Ji in it, seemed to be pulsing. Even when i had put it away in a drawer, it seemed to be ‘talking’ to me. So i signed up. Now i know that me showing up at that workshop is all the Grace of Bhagwan, Sree Maa Shri Ji. Little did i know this would be the most life-changing workshop i would ever attend. Had only just moved with my daughter to a completely different side of Sydney which was also a complete Divine intervention, to be able to find a place when you are a single parent on a pension but won’t go into these details.

Had been on some spiritual path, searching for alleviation of the suffering i was experiencing, looking for True Love. Had been reading many new age types of books, done some workshops but nothing ever felt like this was IT. Truth still eluded me and True Love was only a hope in my heart. From ‘healing with dolphin & angels’ to ‘I am a Lightworker or Goddess’ to ‘Reiki’ to ‘everything is an illusion’, had pretty much dipped my toes into the whole spectrum of the new age smorgasbord. Most of this is either delusional, steeped in spiritual bypassing, high on grandiose or drunk on ego doership and does nothing for your Soul but adding to the veils and karmic entanglements.

Then i joined the Awakenin Transformation workshop. This.Changed.Everything.
Sree Maa removed the dense obsolete 3D/4D grids (read: lots of layers of dirt and darkness), awakened my true Soul and graced us with a 24/7 connection to the most benevolent, All-knowing, All-powerful Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, Supreme Signature of the Shunya Bindu, Mother of all Energies, Frequencies and Vibrations, the soundless sound, the lightless light, the formless Form. Sree Maa came and found me, lifted me up and showed me there is a way out of the entanglement in Maya and Kaal, out of this seemingly endless Ferris wheel or reincarnation, revealing a supersonic shortcut Home.

Just to illustrate the amazing Grace that had been showered in a tangible way. It is after the Awakenin Transformation workshop and being taken under Sree Maa’s Gracious Wing that something i had fought with since i was about 16 years of age, an eating disorder that had dominated my life and my thoughts so much, just dissolved like that. Such is the power of Supreme Grace.

This supersonic shortcut is the path of Bhakti, of complete surrender to the One and Only One and Sree Maa has graciously and tirelessly lead this meritless soul step by step to this ultimate pathless Path. How beautifully and patiently Sree Maa has worked with someone like me, who had no clue about Sanatana Dharma, grew up in an atheist household in the West (though always believed in God/Divinity) and was indulging big time in spiritual bypassing. This truly shows the benevolence of God and the unconditional Love and Grace Sree Maa Shri Ji are.

Throughout the FiT Programme, the Teachings progressed and unfolded in an amazing way. Will share more about this in following blogs though have to admit, Sree Maa’s Teachings of Absolute Truth and the way the FiT Programme unfolded and the countless Blessings and constant Grace, Compassion and Love showered display such Greatness and Glory, i can only grasp it to a small degree and rest in complete awe. Sree Maa was always explaining everything in a way we could understand and preempting further revelations and deepening of the Teachings beautifully. i really have no words for it and tears well up in my eyes when i think about the Magnanimity of Sree Maa who has been selflessly and tirelessly guiding a group of volunteers onto the pathless path. Infinitely blessed and grateful as one of my fellow FiT/Kalyan Mitras beautifully puts it.

After the Awakenin Transformation workshop in Feb 2012, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse wasn’t revealed until a little later in the QVSWPP Practitioner where we got to experience the grandeur of the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. We simply had to step back and let the QVSWPP step in and everything would happen, the most miraculous spontaneous healings which were the by-product.

It was so grand my peanut size brain had trouble comprehending the absolute Grandeur of the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. Initially the healer’s ego still played up thinking i had to do something. No. Please step back. Be the non-doer. The Supreme Almighty, the Supreme All-Doer in whose one hair follicle alone reside millions of universes, has it under control, thank you very much.  IT knows what is needed. Eventually, i got it. How beautiful and such a relief we can let go and Let God.

Let me share with you some excerpts from a document Sree Maa Shri Ji shared in September 2012 that explained what happens in a QVSWPP session, which we have witnessed and experience time and again. Sree Maa patiently through logic and rationale worked with my white ass mentality and graced us with endless experiences of the Omniscience, Omnipotence and Omnipresence of the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse in the QVSWPP Practitioner Trainings and all other workshops and sessions.  Please also read Niranjana’s testimonial of the QVSWPP which explains it beautifully. https://atmanivedi.blogspot.com/2018/01/dfe-pratyaksh-pramana.html?m=1

Sree Maa Shri Ji has given us everything on the platter straight up! This Ultimate Grace from the Ultimate Benefactor, the Causeless Mercy, Grace and Compassion that guides the Soul where it belongs: back to Bhagwan. The GPS inbuilt to make sure the package (Atma) gets delivered. What more could anyone want or need? Effortless soul upgrade, healing and upliftment. What would take yogis and spiritual aspirants many years sometimes lifetimes to master, with the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse becomes an effortless practice and experience. If this is not the Absolute Glory and Benevolence of Bhagwan then what is?

Just to illustrate the above, sharing an excerpt of what Sree Maa Shri Ji shared with us in May 2014.
KOSMIC FUSION is the fusion of all. Can't be picky here or selective .
Got to bound all the non - self that strengthens the self but both are not even important for the SELF but in order for the SELF to be realized Self (the practise of non-doer is very important)
That is why to make the P.R.O.C.E.S.S easy for each one of you your dense 3D- 4D Obsolete Grids are removed and strands of Kosmic SELF are infused as 5D++ Scalar Wave Photon Pulse Grids that activate each chakra to become 1 great Quantum Vortex.
You guys have no idea what you have received. Simply not even remotely aware of how much GRACE has been showered...
GRATITUDE towards GRACE working mysteriously 24/7 is the key to eventually overcome the self / non - self/ Self Obsolete signatures created by the Individual incarnational soul on various time - lines.
After which comes the attitude of De-vot-'ion' the thread that builds the Anthakarana(Akaashic Highway to VOID) where all the Signatures - blueprints /aspects of the creator - Source drama gets annihilated fully as a De-vot-ee (The act of dee - voting means voting one final time to strip off the Source - Creator- Consciousness of the power of Free will)

Later on, in 2016 as the FiT Programme was progressing, Sree Maa explained that the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse is the Swaminarayan Mahamantra. To get a glimpse of It’s Benevolence and Glory please read: http://www.swaminarayan.nu/sampraday/mahamantra.shtml

It is Sree Maa’s paramekantik Bhakti (Supreme Devotion) to Bhagwan Swaminarayan that we receive as the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, unconditionally and boundlessly shared with all.
There are really no words to express my gratitude to Sree Maa Shri Ji for gracing us with the Swaminarayan Mahamantra, for embracing this lost sheep, introducing me to Avatar na Avatari, Sarvopari Shree Hari and guiding me so patiently and lovingly onto the pathless path.
Immersed in the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse always feel calmer, neutral and uplifted, moving beyond the small self and it’s 3 bodies and endless mind chatter, melting into an ocean of Love, often it is like someone has switched on the light, so bright, feelings of Oneness, of Wholeness, a sense of all is perfect, everything is taken care of, a sense of perfect peace and stillness.

As Sree Maa summed it up graciously in a comment to a post on Facebook:

Silence pulsates on the same tune with universal consciousness (Spirit)

This has already been given to all the Pulsars and they can access this 24/7 as Quantum Vortex Energy
– Sree Maa

Jai Shree Swaminarayan