Thursday, 27 December 2018

Spiritual bypassing and cognitive dissonance

Anyone who is on a spiritual journey needs to be aware of spiritual bypassing. Have to admit, i wasn’t always aware of this and it is also something that i have seen happening a lot in new age circles.

Spiritual bypassing is a term coined in the early 1980s by psychologist John Welwood. It refers to the use of spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with uncomfortable feelings, unresolved wounds, and fundamental emotional and psychological needs. Or as psychologist Ingrid Mathieu aptly put its “checking out, rather than checking in”.

Examples include using spirituality as a justification for failing to take responsibility for one’s actions, using spirituality to feel superior to other people, disease to be nice, emotional numbing and repression, overemphasis on the positive, blind or overly tolerant compassion, weak boundaries etc.

In the FiT Programme too we were asked to look at spiritual bypass and even research this topic together with cognitive dissonance to reflect on where we were practising spiritual bypass.

Reflection and introspection were an important part of the FiT Programme because if you want to rise above your small self, you have to look within (see also this blog about inner enemies).
Looking back, i can see how the white ass and new age mentality says: “we have got the guru inside us, we look ourselves”. Because i was fed these concepts, was practising this bypass too. But when it came to actually looking within, there was no guru inside me that would show me the way.

If it was not for the tireless guidance from my Mentor whom i humbly take as my Guru, beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, would not have been able to look at the grey shades & blind spots within, let alone begin to air those things out. Some of my unhelpful swabhaav (nature) included people pleasing, disease to be nice where i don’t speak up when it is needed, blindly trusting because of a faulty believe in a world of love and oneness instead of understanding that there is different gradations of incarnated souls and using discernment, and putting others above me in my head – coming from comparison instead of seeing the divinity in all and also a subtle way to remain in my comfort zone and shirk responsibility.

In hindsight, these were also my character flaws that made me enable the covert narcissists that had snuck into the FiT Programme pretending they wanted to serve the mission of Kosmic Fusion but who came with hidden malicious agendas. In that way spiritual bypass cannot only hamper one’s own growth but also have an impact on group dynamics and result in affecting innocent parties.
The interesting thing is, the two narcissists Joy Kuo and Iphigenie Amoutzias who were asked to leave after their true face came out, only briefly reflected but then fell back into victim mode.  
Still remember how even at the Reunion in July 2017, Joy Kuo tried to wiggle out of going through the questionnaires we ourselves had put together to help us reflect. In fact, at some point she had pulled me aside and while trying to fill my ears about another FiT, she said this person told her she has a dark side that she needs to look at. And she said it with such disbelief like she couldn’t believe this was true… In her head, she must have felt perfect and this is the grandiosity typical of people with NPD.

My Kalyan Mitra Tara has written a great blog on how these two pretend volunteers, Joy and Iphigenie were both into Buddhism before and how they failed to look at the false self/ego self then and continued to do the same when they joined Kosmic Fusion and the FiT Programme.

Because of Sree Maa's supreme empathy and support, the voice of conscience was awakened in Joy and she did eventually reflect on her actions for a while, but then fell back into playing the victim game big time. Perhaps the attempt to reflect was only to try and reel back in the one person, Clarito, whom she had groomed and been obsessed with for years. In September 2017 she was kindly asked to resign.

Iphigenie had been voted out by the other FiT in May 2017 as we felt unsafe around her and couldn’t trust her after all the covert games that she had played for almost 5 years like only a sociopath with malignant narcissism knows how to play. She too was able to reflect on her actions because of the Grace and super nova empathy of Sree Maa and shared some of her narcissistic games and motives (though she would have never revealed everything). But when she didn’t get back into the group which she wanted, she fell back and joined hands with Joy to ran a smear campaign slandering the name of Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion. Needless to say, they now completely deny the few reflections and admittances they have done.

One’s their true face is exposed the shame narcissists feel leads to narcissistic injury and the cognitive dissonance is so great that narcissists resort to slandering and maligning the ones who can see behind their carefully crafted masks in order to protect their own fake image and face, even if this is their Ultimate Well-wisher. Sadly, they end up cutting the branch they are sitting on.
Have to admit, they played their games well and when the truth came out for a while i was shocked, couldn’t believe had trusted these two individuals. Initially it is very easy to just put all the blame on them and their abuse but i think this too would be a form of bypassing, if i wouldn’t reflect and take responsibility for playing into their hands, missing essential red flags and the wounds, ignorance and unawareness i was and am still carrying. This is discussed quite well in these 2 videos by Melanie Tonia Evans about how to thrive after narcissistic abuse and what you can learn from it.
How i exposed the narcissistic smear campaign: 
& Why narcissists go after lightworkers:

Forever grateful to my beloved Sarvopari Paratpar Akshar Mitra Sree Maa Shri Ji for awakening my Atma, for helping me look within and taking off my blinkers, always shining the light of Absolute Truth, for graciously guiding me and showing the supersonic shortcut Home and for the unfathomable Grace of the Quantum Vortex Scalar WavePhoton Pulse, the Swaminarayan Mahamantra. 

Please also read the insightful blog by my Kalyan Mitra Jeeya about narcissists doing spiritual bypassing

Thursday, 29 November 2018

Joy’s modus operandi: playing the martyr

If there is one thing Joy Kuo does well it is to play the victim. Came across an image that i feel describes what Irene/Joy has displayed to the T in the nearly 6 years that i have known her. Have to admit, i fell for the mask for a long time, but no longer.

Playing the martyr and the victim was and still is her number one game. And her best performance came after she was asked to leave Kosmic Fusion….

Joy Kuo joined Kosmic Fusion end of 2012. She immediately started volunteering after she did the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop and very soon started taking over the scene, telling others what to do and pointing out other’s mistakes (or what she perceived as their mistake).
This was also the case at the Newcastle expo in August 2013 that was organised by the volunteers themselves, where she would be domineering and push her way irrespective of the efforts or views of others.

i made the mistake of failing to hold my space and heed Sree Maa’s guidance to not form small groups and pulled away from Joy towards another volunteer and played right into Joy’s hands. She used this to play the victim with Clarito, saying that nobody is supporting her. Clarito is a true empath and a gentleman and stepped up to support her. She also claimed her English is not so good to woo Clarito in further and started to manipulate the scene so that she would always end up working together with him, fencing him off from others. She would fill his ears about the others, often pulling the poor me card and always adding in how much she is sacrificing for Kosmic Fusion so that Clarito would be on her side and do her bidding.

She actually had problems with every single one of the other volunteers, but of course it was all their problem, not hers and it was very stressful for poor Joy to have to deal with everyone, but she did it anyway “for the sake of Kosmic Fusion”. This was the story she was telling herself and publicly. Please note, prior to Joy joining the group dynamics were fine, but after she joined it started going downhill fast.

19/09/14, 20:03 - Meera: How are you feeling after last night's call? 💖💖💖
19/09/14, 20:16 - Komal Irene Kuo: Most of the time people have issues with me 😅 Maa said it's competition... had some issues with Elliaa, Siann (even this year mbs Sydney the seminar meditation)  Sheree ...Nat used to have bad attitudes to me... they're okay now. .. but now a little bit with Jabeen. ... 😅 sounds like my problem but not really. ..... maybe they feel I'm threatening to them and react. ...and that affects me. .. but now they know where I'm coming from and know who is the one taking responsibility all the way through
 (Iphigenie was called Meera at that time, Joy was called Komal)

She was always priding herself on her high standard of volunteering and if she corrected others it was only because they would not meet “her high standards”. She was constantly portraying herself to other FiTs as a martyr who was giving up her health (she had high blood pressure), her sleep and time with her son and husband to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion. In reality, she was pursuing her ambition of becoming a famous and wealthy healer – her self-proclaimed example was Marie Forleo - under the guise of a hardworking volunteer and later on devotee. She even made it look like she gave up her job so that she could serve Kosmic Fusion but let us look at the real story here.

She was working at the library at Sydney University. When there was a restructuring, employees could choose to either apply for one of the new jobs available or opt for a retrenchment package (in her case about $50,000). Joy opted for the latter which was her own personal choice, nobody asked her to. All the other volunteers still have a job and happily volunteer in their own time.

You can see a message that she wrote but made Hanuman send to the Sydney FiTs group that clearly illustrates the big martyr’s mask she was wearing. She had fully groomed and brainwashed Clarito/Hanuman by that time so that he had lost sight of what was really going on.

26/10/16, 02:38 - Hanuman: Jai Swaminarayan 🙏 🙏 🙏
Coming together as FIT and we all making history and paving for
Kosmic Fusion and working as One. Wish to clear everything out
before the end of October and be straight forward express my sharing
and feedback on what have been observing of late. As we taking on
more responsibilities and learning as this is our training ground
thus would like to make some awareness to be considerate of other
FITs as we have to think of Kosmic Fusion first.
My observation of Komal, she have always step up and take
responsibilities ever since 2014 when everyone still considering
about volunteering and or have not put their hands up yet like
mySelf,... it was a great training ground and a lots bricks and bats
blessing from SreeMaaShriJi. But through her passion and as she can
be black and white and protective of Kosmic Fusion and being zealous
– and it may come as a bit extremist to others and dislike by
Have witness some of accomplishment Komal have since then and always
try to lead with example and by putting Kosmic Fusion first, even
with the cause of her health. Have witness one time after attending
Kosmic Fusion exhibition event, i have to take her in the hospital
and where she felt dying…. But thanks to SreeMaaShriJi and FITs
sharing of QVSWPP everything went great. There are more occasions i
could share… there are many occasions where there are only few hour
sleep including now, where Kosmic Fusion have to come first even
when Komal’s husband and son who still crave her attention have to
be put aside.
Since early 2015 Komal have hired a marketing consultant specialist
in internet and learn what need to be learned to build a website
template in consideration of Practitioner, Kosmic Fusion, and FITs.
Komal have invested $20K+ and also hired an American marketing
consultant and spend a lot of time and efforts to come up with the
write up and marketing materials in her website and flyers. Have
assisted as I could see the bigger picture and make sure that i
could support Kosmic Fusion by supporting Komal. She pain-stackingly
created her website Holistic Freedom with all the consultant at hand
and work on content line by line. Put a lot of pride in her work and
its content.
(Joy was called Komal at the time)

This also mentions what she had actually done with the retrenchment money, contrary to her claims that she spent it on Kosmic Fusion. She hired an internet consultant for $20k+ and also a marketing expert to help with her own website and marketing efforts. Please have a look at her Holistic Freedom Wellness Centre website, do you see any gratitude or mention of Sree Maa Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion? A sample of Joy’s social media messages below (click on it to enlarge it). Can you spot Kosmic Fusion or Sree Maa Shri Ji anywhere? Can see a lot of #Komal and #Hanuman but no gratitude or homage to Sree Maa Shri Ji. 

It is also clear that i was sleeping and had my blinkers on because i did not spot any of this at the time. Now it is very obvious, she is passing off and using Sree Maa’s Teachings for her own monetary gain and claim to fame. Interesting detail: notice the big banner of her and Hanuman in the background. Another interesting detail: Joy manipulated one of the 5D++ Pulsars who is a professional photographer and got him to take pictures of her and Hanuman for free in exchange for a few QVSWPP sessions.

Without Sree Maa Shri Ji, we wouldn’t be able to receive the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. It is Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Supreme Bhakti to and union with Sarvopari Swaminarayan Bhagwan, that we most Graciously receive as the QVSWPP. We were Facilitators in Training not Facilitators at all which Joy claimed herself to be. We were only allowed to practice Akashic Records Neutralising sessions, and still very much learning in every which way as Bhakti is not something you can buy off the shelf. Where is the question of commercializing it offering sessions packages? 

5/10/2016, 5:47 pm - Komal: Normally the energy exchange is $150 per session, but we have 3
sessions package $360, 5 sessions package $500 or if you would like to have long term sessions
such as once every few months etc. Then $88 per session
5/10/2016, 5:48 pm - Komal: You can include you and your mum as one package
5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Komal: Or you can try one session first. ... which is $120 we offer special for
the first time
5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Komal: Then you can decide
5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Polly: Hmm ok
5/10/2016, 5:49 pm - Polly: Thanks for the details Komal
5/10/2016, 5:50 pm - Polly: How do you count me and my mum as one pkg?

It was Joy’s unbridled ambition for money and fame that drove her to approach Pulsars and innocent people for paid sessions. She baits her victims with a free session or a discounted session and then reels them in further by using marketing techniques like above. And isn’t it ironic that the one person who was struggling with money is offering the abundance circle? Doubt there was any love in her heart for the mission of Kosmic Fusion, which is to take the QVSWPP to as many souls as possible. To her it was a business venture she tried to abuse and make money off it.  

This was of course not how she portrayed it. Her favorite sentence was always she was doing it for Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. She misused the name of Sree Maa Shri Ji at every opportunity. This is also how she managed to manipulate Clarito/Hanuman and his dedication and devotion to Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji. She was and is a master at impression management. She would carefully curate her physical appearance, always looking well dressed and with make-up on – you can see her still do the same in her current youtube videos.

She was actually carefully copying Sree Maa’s dressing style, hair style and even the way Sree Maa moves, as if she believed that by copying Sree Maa that way she would become Sree Maa.  She would made it appear to other FiTs that she was very close to Sree Maa Shri Ji and knew what Sree Maa Shri Ji wanted. She also made it appear she had permission for all her business ventures, little did we know this was not the case. 
She would act very soft and nice in front of Sree Maa Shri Ji and in the public view but to the FiTs, especially in Sydney she would act like a bully and a big manipulator.

Joy also displayed double standards. While she was promoting and i quote "Bhakti Bhaav Transmissions" and shamelessly stealing from Kosmic Fusion, she made a big scene when two other FiTS in Sydney printed a Bhakti Bhaav flyer without permission. In fact, she manipulated the whole situation in Sydney setting the other FiTs up and then when the other FiTs reacted she would portray herself as a victim that had to suffer at the hands of the other FiTs who were doing her and Kosmic Fusion wrong (you can read more about it in this blog).
Sharing a sample message of how Joy played the victim at the hands of her fellow FiT, whilst she was the one who was stirring the pot. i was also on the website team and had no problems with Jwala at all.

The Reunion in July 2017 was an opportunity for all of us to truly reflect, honestly look how we had contributed to the failure of the FiT Programme and to sort out any issues amongst us. Joy did nothing of the sorts, she did nothing but blame shifting and pointing fingers, of course in the style she knows best: by playing the victim. This time she was a victim of Clarito/Hanuman, the very person whom she had manipulated and exploited financially, mentally and emotionally for years. Shortly after the Reunion her mask fell off completely. As she was still not willing to be honest and admit to all that she has done, she was kindly asked to leave end of 2017. She did briefly reflect on her actions by the Grace and supreme empathy of beloved Sree Maa who had awakened the voice of conscience in her, but somehow fell back into victim mode big time.

After she left is when she planned her best Oscar material performance till date, because narcissists cannot stand their true face being exposed. They will go to extreme lengths to protect their fake face, and their favourite tactic to do so is: a smear campaign.

She first removed her name from the company and businesses she had set up with Hanuman without informing him, leaving him with all the debts. Debts the company had racked up due to her unbridled ambitions. She then changed all the passwords to the joint email accounts she had with Hanuman.

Her and Iphigenie Amoutzias, another narcissists who was asked to leave Kosmic Fusion, joined hands and started a smear campaign.

They blatantly lied to some cult watch organization and to the two so-called investigative journalists who failed to investigate and were used as flying monkeys in an article to slander the name and character of beloved Sree Maa and Shri Ji, claiming that Kosmic Fusion is a cult. Narcs can act very convincingly mimicking emotions and these two are very good at their game, i was fooled for years. However, the whole article doesn’t hold up to the truth at all. Each one of the FiTs have written extensively about the bias, the many incorrect facts and absolute lies in the paid smear campaign article. This picture captures and sums it up it perfectly what they have done:

Joy is now portraying herself as a person who was completely broken down in a cult and exploited and abused by cult leaders but then miraculously with the help of her loving husband and cult watch people was able to rise and find herself again. Let me check, do the above pictures and anything shared so far in my blog looks like she was beaten down or exploited? Not at all, quite the opposite. This is exactly what narcissists do, they switch everything around and make themselves look like the victim and the real victim like the perpetrator. If there was anyone who was domineering, controlling and after money and power, it was Joy.

It was her who had breached Sree Maa’s trust and stabbed Sree Maa Shri Ji in the back but after her true face came out lo and behold she is telling lies and making it look like the other way around.

Sree Maa had given us a beautiful platform to volunteer, never ever was there any control. Sree Maa always led by example and trained everyone to be a leader themselves, to take responsibility for one’s own actions, work with integrity, honesty and authenticity and move towards embodying one’s highest potential, the Brahmrup. Sree Maa had graced us with and countless beautiful Discourses explaining in English the most precious spiritual teachings from renowned scriptures like the Sreemad Bhagwad Gita, Purans, Vedas and everything Sree Maa has taught was in line with the Vachanamrut, the most respected spiritual scripture in the Swaminarayan Sampraday where the words that Swaminarayan Bhagwan spoke about 200 years ago have been written down, Sree Maa’s isht-Bhagwan. This is studied and followed by MILLIONS of Swaminarayan Satsangis around the world.

Sree Maa is the living embodiment of Grace and Compassion, giving everyone who came a chance to move beyond their small self into their Brahmrup, including Joy and Iphigenie as Sree Maa looks only at one’s Atma and sees Bhagwan sitting within the Atma. Where in the world does even the question of this being a cult come in? Only in the head of a narcissists who projects their wrong-doings onto their victims.

Joy Kuo then started a youtube channel, cleverly making use of a famous singer called Dimash so that she could benefit of people who like his music and would look for it online. She had reinvented herself (read: put on a new mask) as a spiritual adviser with 10 years of experience. She also bought 8000 fake followers for her youtube channel to make it look like she is popular and knows what she is talking about, guess she has learned a few tricks from the internet consultant she hired. She then starts up a FB group called “Awakening with Joy”, adding random people to her group where she is presenting herself as a a spiritual adviser who is helping people to “raise their vibration for a better new earth living”, but in reality is preying on innocent victims as her next narcissistic supply for sympathy, attention and money. If you look at the conditions of this Facebook group, you will see that members are not allowed to share posts offering their services, only Joy can offer hers… Does anyone smell a rat here?

This is a person who has shown no remorse, no empathy and no integrity in all the 6 years that i have known her. Who has lied and back-stabbed her ultimate well-wisher who had welcomed her with open arms and given her every chance. She is after attention, after money and fame. She is a fantastic actress, but if you hang around her long enough, you will see her for who she truly is.

P.S. Sharing this to stand up for the truth because silence is not ok

Sunday, 4 November 2018

Kosmic Fusion - Media trial

My response to a supposedly fun but factually incorrect media show (The Project aired on three in NZ) featuring #KosmicFusion and one of my Kalyan Mitras Ritu Bhargava (on 17 Oct) who had the courage to speak openly about her mental condition and her phenomenal progress by the Grace of Sree Maa. Complete lack of ethics shown again by the media, when what is so sorely needed is the #Truth and Integrity. Forever grateful to beloved #SreeMaa for being the breath of fresh air in this world, bringer of the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, unconditionally sharing Compassion, Kindness and Grace with all and championing honesty, integrity, authenticity with the highest of ethics. Jai Shree Swaminarayan. Curious to experience a Silent Transmission? My blog about the FiT Programme: Ritu Bhargava (Nandini)'s blog:

Saturday, 27 October 2018

2015 FiT Retreat - Absolute Hug

Sree Maa Shri Ji showered so many Initiations and Blessings during the 2015 Kawai Pura Pura Retreat, it would take pages to share them all.

Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with the Biggest Gift of non-action and being an akarmi and really helped us move deeper into this at this Retreat. Dynamic and experiential as the workshops always are, we practised this with giving each other a hug, where we could move beyond the sense of “i” am hugging,  into a sense of there is no one there but the hugging is happening and deeper still to go beyond the hugger, hugged or embrace into the internal infinite love of the Absolute that is always there. Such a profound, beautiful experience.

Sashtang Dandavat and embraced by the Divine

Earlier in the Retreat during the Practitioner Training part, Sree Maa Shri Ji also explained in great detail about the value and energy dynamics of prostration, a moment to slow down and move towards Stillness. There were some who were hesitant, but no one was ever forced or coerced.

i personally felt no hesitation and had a most profound experience one time when bowing down in Sashtang Dandavat touching Sree Maa’s Lotus Feet. i completely lost awareness of the body even the floor disappeared and just felt this most powerful and magnificent Presence and some sort of merging happening, it is really hard to put into words. Sree Maa Shri Ji also explained when you touch the Feet of your Guru and when you get up and are embraced by the Guru that is the biggest Blessing of Welcome to this Abode. Forever Grateful to Sree Maa Shri Ji for embracing this meritless soul and accepting me into Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Fold.

At some point, Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with the opportunity to release our unconcious acts and it got very hot in the room. We had lit up our own fire, releasing countless unconcious acts - swa ahuti Sree Maa called it. Here you can listen to my sharing afterwards where i cried when Sree Maa Shri Ji came and hugged me, felt like finally have come Home. Forever grateful to beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji _/\_

Akarmi deh names

Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with a akarmi deh Initiation and with new names, akarmi deh names, to help us settle into the non-doer a bit better. We all looked with excitement at the board where the new names were written. i had seen the name Ekta written there, meaning Unity, and was drawn to it but part of me also felt it was too ‘big’ a name. All the names were the virtues of Brahmn and calling each other by that name would remind us of that quality. Beautiful names included Simran, meditation or remembrance of God, Mahima, meaning Glory to remember the Glory of God, Archita, the one who is surrendered to God as the Brahmn is always surrendered to Bhagwan. Really felt grateful to receive the precious name Ekta and made a sankalp within to honour it the best i could.

Interestingly, at this same Retreat and afterwards i got the opportunity to do just that. When i arrived at the Retreat, some of the FiTs invited me to their rooms to catch up, have a little chat. Even though i felt a little tired as i had flown from Europe to New Zealand, i decided to come. As i was listening, i noticed how one of them, Jeeya, would talk about others and not always in a favourable way, basically she was gossiping. After a while i did not feel comfortable and left saying i was tired and wanted to sleep. Later on, i confided with Archita that i didn’t like the gossiping. What i should have done was stood up right there and then and said something about it. Sree Maa told me to reflect and then apologize to everyone as i had come from separation and thought that i was ‘better’. Was very grateful to Sree Maa for pointing this out to me and giving me to chance to see through the subtleties of the ego and its arrogance. Only someone who is your true Well-Wisher would go to this extent to make sure your Atma is honoured and the ego is dissolved.

i know for sure that the one who walked into the door is not the one who left the Retreat – all only by the Grace and Shakti of beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji. Sada Aapki Abhaari Rahungi Sree Maa Shri Ji _/\_

Friday, 26 October 2018

Boundless Blessings at the 2015 FiT Retreat

The Facilitator in Training (FiT) Programme graced by Sree Maa Shri Ji was a powerful, dynamic, experiential Training. Still getting my head around the magnanimity of the Training and most of all the Greatness of our Teacher Sree Maa who gave of herself 24/7 to support us in our P.R.O.C.E.S.S of AwaKeNiN TrAnSForMaTioN TrAnSCenDEncE.

Core principles were authenticity, honesty, integrity and transparency, practiced fully by beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, who always led by example.

The FiT intake Ceremony, completely complementary, took place in October 2013. There Sree Maa already spoke about many concepts and principles that you can find in Sanatana Dharma so it was ALWAYS clear what this was about. In addition, we touched Sree Maa’s Lotus Feet, and i would say we were very fortunate to be able to do so. Key take away from that FiT intake ceremony was also to trust and surrender.

Snapshots of the beautiful 2015 Kawai Pura Pura Retreat
There are now two ex-volunteers who claim in their media smear campaign that the curriculum of the FiT Training all of a sudden changed. i really don’t know what course they were sitting on and why they stayed on and did not leave, as everyone was always free to leave if it wasn’t your cup of tea. It was clear to me and there are no words enough to express my gratitude to beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji for the most Gracious FiT Training. Anyone with half a dose of common sense can see through the games of Joy Kuo/ #AwakeningwithJoy and Iphigenie Amoutzias/Amoutsias.

Gift of the akarmi

One of the key principles that Sree Maa teaches straight from the very first moment is to be a non-doer, an akarmi; step back and let the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse step in. No intention, no expectation no judgement, happy to not know. A non-doer serves without wanting anything out of something.

This seems simple and in truth it is but in 2014 and beyond we could experience ourselves how the small self/doer can step in. In order to become akarmi, there will be obstacles, generally it doesn’t happen overnight but Sree Maa supported us in every way possible.

Early 2015 Sree Maa encouraged us to do a homeopathic detox in preparation for the TrAnSceNDenCE that would be offered at the phenomal 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat. Quite frankly am still absorbing the profound Teachings and all the Supreme Blessings Sree Maa Shri Ji bestowed on us at this Retreat.

Body of devotion and silent Guru Mantra

One of the things Sree Maa beautifully explained was that it is the biggest Gift that you can ever get is to be an akarmi. Sree Maa laid the foundation for Bhakti (devotion) in that Retreat, gracing us with an Initiation of a (formless) body of devotion, a new body of bliss – like armour that will help one fight one’s inner resistance when the ego crops up. This is a body of true transcendence that would develop more as one's power of devotion becomes stronger.

Sree Maa also asked us if we wanted to receive a Guru Mantra, which means one would be a Sanatana Dharmi from then on. The choice was ours. Everyone present at the Retreat (including the wolves in sheep clothing) said yes.

Remember i was very humbled and grateful to receive such a Blessing to help us come out from our old karmic cycle. Now one’s Guru becomes your biggest mirror, learning through the attributes of the Guru instead of the lessons in one’s life. No greater Blessing than to be graced with Sree Maa as one’s Guru, as the years went on my understanding of the precious Guru-disciple relationship deepened (see also my other blog) - all only possible by the Grace and Kindness of Sree Maa Shri Ji. 

Niranjana (who has written with amazing detail and understanding about the FiT Retreat and Programme, can highly recommend to read her blog) asked a beautiful question about the difference between the silent Guru Mantra and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse and Sree Maa enlightened us that Guru Mantra is for one’s doer and the QVSWPP - that which Sree Maa Shri Ji had given us already straight up on the platter in the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop -comes to one in non-action to the non-doer. 

Niranjana and me at the Kawai Pura Pura Retreat

Of course, one cannot take a Guru Mantra without a Guru Dakshina, and Sree Maa was so Gracious to ask us to offer a bad habit that we don’t need as Guru Dakshina. Actually can’t remember which bad habit i offered but do remember this humbled me to the core and really showed the selflessness and Daya of our Ultimate Well-Wisher Sree Maa Shri Ji. And this was only the beginning, there were many more Blessings to come.... :-) <3

Thursday, 18 October 2018

How Narcissists Run in Packs - part 5 When the mask cracks

Written together with my Kalyan Mitras Simran, Tara and Jeeya

Eventually when you spend enough time around a narcissist and pay attention, it becomes impossible for them to hide who they are. As most of us were sleeping and tend to run away from conflict rather than speak up, we failed to spot the many red flags and it took us a long time to see through the games that Joy Kuo and Iphigenie Amoutzias were playing. It is in hindsight and only by the Grace of Sree Maa that we can recognize the full extent of their behaviour and can put the pieces of the puzzle together.

Sree Maa’s Compassion and Kindness knows no bounds. Sree Maa is a highly evolved, enlightened Being who allows people be who they are and then show them why they need to transform, and ultimately why they need to let go of their dark self. While we were in a deep unconscious slumber, Sree Maa was taking all the narcissistic ‘bullets’ on herself so that the rest of the FiTs would not be impacted. Such is the Grace of Sree Maa who not only protected us but also enlightened us to recognise how we unwittingly invited these narcissists into our space and liberated us from wearing blinkers.

Truth prevails

 As Nandini had expressed her wish to get over her afflictions during the 2016 Taupo Retreat and Jeeya too wanted to transform, Sree Maa patiently worked with them in a safe, open and transparent manner through voice dialoguing and enlightening Discourses that were of benefit to all FiTs. It taught us a lot about spiritual bypassing and how to overcome the small/false/dark self and move into our Brahmroop. Joy and Iphigenie never put this knowledge into practise and never said a word they were having similar narcissistic shades in them. Though they tried to hide and remain under the radar, in the course of 2017 the Truth started to come out.
During the 2017 India Pilgrimage, Tara had experienced the true shades of Joy and Iphigenie. Joy went so far as to physically bully Tara which was shocking because Irene/Joy always portrayed herself as soft and gentle. She had asked Tara to help with voice recording. One incident, they were at the back of the group of FITs and Joy told Tara to go to the front to do the recording and then unexpectedly shoved Tara sideways that she almost lost her balance. Tara then told Joy not to push her but she gave her a blank look and said “It was not a push.” instead of offering a simple apology. Again, narcissists never think they are ever in the wrong and would gaslight you to think that nothing happened. In another incident, Joy out of the blue suddenly grabbed Tara’s wrist while she was holding the voice recorder and handled her roughly until it hurt her while bossing her to “do it properly”.

A Narcissist´s Prayer

Iphigenie was behaving very passive-aggressively with Tara throughout the pilgrimage. And Tara had brought this to light to Joy and had regretted it because later Iphigenie approached Tara to instigate a verbal attack on her when they were alone.

Needless to say, Tara was very shaken by the experience she had with both of them on the trip and she wasn’t the only one who had experienced intimidation and nasty behaviour at their hands during the trip. Tara was further made to keep quiet as they both worked together to continue to put her down in the Whatsapp chat groups creating a bad image of her to the other FITs.


Sree Maa had suspended all events and workshops since end of 2016 due to everything going on and stepped down as the Teacher of the FiT Programme 18 March 2017. This did not deter Joy to want to continue with all her activities, running meditation circles and Abundance circles online without approval. She even went to the extent of hosting a fake AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop.

Iphigenie had no qualms to help move another FiT into the Ashram (her accomplice) while Sree Maa and Shri Ji were travelling in April 2017, again no permission taken.

Irene/Joy tried hard to deflect the spotlight from herself after Iphigenie was voted out by the other FiTs in May 2017, making a big deal about a Bhakti Bhaav brochure Simran and Jwala had printed and an advertisement they took out. She ‘conveniently’ forgot to mention how she framed Simran and Jwala into this and also that she was doing much worse behind everyone’s back. The rest of the FiT had no clue what had happened or what had even gone on in the dynamics of the FiTs in Sydney so a call was organised to clarify matters. Joy (then called Komal) completely hijacked this call to shift the blame on Simran and also put Jwala in a bad light.


On that call she was using all the Narc’s tricks in the book of taking over the conversation, playing the victim and telling lies, completely manipulating the situation and using the rest of the core team members as flying monkeys. Irene would constantly give half truths and complete lies to pull wool over the other core team members eyes, so she could control the situation.
Joy Awakening came to the Ashram House in June 2017, believing herself to be a great sevak and devotee who would show the other FiTs in the Ashram House how to offer seva. She would also lead the organisation of the Reunion Retreat, a gathering organised by the FiT for the FiT to come together and honestly look at what each one had contributed to the failure of the FiT Programme. Initially Joy wanted to have the Reunion at her place, the ideal place for her to have control, but some of the FiTs were not comfortable with that idea. Sree Maa had kindly offered the basement area of the Ashram House as a place where the Reunion could be held and also said children were welcome to come.

Here Joy played another dirty game. She didn’t want Jwala to show up at the Reunion as she knew Jwala had started to see through her games and could expose her. She also knew that if Jwala wasn’t able to bring her daughter, she wouldn’t come to the Reunion. So she painted a picture to the other FiTs that the schedule of the Reunion would be really busy and it could get quite intense, so that the mothers would conclude it is best not to bring the children. She actually confided in Jeeya this was her intention before getting on call with other FiTs regarding the Reunion. She also blatantly lied to one of them that what Sree Maa actually meant was not to bring the children. 

None of the FiT ended up bringing their children and Jwala ended up not coming to the Reunion Retreat and left the FiT Programme.

During the Reunion Irene behaved like a bully and was not participating like the rest of the FiT. She did not want to fill out the questionnaires made by the FiTs for the purpose of honest reflection, and in conversations kept pushing the blame on others and pointing fingers at Clarito/Hanuman. Prior to the Reunion, all FiTs in Sydney were asked to reflect and without any judgement write down their observations of the team. If you read what Irene/Joy wrote down, you can see that it is far from a neutral observation and more a litany of finger pointing to others. 

It was shortly after the Reunion that Joy’s true face became crystal clear to everyone. And it was thanks to Sree Maa's intuitive move to cut off Irene/Joy's access to Sree Maa and Kosmic Fusion resources that things came out in the open. Hanuman went no contact with her and Simran also was offered no contact under the guise of 'quarantine' to keep her safe from Joy who wanted her out. Joy made some admittance about her dubious intentions, as she was hoping to get access to Hanuman again, but mostly continued to hide. She was given many chances to be honest and admit to what she had done so she could move beyond it but continued to play games till the end. In September 2017 she was lovingly asked to leave.

Narcissists present themselves as the victim

Narcissists can’t stand their true face being uncovered and Joy and Iphigenie ganged up and instigated a smear campaign where they organised a paid article filled with lies to slander and malign Sree Maa and Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion out of revenge. They actively recruited one of the volunteers who had left in 2015 to collude with them. They also approached another ex-FiT, Renu, but she would not support them at all, knowing the truth of what happened.  Irene/Joy is still continuing her fake victim story and trying to harm the name of Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa and Shri Ji in her new youtube channel "Awakening with Joy" and Facebook group she set up. There she is balantly plagiarizing the work of Sree Maa Shri Ji which you can see in the post below.

Below you can see Joy's Youtube channel where she claims to be an energy healer and spiritual consultant with 10 years of experience and were she is still playing the victim and using Dimash to trap innocent people. Where are the certificates and proofs of her 10 years of experience? Interesting to note that in 2013 (i.e. 5 years ago) she herself said in a video testimonial about the AwaKeNiN TrANsForMaTioN workshop that she is so happy she has now become an instant healer...

  Red flags of psychopaths  Red flag of psychopaths

When Iphigenie was being questioned in May 2017 by the other FiT for why she was labelling Kosmic Fusion to Pulsars/new FITs/volunteers, see how quickly Joy stood by Kosmic Fusion to defend her own self and being very cold to Iphigenie. Weren’t they were like best friends before? 

Around that same time, Joy sent the following scathing email to Iphigenie in response to her facebook post.

But oh look, now that Joy was also asked to leave, is it surprising that they gang up together to create a smear campaign? Amoutzias of course isn’t angry at Joy for betraying her before because Amoutzias needs someone driven like Joy and use her to do all the smear campaigning while playing the victim and quiet one. They are merely being a shill for each other to make their smear campaign more believable.

Narcissists hunt in packs

It is sad to see how Iphigenie and Joy who were graced with such an amazing opportunity to change having been taken under the Gracious Wings of beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji, chose to hold on to the blanket of the small self and cut the branch they were sitting on.  

In conclusion, we like to share this excerpt from another article that we felt was very relevant and described quite well what we have seen and experienced:

Spiritually they are closed.

They have parasitic convergences whereby they momentarily infect another person like a buzzing bee in the wrong hive. Eventually, the victim is preserved by, what in Hinduism is referred to as the forces of Vishnu, and the narcissistic charade is destroyed by Shiva. The narcissist is so closed-minded & proudly arrogant, however, that they walk away demonizing their victim as a natural defense surrounding the closed-mind. Read full article.

How Narcissists Run in Packs - part 4 Use and Abuse

Written together with my Kalyan Mitras Tara, Simran and Jeeya

The teachings in the FiT Programme were based on Sanatana Dharma principles from day one. Sree Maa gave us the freedom to keep our own moral compass as Sree Maa believes in Sanatana Dharma and had already told us that Sanatana means eternal and Dharma is the moral compass inside each person. Dharma means conscience inside is working and one is able to do the righteous things. It turned out that some of the FiTs had absolutely no moral compass and just used and abused Kosmic Fusion resources and Sree Maa’s Kindness and Compassion for their own agendas. This completely fits the characteristics of a narcissist as they lack empathy and conscience.

Irene/Joy used and abused intellectual property and Kosmic Fusion Resources however she saw fit. She approached Nick, one of the Pulsars, to do some of her renovation work at her home for free, only giving him board and lodgings. But when Nick needed some medical attention, she immediately wanted to get rid of him. She was very much focussed on what she could get out of the situation rather than have true empathy for Nicks plight and what he was going through. 

Irene/Joy also knew that Mala was travelling to inner and outer Sydney to support her and Clarito/Hanuman with events and would rather have Hanuman give her a lift than to give Mala a lift home. With all due respect to Mala, Mala is the eldest in our FiT Program and should have been treated as such. Again she put her own needs first and showed no empathy for others.

If Irene/Joy wanted to do an expo, she would say Clarito wanted to do it. When the others said no, she would say Clarito is really pushing, he really wants to do it otherwise he would get really upset. In addition to using Claritos name to mask her own ambition, Irene/Joy was constantly asking Simran and other volunteers in Sydney to fund events which were driven by her to keep up the appearance of being very successful, under the guise of doing it "for Kosmic Fusion". She became obsessed with building a database which she used for her own personal side business, all at the expense of the volunteers and Sree Maa  and Shri Ji.

Irene/Joy hatched a plan with Clarito who was now under her control and used as a flying monkey,  to extract money from Simran. Without consulting with the other FiTs she called a conference call and asked Simran to “backpay” Kosmic Fusion Australia for the past events that Simran had volunteered at. Using her name and shame tactics she put Simran on the spot and wrote the following message.


The fact of the matter was that she had racked up company expenses to fund her own business and this was a roundabout way of retrieving those funds, again using and abusing the volunteers for her own benefit. In addition, she would give a very distorted picture to the other FiTs outside of Australia that only her and Hanuman were contributing and none of the other FiTs in Sydney, but the truth was completely different. 

Something very similar was happening in New Zealand where Dallia/Iphigenie was using others left right and centre to fulfill her agenda.

Dallia/Iphigenie was planning to put her fangs into the Ashram house after seeing how big the Ashram house was, Dallia/Iphigenie strategically made her moves to engage Jeeya as her flying monkey. First Dallia/Iphigenie played Jeeya into believing how much she would like to be part of the Ashram house project by making sure that Jeeya was there to “witness”  how she was selling off her belly dancing items to show off how unattached she is to her possessions. Dallia/Iphigenie also told Jeeya that she was closing down her belly dance business for the Ashram House project, when the truth is her belly dance business was not making money and Dallia/Iphigenie did not have a choice but to close it down because it was not commercially viable.

Dallia/Iphigenie even played the devotee card with Jeeya by asking Jeeya to join her in getting a small mandir, frames, pooja items for Bhagwan Swaminarayan so that she will not be disrespectful.
Dallia/Iphigenie was constantly “sharing” with Jeeya how much she wanted to be in the Ashram House and kept asking Jeeya for “advice” how she can better improved herself, giving Jeeya the false impression that she was really keen on changing. Dallia/Iphigenie did not tell her about the message that she received personally  from Sree Maa telling her that she was not ready for the Ashram House, Jeeya having  her own personal agenda of wanting to leave for Singapore invited Dallia/Iphigenie into the Ashram House, lying in front of Sree Maa how devoted Dallia/Iphigenie was and encouraging her to come to the Ashram house.

Irene/Joy wasn’t the only one using the other FiTs to get money. Dallia/Iphigenie was making use of her stay in the Ashram House to trick Renu and Orja to give her a loan.  Dallia/Iphigenie was hiding the fact that she used Sree Maa Shri Ji’s name as an excuse to get the loans but was using the money to pay off her personal bills.

While Dallia/Iphigenie was acting as if she was important on the whatsapp groups towards the overseas FiTs being in the Ashram House, she was really causing a lot of harassment to everyone in the Ashram, most of all Sree Maa and Shri Ji. She never mentioned to anyone she had not been invited into the Ashram House, but forced herself into there uninvited.
In fact, the Ashram House had become more like a narcissist war zone where all the FiTs living in the Ashram House were in there for their personal gains, fighting amongst themselves, abusing and taking advantage of Sree Maa Shri Ji’s kindness and compassion. The true goal of the Ashram project had been completely lost sight of. 

Dallia/Iphigenie was behaving like she owns the Ashram House when Sree Maa and Shri Ji were not around, she went into Sree Maa and Shri Ji’s room and violated Sree Maa’s personal space by going through Sree Maa’s personal possessions. Dallia/Iphigenie would spread herself across Sree Maa and Shri Ji’s couch and even purposefully pointed her feet towards Shreeji Maharaj’s portrait which is considered very disrespectful. Dallia/Iphigenie was also making Jeeya handle all the laundry and ironing, Nandini all the housekeeping while she was lying down on the couch watching her German movies.

Jeeya and Nandini were humiliated by Dallia/Iphigenie with her constant correction of what they were doing or saying. Dallia/Iphigenie made sure that she was in control and making Jeeya and Nandini slave for her in a very subtle way. Dallia/Iphigenie did not even allow Jeeya and Nandini to use the kitchen when she was around, she constantly ridiculed Jeeya, finding faults of what Jeeya has done for the pantry with words like “why would you want to arrange it this way?” “ why are you not using containers to keep this?”.

The FiTs in the Ashram painted a false picture of the life in the Ashram, making it sound like it was very difficult, but the truth was the opposite. Sree Maa would often cook for them and even spend time how to prepare Indian dishes. Sree Maa literally gave of herself 24/7 to help the ones with narcissism to move beyond their afflictions.

The world advises a no contact rule for narcissists, but Sree Maa, being the epitome of Grace and Compassion, welcome everyone with open arms as Sree Maa only sees the Divine spark within everyone. While Nandini and Jeeya welcomed the Grace and were making a sincere effort to change, Iphigenie only kept misusing Sree Maa’s Kindness and was dead set on her mission to sabotage and destroy Kosmic Fusion.

How Narcissists hunt in packs part 1 - part 2 Narc tactics - part 3 Faking it - part 4 Use and Abuse - part 5 When the mask cracks