Cannot say the first few months were easy, but this was only the experience of the personality, on a deeper level surrender had taken place and my Soul could begin to blossom.
It feels actually very freeing to not get sucked into the small self’s drama. Sree Maa once described the ego as follows: a drunken monkey with its tail on fire bitten by a scorpion. Think that’s sums it up quite well. And that is part of the P.R.O.C.E.S.S., to keep the ego in check.
Some in the FiT group did not make an effort to step back, instead they were constantly meddling. We were all supposed to rotate with helping out online but Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutzias would try to hog all the online events for herself, pushing other FiTs to the background. This was around the same time where she was sowing seeds of doubts during the meditation evenings and Kosmic Tribes. She was making sure the unity would not happen. Same goes for Irene/Tzu-Ling Kuo/Joy who was acting like the boss in Sydney, creating hierarchy and pushing away volunteers with her bullying.