Before i met SreeMaa-Shreeji, whom i am very fortunate to call Paratpar Guru, was looking for answers to my inner quest in the new age circles. Having had no exposure to Sanatana Dharma, had no idea what true spirituality was and was reading ‘spiritual’ books at random and trying out different things from the new age smorgasbord. My agyan and avidya (ignorance) was high and with my white privilege firmly in place, i was also ignorant about cultural appropriation.
New age industry
If you take a real
good and honest look at the new age movement, it is not so much about the soul
or genuine spirituality, but more about feeling good or special and earning
money. You could call it an industry. Not surprisingly spiritual bypassing is
rife, just as cultural appropriation. With all the new age spiritual coaches,
channels, healers and readers out there, it is more like the blind leading the
blind. All this is a recipe for getting lost in the delusions rather than
moving forward and it was true that i wasn’t going anywhere in my spiritual
pursuit as such. For me everything changed when i had the great fortune to meet SreeMaa in February 2012.
Touched
by Supreme Grace
I can never thank
Paratpar Guru enough for taking this lost soul under Paratpar Guru’s Wings, awakening
my True Soul (Atma), opening my eyes to the truth and ceaselessly guiding me in
this blessed P.R.O.C.E.S.S of Awakenin Transformation Transcendence to move
past the antics of the small self, to move more towards being a non-doer,
embody the True Soul and remain rooted in the True SELF (Brahmroop) who is
fully surrendered to the Absolute. All this while being Graced with a 24/7
connection to the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the most benevolent
Signature of the Source/Void shared boundlessly by Paratpar Guru that uplifts, upgrades, heals and unifies on a scale that is beyond human comprehension. It
is in the Sharan of Paratpar Guru that i learnt what real spirituality (adhyatmikta)
entails and the reason why jivatmas take a human birth.
An honest
look at my shallow and phony new age followers’ psyche
True spirituality
requires honestly looking within to move past the narratives we tell ourselves,
the grey shades and the inner enemies. Sharing a quick snapshot overview of my
new (c)age explorations and the cultural appropriation i ended up doing as well
as the delusions that were part of my phony new age followers’ psyche, so that
others may open their eyes and think twice before falling for the new age fluff.
- I appropriated the word Goddess by running
Goddess circles with another
person for mothers. This was a very shallow way of operating as i
had not done the required inner work nor done the research to understand what a
Goddess really means.
- Had angel cards, incl a
deck by Doreen Virtue’s that featured images of Deities and Devis such as Lord
Ganesh and Lakshmiji, which i now realize is the pinnacle of cultural
appropriation and entitlement as if they can be used to manifest what we
desire.
- Before moving to Northern Beaches in
Sydney, i did a 7 level reiki workshop and volunteered for the teacher’s reiki
stand at MBS. Gave 2 or 3 reiki sessions in exchange for money.
- Had a couple of yoga dvd’s, using it to
practice what i thought was yoga, but these only focussed on the body and mind,
leaving out the most crucial part of the Atma and union with the Paramatma. Did
not research to find out what yoga is really about nor who brought this gift to
humanity. Pretty much
the same attitude that most people in the west would have.
- In the Netherlands a lot of people think
it is fashionable to have a Buddha statue and was gifted one for my birthday
once which i kept as decoration for a while. Had no idea what Buddha taught or
what Buddhism was about, nor did i look into it at the time.
- Played music on youtube which had mantras
without understanding the meaning.
- Have been wearing Indian style clothing
without thinking about how people from India would feel about this.
- Visited Swaminarayan Mandirs in the UK
without checking with Paratpar Guru, which shows my white sense of entitlement.
- Bought right into the love and light
programme because it made me feel good. What this means in simple terms is pretending
to be loving, compassionate and giving but refusing to look at your dark/shadow/small
self. Or think about the actresses whom many may admire as so beautiful, loving
and kind but in reality, they are using drugs and doing things that
are a far cry away from the righteous way of living, in tune with one’s True
Soul.
- Did some course titled the voice for love to be able to hear the inner voice. Thought i could hear the inner voice by doing some course instead of doing real inner work. This was linked to a Course in Miracles, which talks about surrender and Grace of God but had no clue what this really meant. Had some concept of God is Love and was hoping and praying to connect with God. This was just before i met SreeMaa (whom i then knew as KaVeeTa).
- My signature of my old email address when
starting to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion read ‘sharing the love’ and had a
website named presenceoflove. Think i stopped the website somewhere in 2015. My
new cage psyche actually thought i knew what love was and i was here to share
the love; talk about grandiosity.
- For the longest time i have held this
belief in some world of love and oneness, not seeing things for what they
really are. This was a way of spiritual bypassing for me instead of facing the
truth.
- Especially in the beginning of my
‘spiritual’ search, read a lot of self help books, Eckhart Tolle and the likes,
mixing and matching randomly, not following one dedicated path, and following authors or teachers
without knowing their foundation or lineage – generally a bad idea.
- Had Doreen Virtue’s meaning of numbers
book and Louis Hays book of affirmations. Didn’t have the discipline to do
affirmations but loved deriving special meaning from seeing combination of
numbers and actually thought the angels were guiding me that way. Believed that
i was guided by the angels to go to Australia and the angels got me a job in
Australia. Later found
out it was my karma bhumi, meaning i would only encounter hard karmic lessons.
- Bought into the lightworker nonsense,
feeling special as ‘i’ was on the earth to do sth good and visited some
spiritual circles and listened to the odd online ‘guided’ meditation by
Pleiadians or sth like that. Also remember some meditation with a merkaba called
diamond alignment.
Completely clueless about the energetic pollution that i was exposing
myself to as i really had no idea who i was opening myself up to or to what i
was connecting.
- Was impressed with people who were able to
channel. Did not consider what kind of energies could be coming through. Had no
clue about energy hygiene apart from believing in cutting cords as taught by
Doreen Virtue and Archangel Michael’s violet flame. My ignorance was extremely
high. Would like to urge seekers that energy
hygiene is very important and avoid these new age type of guided or channeled meditations,
especially the mass meditations, as you have no idea what you are opening your
energy field up to.
- Went to have a reading a few times. Also had
one or two small crystals which i kept on ‘my altar’. The new cage
smorgasbord fitted right in with my consumer attitude and doing as per how i
pleased, no discipline required but believing am living some special purpose.
- Believed in the soul mate, twin flame stuff and desperately wanted to be with my soul mate. This is all about human desires rather than the soul. This deluded desire got me into a lot of trouble and ended up dating two holographic inserts (ironically those without a soul), not only that but falling pregnant as well. One was even after meeting KaVeeTa and attending the Awakenin Transformation workshop. It is only the ati ati Daya aur Krupa of Paratpar Guru that the hideous energies in my womb were released. Sharing this openly as i know there are a lot of seekers out there still lost in the soul mate drama. The True Soul belongs to the Absolute and real union is the union between the Atma and Parmatma, the True Soul and the Absolute.
Forever indebted to Paratpar Guru
for taking me under Paratpar Guru's Wings, guiding me into the fold of Sanatana Dharma and waking me up to the Truth /\ô_ _/\ô_ /\ô_
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