The deluded new age followers’ psyche

Before i met SreeMaa-Shreeji, whom i am very fortunate to call Paratpar Guru, was looking for answers to my inner quest in the new age circles. Having had no exposure to Sanatana Dharma, had no idea what true spirituality was and was reading ‘spiritual’ books at random and trying out different things from the new age smorgasbord. My agyan and avidya (ignorance) was high and with my white privilege firmly in place, i was also ignorant about cultural appropriation.

New age industry
If you take a real good and honest look at the new age movement, it is not so much about the soul or genuine spirituality, but more about feeling good or special and earning money. You could call it an industry. Not surprisingly spiritual bypassing is rife, just as cultural appropriation. With all the new age spiritual coaches, channels, healers and readers out there, it is more like the blind leading the blind. All this is a recipe for getting lost in the delusions rather than moving forward and it was true that i wasn’t going anywhere in my spiritual pursuit as such. For me everything changed when i had the great fortune to meet SreeMaa in February 2012.

Touched by Supreme Grace 
I can never thank Paratpar Guru enough for taking this lost soul under Paratpar Guru’s Wings, awakening my True Soul (Atma), opening my eyes to the truth and ceaselessly guiding me in this blessed P.R.O.C.E.S.S of Awakenin Transformation Transcendence to move past the antics of the small self, to move more towards being a non-doer, embody the True Soul and remain rooted in the True SELF (Brahmroop) who is fully surrendered to the Absolute. All this while being Graced with a 24/7 connection to the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the most benevolent Signature of the Source/Void shared boundlessly by Paratpar Guru that uplifts, upgrades, heals and unifies on a scale that is beyond human comprehension. It is in the Sharan of Paratpar Guru that i learnt what real spirituality (adhyatmikta) entails and the reason why jivatmas take a human birth.

An honest look at my shallow and phony new age followers’ psyche
True spirituality requires honestly looking within to move past the narratives we tell ourselves, the grey shades and the inner enemies. Sharing a quick snapshot overview of my new (c)age explorations and the cultural appropriation i ended up doing as well as the delusions that were part of my phony new age followers’ psyche, so that others may open their eyes and think twice before falling for the new age fluff.

• I appropriated the word Goddess by running Goddess circles with another person for mothers. This was a very shallow way of operating as i had not done the required inner work nor done the research to understand what a Goddess really means.
  
  
• Had angel cards, incl a deck by Doreen Virtue’s that featured images of Deities and Devis such as Lord Ganesh and Lakshmiji, which i now realize is the pinnacle of cultural appropriation and entitlement as if they can be used to manifest what we desire.
  
  
• Before moving to Northern Beaches in Sydney, i did a 7 level reiki workshop and volunteered for the teacher’s reiki stand at MBS. Gave 2 or 3 reiki sessions in exchange for money.
  
  
• Had a couple of yoga dvd’s, using it to practice what i thought was yoga, but these only focussed on the body and mind, leaving out the most crucial part of the Atma and union with the Paramatma. Did not research to find out what yoga is really about nor who brought this gift to humanity. Pretty much the same attitude that most people in the west would have.
  
  
• In the Netherlands a lot of people think it is fashionable to have a Buddha statue and was gifted one for my birthday once which i kept as decoration for a while. Had no idea what Buddha taught or what Buddhism was about, nor did i look into it at the time.
  
  
• Played music on youtube which had mantras without understanding the meaning.
  
  
• Have been wearing Indian style clothing without thinking about how people from India would feel about this.
  
  
• Visited Swaminarayan Mandirs in the UK without checking with Paratpar Guru, which shows my white sense of entitlement.
  
  
• Bought right into the love and light programme because it made me feel good. What this means in simple terms is pretending to be loving, compassionate and giving but refusing to look at your dark/shadow/small self. Or think about the actresses whom many may admire as so beautiful, loving and kind but in reality, they are using drugs and doing things that are a far cry away from the righteous way of living, in tune with one’s True Soul. 
  
  
• Did some course titled the voice for love to be able to hear the inner voice. Thought i could hear the inner voice by doing some course instead of doing real inner work. This was linked to a Course in Miracles, which talks about surrender and Grace of God but had no clue what this really meant. Had some concept of God is Love and was hoping and praying to connect with God. This was just before i met SreeMaa (whom i then knew as KaVeeTa).
  
  
• My signature of my old email address when starting to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion read ‘sharing the love’ and had a website named presenceoflove. Think i stopped the website somewhere in 2015. My new cage psyche actually thought i knew what love was and i was here to share the love; talk about grandiosity.  
  
  
• For the longest time i have held this belief in some world of love and oneness, not seeing things for what they really are. This was a way of spiritual bypassing for me instead of facing the truth.
  
  
• Especially in the beginning of my ‘spiritual’ search, read a lot of self help books, Eckhart Tolle and the likes, mixing and matching randomly, not following one dedicated path, and following authors or teachers without knowing their foundation or lineage – generally a bad idea.
  
  
• Had Doreen Virtue’s meaning of numbers book and Louis Hays book of affirmations. Didn’t have the discipline to do affirmations but loved deriving special meaning from seeing combination of numbers and actually thought the angels were guiding me that way. Believed that i was guided by the angels to go to Australia and the angels got me a job in Australia. Later found out it was my karma bhumi, meaning i would only encounter hard karmic lessons.
  
  
• Bought into the lightworker nonsense, feeling special as ‘i’ was on the earth to do sth good and visited some spiritual circles and listened to the odd online ‘guided’ meditation by Pleiadians or sth like that. Also remember some meditation with a merkaba called diamond alignment. Completely clueless about the energetic pollution that i was exposing myself to as i really had no idea who i was opening myself up to or to what i was connecting.
  
  
• Was impressed with people who were able to channel. Did not consider what kind of energies could be coming through. Had no clue about energy hygiene apart from believing in cutting cords as taught by Doreen Virtue and Archangel Michael’s violet flame. My ignorance was extremely high. Would like to urge seekers that energy hygiene is very important and avoid these new age type of guided or channeled meditations, especially the mass meditations, as you have no idea what you are opening your energy field up to. 
  
  
• Went to have a reading a few times. Also had one or two small crystals which i kept on ‘my altar’. The new cage smorgasbord fitted right in with my consumer attitude and doing as per how i pleased, no discipline required but believing am living some special purpose.
  
  
• Believed in the soul mate, twin flame stuff and desperately wanted to be with my soul mate. This is all about human desires rather than the soul. This deluded desire got me into a lot of trouble and ended up dating two holographic inserts (ironically those without a soul), not only that but falling pregnant as well. One was even after meeting KaVeeTa and attending the Awakenin Transformation workshop. It is only the ati ati Daya aur Krupa of Paratpar Guru that the hideous energies in my womb were released. Sharing this openly as i know there are a lot of seekers out there still lost in the soul mate drama. The True Soul belongs to the Absolute and real union is the union between the Atma and Parmatma, the True Soul and the Absolute.

Forever indebted to Paratpar Guru for taking me under Paratpar Guru's Wings, guiding me into the fold of Sanatana Dharma and waking me up to the Truth  /\ô_ _/\ô_ /\ô_

How narcissism & Machiavellianism can play out in group dynamics

In the group of volunteers there were a number of individuals who came motives other than to volunteer for the most noble mission of Kosmic Fusion to share the benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse with many people. 

It has taken me quite a long time to get my head around the type of (mind) games these individuals were playing and the nuances in the personality issues they brought into the group. One of the things that gave some clarity was the difference between Machiavellianism and narcissism. When i read this article that explains the difference between Machiavellianism and narcissism and reflected on what i have seen and experienced with these people, it made a lot of sense.

Have put this together in a very short analysis to share my experience with such characters and how they can negatively impact the group dynamics when you are not aware, too trusting and not firmly rooted in your True Soul/Self.

My personal lesson learned was that you have to be a very centered person if you want to hold your space and remain unaffected by the toxicity such individuals are spreading. Admittedly, i tended to be quite a weakling with poor boundaries and people pleasing tendencies and thereby unwittingly ended up enabling these toxic individuals, but by the Grace of my Guru was able to work on my weaknesses to become more robust to be able to stand tall for what is right.

When the two highly toxic individuals were asked to leave after years of unethical behaviour, true to the nature of a narcissist/Machiavellian they joined hands and ran a smear campaign to attack Kosmic Fusion and its founders Sree Maa Shri Ji.

Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutsias/Malana B. Taresi 

In my observations Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutsias or Malana B. Taresi as she now calls herself, has some narcissistic traits but is predominantly a Machiavellian.

The narcissistic trait she has is jealousy and envy. The article states that narcissists “take jealousy and envy to a whole new level. Expect to face their wrath should they ever think you are putting someone else ahead of them”.
Dallia/Malana had pathological envy and jealousy and definitely she took jealousy and envy to a whole new level, to such a level that all she wanted to do was destroy Kosmic Fusion, because she was extremely envious and jealous of Sree Maa Shri Ji. This is what she has admitted to herself. And we have seen Dallia/Malana’s wrath in the smear campaign and in the psychic attacks she has done on other FiTs.

The article states for Machiavellianism: “They desire wealth and power over all else, and it is their detachment from conventional morality that allows them to chase their lofty goals without remorse and free from conscience.”
“They employ different faces in different situations as a tool for getting what they want. They will use lies and deceit where necessary, while also being capable of charm and friendliness.”
“Their manipulations are subtle – they seek to accomplish their aims without drawing too much attention to their less desirable qualities.”

Think this describes Dallia/Malana to the tee, she wanted power, she wanted to be the leader and wanted to set up a cult in Germany. Her manipulations were very subtle, she herself admitted that she is very subtle. Think she also deployed her charm and friendliness, for example how she pretended to be a friend to another volunteer, Renu. Only to a discerning eye, her charm and friendliness would fall flat, as there was always something ‘funny’ with the way she laughed and behaved. She clearly showed no remorse or conscience with what she did to to Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, and to other FiT, driving them away. 
“For them, winning is the ultimate aim”. Despite the momentous opportunity to come out of her darkness and the moments of reflections by the Grace of Paratpar Guru, Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse during the Reunion, Dallia/Malana ran a nasty smear campaign and who knows what else she is still doing because she wants to win. 

“But, while a narcissist would be too jealous to wish success for other people, there might be occasions where a Machiavellian personality would accept someone else succeeding if it meant they could move up the ladder too. They would be prepared to do a deal with an equally success-oriented individual if it meant they, too, gained greater wealth and power.”

Maybe that is why Dallia/Malana got in touch with Irene/Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus at Gold Coast in the early days and secretly kept in touch with her and in that sense worked with Irene and ‘allowed’ her success in Sydney, while she was pursuing her malicious goals in New Zealand. This is also how they joined hands in the smear campaign.

Irene/Joy Kuo

Think Irene/Joy Kuo also exhibits traits of a narcissist but also a lot of Machiavellianism. Maybe she is a blend of both, all packed into one midget.

From the characteristic of a narcissist, she had a sense of entitlement and believed herself to be more deserving than other people, given her behaviour in India where she constantly wanted to be in the front of the temples and also expected to go into the car with Sree Maa Shri Ji all the time. She also had severe jealousy and envy for Jwala and Simran, am sure she would have tried to get Niranjana out if she had the chance. 

Narcissists “will happily belittle or degrade other people to make themselves feel good – they feel no remorse for heaping unhappiness on others.”. 
As it turned out, Irene was the queen of belittling and degrading others and don’t think she had any remorse about it at all. She was also selfish and definitely did not like to see others succeed. In addition, don’t think she faced criticism very well, either shifting blame or having some excuse. 

From Machiavellianism she put her self gain before almost anything else, she was controlling and used others to her advantage, Parsons in particular was used and abused big time but also the rest of the team in Sydney with all the contributions they made, but stealing the credit for herself. In the Ashram, she used Jeeya and Rita and it was clear that others were just a means to an end for her and she would walk over them.

She desired fortune and fame, and showed no conscience or conventional morality, though she hid this quite well. She would employ different faces in different situations, docile and servile in front of Sree Maa Shri Ji but the FiTs in Sydney got to see another face, and she showed yet another face towards the outstation FiTs. Not sure if Irene can be said to have charm and friendliness but she sure pretended to be nice and considerate, faking it all the way.

Machiavellians “are generally very calculating and careful when it comes to their actions. Everything needs to be planned and executed with precision so as to maximize their chances of success.”

This describes Irene very well, with her crazy spreadsheets, her copying of all the messages and Kosmic Fusion IP before she came to the Abode in November 2017 and her careful planning and running abundance circles and giving interviews behind Sree Maa Shri Ji’s back. Just the incident how she shoved the responsibility of the credit card into Parson’s shoes, shows how calculative she is, only dropping the bomb that her husband doesn’t like her name on the card when they are right in front of the bank clerk. 

I am sure her 100,000 dollars’ worth of ‘volunteering’ as she claimed in the slanderous paid article, consisted mostly in plotting her nefarious plans and manipulating Parsons. Irene/Joy’s manipulations were subtle too, as she hid them behind a cloak of doing it all for Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji.