i am extremely sorry and apologize from the bottom of my heart to Sree Maa Shri Ji, to the other FiTs and to the people whom have been held back from receiving the Grace of the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. By enabling the covert narcissists that snuck into the FiT Programme have inadvertently slowed down Sree Maa and the mission of Kosmic Fusion.
Covert narcissists are very hard to spot, and they are very good at playing your weaknesses. My kalyan mitra Archita shared a quote she found about covert narcissists that i think is very apt: “covert narcissist is the worst kind of narcissist there is. Like a stealth bomb, you can’t see them coming until they have left their destruction.”
Unfortunately, narcissists are drawn to empaths and empathetic people and roam around in spiritual circles, not because they want to serve others or to work on themselves and spiritually progress but because there, they can find a large unsuspecting supply. Supply of trusting people with forgiving and kind qualities they can drain energetically and manipulate for attention and other resources as well. It is only by the Grace and protection of Sree Maa Shri Ji and the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that i am still standing and that i am still here.
Ignorance, unawareness and self-preservation
Completely fell for the image that Joy Kuo was projecting of a hard-working, dedicated volunteer and later on devotee. Interestingly, it is a fact that covert narcissists often come across as polite and well-behaved, as is explained in this article. There was at times evidence or behaviours from her side to the contrary but this cognitive dissonance i didn’t solve by asking the right questions or finding out what was really going on in Sydney.
Now, when i read the characteristics of a covert narcissists i can see that both Joy and Iphigenie literally tick all the boxes. At the time, had no clue but should have at least asked some questions and done research about narcissism when it first came to light mid 2016 that Rita/Nandini had narcissistic tendencies. It is almost uncanny how their games are exactly like you read in the textbooks about narcissism.
Straight from the start Sree Maa has taught about being the non-doer; the golden rule was to step back and let the All-Knowing QVSWPP step in. The FiT Programme gave us the opportunity to practice this sincerely, but my doer and arrogance did step in at times and that paved the way for the narcissists to create chaos. For example, raised my hand at the 2016 Retreat for Bhakti Bhaav. Initially felt hesitation and didn’t feel ready at all but arrogance took over.
What is more i was among those who attempted to write about Bhakti Bhaav following this Retreat whereas i didn’t have a clue what it was, very much a novice at it and it is something one can only offer by the Grace of Bhagwan and Satpurush. By putting up my hand and attempting to write about it, completely failed to show respect for Sree Maa Shri Ji’s paramekantik Bhakti to Bhagwan Swaminarayan which we receive most graciously as the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. Never ever did i publish any of the drafts, but the narcissists made use of this situation to write their own flyers and promotions portraying themselves as great devotees and actually going ahead with printing it, trying to deceive innocent seekers with their lies. Sree Maa immediately put a stop to all workshops when this happened to protect innocent people.
Was so deeply asleep that for the longest time did not clue on to the subtle and sly ways in which Iphigenie was spreading her poison in the group, constantly creating confusion and planting seeds of doubts and doing everything to fulfil her mission to destroy Kosmic Fusion. Even after the India Pilgrimage where Iphigenie’s behaviour was rude and appalling and i even questioned her why she was in the Ashram, i did not approach Sree Maa to ask Sree Maa Shri Ji how is Sree Maa doing. Sree Maa travelled a lot, was out of the Ashram a lot after Iphigenie moved in and that should have been a big hint. The least i should have done was to enquire what is happening in the Ashram, show interest from the bottom of my heart about the wellbeing of my ultimate Well-Wisher. Yet i never asked.
What i ended up doing is exploiting the kindness and Compassion of the one i hold most dear, beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji. Ended up enabling two covert malignant narcissists who created horrendous harassment to Sree Maa Shri Ji and also to other FiTs. Sree Maa was always protecting us, taking the attacks from the narcissists on herself, but i miserably failed to keep the side of Sree Maa when Sree Maa was silently enduring all the harassment at the Ashram House at the hands of the narcissists.