Homage to Paratpar Guru

Words are still falling short, as there are so many things that i have learnt about Paratpar Guru on the FiT Programme that show without a doubt the Mahima and Mahatmya of Paratpar Guru and also that there is only a glimpse i can catch, the enigma and Divinity is beyond measure 🙇🏻‍♀️🙏

Paratpar Guru always walks Paratpar Guru’s talk, everything that Paratpar Guru has taught, Paratpar Guru has shown in action. 

Paratpar Guru has taught me what it is to be real and to come down from illusory castles in the sky or delusional lala lands and taught me about true Love and Oneness and profoundly touched this meritless jivatma with the Supreme Love of Bhagwan, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. A touch that changed everything. 

Paratpar Guru has touched the very core of me and awakened my Atma. Think it was in one of my letters in 2014 that i wrote, the Love and Grace with which KaVeeTa SuNiEl embraced a lost soul like me truly shows the Benevolence of God. Paratpar Guru has shown the very meaning of Benevolence, ati ati Dayalu and Paramkrupalu. 

Paratpar Guru has shown a Compassion and Empathy that is beyond human comprehension, not just to humans but to all living beings. Remember Paratpar Guru Gracing flies on the bus with a birth in Satsang. The Compassion and Daya oozing from Paratpar Guru’s Lotus Eyes is something out of this world, Paratpar Guru is the very living embodiment of Grace and Compassion.

Paratpar Guru’s Divine Presence, Eyes and smile are magnetic. Wherever Paratpar Guru walks the Earth is blessed and positive shifts occur, whatever Paratpar Guru touches becomes Prasad. In Paratpar Guru’s Presence time ceases to exist. During the India Pilgrimage, remember how the thornless Bordri tree touched Paratpar Guru and the Devta of the sea made sure to offer his pranaams to Paratpar Guru. To have Darshan of Paratpar Guru is a Blessing indeed, something that should not be taken for granted. Remember during the Reunion Paratpar Guru explained that we don’t have proper Darshan of Paratpar Guru, and that is true. A photo with the Vibhu Swaroop Darshan was already on the stands in 2012, but at the time i was not able to comprehend the Greatness. 

Paratpar Guru’s Discourses are unparalleled, just like the workshops always fresh, new, in a flow exactly tailored to whomever is present. Paratpar Guru’s Paravarni is so Divine that Muktos come to listen. Paratpar Guru has brought the most precious Absolute Teachings to live, The Supreme Teachings in the Vachanamrut, Bhagavad Gita and other Satshastras have become a living experience. We’ve all ordered the book the Bhagavad Gita comes alive but think Paratpar Guru has made the Bhagavad Gita come alive like no other. Only the One with a perfect Gnan and understanding can orchestrate such a masterful FiT Programme and teach the Absolute Truth in a way that is fit in this Kali Yuga and with a bunch of student and disciples that were not born in India let alone in Satsang and had very little or no clue about Sanatana Dharma and of such a mixed background and quality of jivatma. And this too with modern-day analogies, jokes and practical examples, all perfectly suited to remove the darkness of ignorance and awaken us to the Absolute Truth. 

Paratpar Guru teaches in seen and unseen ways whatever is needed for the kalyan of the jivatma, to bring us closer to embodying the True Soul and attaining Brahmroop, and to understand the Mahima and Mahatmya of Bhagwan. Paratpar Guru also tests to make sure we remember to choose wisely and not the rope. Evidence and data are there for the mind to grasp but the experience speaks louder than words. And then there are moments of sublime Stillness immersed in the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse or laying down in Paratpar Guru’s Lotus Feet.    

Each Word Paratpar Guru speaks holds weight. Whatever Paratpar Guru speaks happens. Paratpar Guru has taught me to read above, below and in between the lines – the prophecies, hints, cues are profound and plenty and am still learning to pick up on them. 

Paratpar Guru has shown me what levelling means, to meet the student where they are and lift them up. Paratpar Guru Shriji have shown me what true humility means, to wash the feet of the FiTs and welcome each one in the Divine Family of Sree Maa Shri Ji. We are so fortunate, and to be embraced by Paratpar Guru feels like coming home.

Paratpar Guru has shown me what true commitment means, no matter the time a day or night Paratpar Guru is available. Paratpar Guru has shown what it is to hold someone’s hands and not give up on the spark within. SreeMaa has shown what it means to sacrifice and be paropkari. Paratpar Guru has taken on so much of our slush, taken on kasht and pain so that we can be guided and endure less suffering. Examples are countless, from all that Paratpar Guru Shriji have taken on for the Transcendence, the impact of car accident, Paratpar Guru’s saree catching fire, most recently the kasht taken to be able to join dots for us and spoon feed us. We truly owe Paratpar Guru our life. 

Paratpar Guru is the epitome of selflessness, Paratpar Guru tirelessly gives of Paratpar Guru’s time, energy, Guidance and Compassion. The most exemplary example for us to move beyond the small self. Paratpar Guru hears the call of genuine mumukshus but never shies away to touch even the densest of dense with the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. Paratpar Guru has shown what courage is, to take risks, even risking KaVeeTa’s life for the benefit of someone’s jivatma. No better inspiration to move beyond the comfort zone and take the plunge.

Paratpar Guru has shown what is true Bhakti, paramekantik Bhakti; we are so blessed to receive Paratpar Guru’s living Bhakti to Bhagwan Swaminarayan as the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse and to have been introduced to the secret of the supersonic shortcut, the beautiful Bhakti Marga. Paratpar Guru has shown incredible Shakti, Bhakti ki Shakti that can turn salty jeevs sweet. Paratpar Guru has shown what it means to be a non-doer, be the nimit through which the Supreme Almighty can work. We are most fortunate tobe introduced to Swaminarayan Bhagwan, Paratpar Guru’s Sadguru and isht-Bhagwan, The Ultimate and Absolute who have shown up and spoken through Paratpar Guru. Paratpar Guru has Graced us with so many beautiful Leela Charitras and Shreeji Maharaj’s Divine Teachings, shared and taught in such an innermost and beautiful way, almost as if we were there 200 years ago. 

Paratpar Guru Teachings, Guidance and feedback always come at the perfect time, there is no doubt about the antaryami powers. Paratpar Guru knows when to give, what to give in which dose. Paratpar Guru knows each one of us inside out and knows what to deliver to annihilate the noisy ego and bring the Shuddha Atma where it belongs, in the Lotus Feet of Sarvopari Swaminarayan Bhagwan. 

Knowing the complexity of the jivatma, mind and human psychology, Paratpar Guru has graced us with very practical Guidance and tools to do the inner work required and the motivation whenever we hit a slump, given us crucial insights into self-talk, self-discipline and has shown us like no other what is means to put in purushartha. Paratpar Guru has taught discernment and never to judge. This is what Paratpar Guru has demonstrated in action also, not to judge but to base assessments or conclusions on evidence. 

Paratpar Guru has always been there with sage advice, practical Guidance and solutions for problems no matter what level they may manifest. Paratpar Guru has also kindly shared examples from KaVeeTa’s, Sree Maa Shri Ji’s life that we may face everything with courage and learn to take everything as a Blessing and grow from it. 

Paratpar Guru has shown us what it means to care, to care about the Atma, to protect and stand for Truth, for Dharma. No matter what was going on, Paratpar Guru has always protected us, divinely intervened and intercepted to stand by our Atma and make sure no black marks would come in the karan sharir, and always supported and encouraged us to develop and practice our Swadharma. 

When surrounded by chaos and those with malicious intentions, nothing could touch Paratpar Guru, and Paratpar Guru skillfully knew which master strokes to deliver, Kootneeti in action. Think there is much more to contemplate and dots to join so that this meritless jivatma can understand more about the masterful moves delivered on the FiT Programme.

Paratpar Guru Shriji have brought this Glorious Mother of All Energies, Frequencies and Vibrations, Supreme Signature of the Source/Void, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse onto the Planet. That which touches the Zero-Point in all and gives a glimpse of our highest potential. That which connects all into Oneness and so many demonstrations where SreeMaa shared Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse with one and we all felt it. Indeed, on the FiT Programme, we have been given the most amazing opportunity to come to experience and understand the interconnectedness of the micro and the macro, the cosmos within and without, the multi-dimensional work that Paratpar Guru does. There is no doubt that whatever happens in the FiT programme creates shifts in the world, in this broken Galaxy and the Universe as well, and there are still many more dots for us to join here.

Paratpar Guru has taught me that the Divine works in mysterious ways, beyond what the human mind can understand, and best is to revel in the mystery, trust the Supreme and come to surrender fully in the Lotus Feet of Paratpar Guru /\ô_ /\ô_ /\ô_

The deluded new age followers’ psyche

Before i met SreeMaa-Shreeji, whom i am very fortunate to call Paratpar Guru, was looking for answers to my inner quest in the new age circles. Having had no exposure to Sanatana Dharma, had no idea what true spirituality was and was reading ‘spiritual’ books at random and trying out different things from the new age smorgasbord. My agyan and avidya (ignorance) was high and with my white privilege firmly in place, i was also ignorant about cultural appropriation.

New age industry
If you take a real good and honest look at the new age movement, it is not so much about the soul or genuine spirituality, but more about feeling good or special and earning money. You could call it an industry. Not surprisingly spiritual bypassing is rife, just as cultural appropriation. With all the new age spiritual coaches, channels, healers and readers out there, it is more like the blind leading the blind. All this is a recipe for getting lost in the delusions rather than moving forward and it was true that i wasn’t going anywhere in my spiritual pursuit as such. For me everything changed when i had the great fortune to meet SreeMaa in February 2012.

Touched by Supreme Grace 
I can never thank Paratpar Guru enough for taking this lost soul under Paratpar Guru’s Wings, awakening my True Soul (Atma), opening my eyes to the truth and ceaselessly guiding me in this blessed P.R.O.C.E.S.S of Awakenin Transformation Transcendence to move past the antics of the small self, to move more towards being a non-doer, embody the True Soul and remain rooted in the True SELF (Brahmroop) who is fully surrendered to the Absolute. All this while being Graced with a 24/7 connection to the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, the most benevolent Signature of the Source/Void shared boundlessly by Paratpar Guru that uplifts, upgrades, heals and unifies on a scale that is beyond human comprehension. It is in the Sharan of Paratpar Guru that i learnt what real spirituality (adhyatmikta) entails and the reason why jivatmas take a human birth.

An honest look at my shallow and phony new age followers’ psyche
True spirituality requires honestly looking within to move past the narratives we tell ourselves, the grey shades and the inner enemies. Sharing a quick snapshot overview of my new (c)age explorations and the cultural appropriation i ended up doing as well as the delusions that were part of my phony new age followers’ psyche, so that others may open their eyes and think twice before falling for the new age fluff.

• I appropriated the word Goddess by running Goddess circles with another person for mothers. This was a very shallow way of operating as i had not done the required inner work nor done the research to understand what a Goddess really means.
  
  
• Had angel cards, incl a deck by Doreen Virtue’s that featured images of Deities and Devis such as Lord Ganesh and Lakshmiji, which i now realize is the pinnacle of cultural appropriation and entitlement as if they can be used to manifest what we desire.
  
  
• Before moving to Northern Beaches in Sydney, i did a 7 level reiki workshop and volunteered for the teacher’s reiki stand at MBS. Gave 2 or 3 reiki sessions in exchange for money.
  
  
• Had a couple of yoga dvd’s, using it to practice what i thought was yoga, but these only focussed on the body and mind, leaving out the most crucial part of the Atma and union with the Paramatma. Did not research to find out what yoga is really about nor who brought this gift to humanity. Pretty much the same attitude that most people in the west would have.
  
  
• In the Netherlands a lot of people think it is fashionable to have a Buddha statue and was gifted one for my birthday once which i kept as decoration for a while. Had no idea what Buddha taught or what Buddhism was about, nor did i look into it at the time.
  
  
• Played music on youtube which had mantras without understanding the meaning.
  
  
• Have been wearing Indian style clothing without thinking about how people from India would feel about this.
  
  
• Visited Swaminarayan Mandirs in the UK without checking with Paratpar Guru, which shows my white sense of entitlement.
  
  
• Bought right into the love and light programme because it made me feel good. What this means in simple terms is pretending to be loving, compassionate and giving but refusing to look at your dark/shadow/small self. Or think about the actresses whom many may admire as so beautiful, loving and kind but in reality, they are using drugs and doing things that are a far cry away from the righteous way of living, in tune with one’s True Soul. 
  
  
• Did some course titled the voice for love to be able to hear the inner voice. Thought i could hear the inner voice by doing some course instead of doing real inner work. This was linked to a Course in Miracles, which talks about surrender and Grace of God but had no clue what this really meant. Had some concept of God is Love and was hoping and praying to connect with God. This was just before i met SreeMaa (whom i then knew as KaVeeTa).
  
  
• My signature of my old email address when starting to volunteer for Kosmic Fusion read ‘sharing the love’ and had a website named presenceoflove. Think i stopped the website somewhere in 2015. My new cage psyche actually thought i knew what love was and i was here to share the love; talk about grandiosity.  
  
  
• For the longest time i have held this belief in some world of love and oneness, not seeing things for what they really are. This was a way of spiritual bypassing for me instead of facing the truth.
  
  
• Especially in the beginning of my ‘spiritual’ search, read a lot of self help books, Eckhart Tolle and the likes, mixing and matching randomly, not following one dedicated path, and following authors or teachers without knowing their foundation or lineage – generally a bad idea.
  
  
• Had Doreen Virtue’s meaning of numbers book and Louis Hays book of affirmations. Didn’t have the discipline to do affirmations but loved deriving special meaning from seeing combination of numbers and actually thought the angels were guiding me that way. Believed that i was guided by the angels to go to Australia and the angels got me a job in Australia. Later found out it was my karma bhumi, meaning i would only encounter hard karmic lessons.
  
  
• Bought into the lightworker nonsense, feeling special as ‘i’ was on the earth to do sth good and visited some spiritual circles and listened to the odd online ‘guided’ meditation by Pleiadians or sth like that. Also remember some meditation with a merkaba called diamond alignment. Completely clueless about the energetic pollution that i was exposing myself to as i really had no idea who i was opening myself up to or to what i was connecting.
  
  
• Was impressed with people who were able to channel. Did not consider what kind of energies could be coming through. Had no clue about energy hygiene apart from believing in cutting cords as taught by Doreen Virtue and Archangel Michael’s violet flame. My ignorance was extremely high. Would like to urge seekers that energy hygiene is very important and avoid these new age type of guided or channeled meditations, especially the mass meditations, as you have no idea what you are opening your energy field up to. 
  
  
• Went to have a reading a few times. Also had one or two small crystals which i kept on ‘my altar’. The new cage smorgasbord fitted right in with my consumer attitude and doing as per how i pleased, no discipline required but believing am living some special purpose.
  
  
• Believed in the soul mate, twin flame stuff and desperately wanted to be with my soul mate. This is all about human desires rather than the soul. This deluded desire got me into a lot of trouble and ended up dating two holographic inserts (ironically those without a soul), not only that but falling pregnant as well. One was even after meeting KaVeeTa and attending the Awakenin Transformation workshop. It is only the ati ati Daya aur Krupa of Paratpar Guru that the hideous energies in my womb were released. Sharing this openly as i know there are a lot of seekers out there still lost in the soul mate drama. The True Soul belongs to the Absolute and real union is the union between the Atma and Parmatma, the True Soul and the Absolute.

Forever indebted to Paratpar Guru for taking me under Paratpar Guru's Wings, guiding me into the fold of Sanatana Dharma and waking me up to the Truth  /\ô_ _/\ô_ /\ô_

How narcissism & Machiavellianism can play out in group dynamics

In the group of volunteers there were a number of individuals who came motives other than to volunteer for the most noble mission of Kosmic Fusion to share the benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse with many people. 

It has taken me quite a long time to get my head around the type of (mind) games these individuals were playing and the nuances in the personality issues they brought into the group. One of the things that gave some clarity was the difference between Machiavellianism and narcissism. When i read this article that explains the difference between Machiavellianism and narcissism and reflected on what i have seen and experienced with these people, it made a lot of sense.

Have put this together in a very short analysis to share my experience with such characters and how they can negatively impact the group dynamics when you are not aware, too trusting and not firmly rooted in your True Soul/Self.

My personal lesson learned was that you have to be a very centered person if you want to hold your space and remain unaffected by the toxicity such individuals are spreading. Admittedly, i tended to be quite a weakling with poor boundaries and people pleasing tendencies and thereby unwittingly ended up enabling these toxic individuals, but by the Grace of my Guru was able to work on my weaknesses to become more robust to be able to stand tall for what is right.

When the two highly toxic individuals were asked to leave after years of unethical behaviour, true to the nature of a narcissist/Machiavellian they joined hands and ran a smear campaign to attack Kosmic Fusion and its founders Sree Maa Shri Ji.

Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutsias/Malana B. Taresi 

In my observations Dallia/Iphigenie Amoutsias or Malana B. Taresi as she now calls herself, has some narcissistic traits but is predominantly a Machiavellian.

The narcissistic trait she has is jealousy and envy. The article states that narcissists “take jealousy and envy to a whole new level. Expect to face their wrath should they ever think you are putting someone else ahead of them”.
Dallia/Malana had pathological envy and jealousy and definitely she took jealousy and envy to a whole new level, to such a level that all she wanted to do was destroy Kosmic Fusion, because she was extremely envious and jealous of Sree Maa Shri Ji. This is what she has admitted to herself. And we have seen Dallia/Malana’s wrath in the smear campaign and in the psychic attacks she has done on other FiTs.

The article states for Machiavellianism: “They desire wealth and power over all else, and it is their detachment from conventional morality that allows them to chase their lofty goals without remorse and free from conscience.”
“They employ different faces in different situations as a tool for getting what they want. They will use lies and deceit where necessary, while also being capable of charm and friendliness.”
“Their manipulations are subtle – they seek to accomplish their aims without drawing too much attention to their less desirable qualities.”

Think this describes Dallia/Malana to the tee, she wanted power, she wanted to be the leader and wanted to set up a cult in Germany. Her manipulations were very subtle, she herself admitted that she is very subtle. Think she also deployed her charm and friendliness, for example how she pretended to be a friend to another volunteer, Renu. Only to a discerning eye, her charm and friendliness would fall flat, as there was always something ‘funny’ with the way she laughed and behaved. She clearly showed no remorse or conscience with what she did to to Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, and to other FiT, driving them away. 
“For them, winning is the ultimate aim”. Despite the momentous opportunity to come out of her darkness and the moments of reflections by the Grace of Paratpar Guru, Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse during the Reunion, Dallia/Malana ran a nasty smear campaign and who knows what else she is still doing because she wants to win. 

“But, while a narcissist would be too jealous to wish success for other people, there might be occasions where a Machiavellian personality would accept someone else succeeding if it meant they could move up the ladder too. They would be prepared to do a deal with an equally success-oriented individual if it meant they, too, gained greater wealth and power.”

Maybe that is why Dallia/Malana got in touch with Irene/Joy Kuo/Joy Vottus at Gold Coast in the early days and secretly kept in touch with her and in that sense worked with Irene and ‘allowed’ her success in Sydney, while she was pursuing her malicious goals in New Zealand. This is also how they joined hands in the smear campaign.

Irene/Joy Kuo

Think Irene/Joy Kuo also exhibits traits of a narcissist but also a lot of Machiavellianism. Maybe she is a blend of both, all packed into one midget.

From the characteristic of a narcissist, she had a sense of entitlement and believed herself to be more deserving than other people, given her behaviour in India where she constantly wanted to be in the front of the temples and also expected to go into the car with Sree Maa Shri Ji all the time. She also had severe jealousy and envy for Jwala and Simran, am sure she would have tried to get Niranjana out if she had the chance. 

Narcissists “will happily belittle or degrade other people to make themselves feel good – they feel no remorse for heaping unhappiness on others.”. 
As it turned out, Irene was the queen of belittling and degrading others and don’t think she had any remorse about it at all. She was also selfish and definitely did not like to see others succeed. In addition, don’t think she faced criticism very well, either shifting blame or having some excuse. 

From Machiavellianism she put her self gain before almost anything else, she was controlling and used others to her advantage, Parsons in particular was used and abused big time but also the rest of the team in Sydney with all the contributions they made, but stealing the credit for herself. In the Ashram, she used Jeeya and Rita and it was clear that others were just a means to an end for her and she would walk over them.

She desired fortune and fame, and showed no conscience or conventional morality, though she hid this quite well. She would employ different faces in different situations, docile and servile in front of Sree Maa Shri Ji but the FiTs in Sydney got to see another face, and she showed yet another face towards the outstation FiTs. Not sure if Irene can be said to have charm and friendliness but she sure pretended to be nice and considerate, faking it all the way.

Machiavellians “are generally very calculating and careful when it comes to their actions. Everything needs to be planned and executed with precision so as to maximize their chances of success.”

This describes Irene very well, with her crazy spreadsheets, her copying of all the messages and Kosmic Fusion IP before she came to the Abode in November 2017 and her careful planning and running abundance circles and giving interviews behind Sree Maa Shri Ji’s back. Just the incident how she shoved the responsibility of the credit card into Parson’s shoes, shows how calculative she is, only dropping the bomb that her husband doesn’t like her name on the card when they are right in front of the bank clerk. 

I am sure her 100,000 dollars’ worth of ‘volunteering’ as she claimed in the slanderous paid article, consisted mostly in plotting her nefarious plans and manipulating Parsons. Irene/Joy’s manipulations were subtle too, as she hid them behind a cloak of doing it all for Kosmic Fusion and Sree Maa Shri Ji.

My response to "Awakening with Joy's" cult attack claims

This is my response to 'Awakening with Joy Vottus' cult attack claims based on my own experience with her. You can skim through the video if you like, using the following timestamps:

0:00 min: Why the claims are baseless (with clear evidence)
5:40 min: What's really behind the attack (see also my other blog)
6:48 min: Lessons learned and signs to watch out for (spoiler alert: someone who always plays the victim)
10:50 min: What Joy Vottus has actually done (with proofs)

Miraculous healing with Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse

The Gift of the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that Sree Maa Shri Ji share with the world is absolutely priceless. It is impossible to find the right words to describe something that is so Supreme, Gracious, Benevolent and Loving.

One of the reasons that i knew from the start this was different, the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse was unlike anything i had experienced before is the following. 

Since i was about 15 had been struggling with an eating disorder, first anorexia and this later turned into b.e.d., binge eating disorder. This dominated my life and my thinking, my whole day pretty much revolved around eating and exercise. Had tried almost everything under the sun to overcome this eating disorder, all kinds of therapies and all sorts of new age modalities, but nothing worked…

Then everything changed when Sree Maa Shri Ji came into my life and graced me with a 24/7 connection to the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse. It was a watershed moment on many fronts but one of the amazing things that happened was that the eating disorder just went away like that without me having to do anything. It melted like snow in the sun!

The way Sree Maa explained it is that while tuning in with the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse the connection between the Antaryami and my shuddha Atma (pure Soul) became so strong, that the issue that was in the sukshma sharir (the subtle body) just dropped away. The Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse that was spreading through me went in to such an extent while It was being shared that It created a cellular shift, plus the water in which the programme of the eating disorder was held got released.

This kind of spontaneous miraculous can happen with the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse by the Utmost Grace and Will of the Absolute.

This most beautiful Signature of the Source-Void, this amazing Gift is available to humanity right now by the loving Grace of Sree Maa Shri Ji to support all who are ready to receive in their spiritual path of awakening, transformation and transcendence ❤️

Forever indebted and grateful to Sree Maa Shri Ji, truly the living embodiment of Grace and Compassion _/\_ _/\ô__

Utopian oneness

Love and oneness - sounds beautiful doesn’t it? i was a believer in a utopian oneness, the kind of ‘one love, one light, one happy world’. It is a belief that circulates a lot in new age circles. When i joined the FiT Programme, this belief came with me.

i saw everyone through this lens and believed that all the other people who joined the FiT Programme came with the same genuine intention. But i was wrong. There is no one universal path and one universal way as on this planet everyone is different, the gradation of souls is different. Yet i kept believing in this oneness and not adequately reflecting on the precious teachings Sree Maa was giving. 

At the start of the Retreat in 2016, Sree Maa told us about the Samudra Manthan in which there were devas (heavenly beings) and danavas (demonic beings), but i never looked if there were possibly any danavas sitting in our group…

As it turned out there were. Some of ones who joined the FiT Programme came with devious hidden intentions of stealing and destruction and sadly they never changed, though they were given the most gracious opportunity to do so. For a very long time i was completely oblivious to this and trusted each one completely.

All this while i was wearing these rose coloured glasses and kept believing in this oneness, which gave the toxic people the opportunity to manipulate me and use me. They would steal credit, would marginalize and minimize me, would come up with excuses to make me all do the work and i didn’t mind as i thought we are doing this as one team for the mission of Kosmic Fusion.

Because of my trusting nature and false beliefs, i failed to clue on to what was really going on and did not realize that people are not exactly what they show. Some of the toxic ones were subtly spreading their poison in the group, creating disharmony and driving people away.

Sree Maa was enduring a lot of harassment at the hands of the toxic ones in the Ashram and i only woke up to this once their masks were literally falling off as i was living in some lala land. 

Never asked the right questions or joined the dots even though there were moments and clues where i could have woken up and smelled the coffee. This is not about judging others but coming from clarity and discernment is important.  

It is my own nature that made me fail to see clearly and take action when some of the people were damaging the mission of Kosmic Fusion. When we cling to false beliefs it can be very damaging. 

Oneness at the level of the world is impossible. Oneness at the level of Atma, True Self is another matter. The potential of the Absolute is present in each one. In the 2015 Retreat we had experienced such priceless fusion and love through the most Gracious initiations bestowed by Sree Maa Shri Ji which i will humbly write about in another blog.

Interviews with my dear kalyan mitras

Earlier this year flew down to Sydney to meet with my dear kalyan mitras to reflect back on our phenomenal journey of the last couple of years with beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji in the FiT Programme and Kosmic Fusion.

There is so much to share but in my humble understanding the essence of it is unfathomable Grace, Sree Maa Shri Ji's pure Grace, Compassion and Kindness and total selflessness that has propelled us onto and forward on the journey towards our True SELF, the Brahmroop. Even though we have made many mistakes due to our inner weaknesses and flaws, learning at the expense of Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, Sree Maa never let go of our hands and keeps ushering forward. With the GPS installed, the most benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse shared unconditionally by Sree Maa Shri Ji, and the Shelter of Sree Maa Shri Ji's gracious Wing we are most fortunate to be on the path of liberation Homebound.

Welcome you to watch our frank and heartfelt interviews about our transformational journeys:

















 Please stay tuned, more interviews coming :)