Saturday, 27 October 2018
2015 FiT Retreat - Absolute Hug
Sree Maa Shri Ji showered so many Initiations and Blessings during the 2015 Kawai Pura Pura Retreat, it would take pages to share them all.
Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with the Biggest Gift of non-action and being an akarmi and really helped us move deeper into this at this Retreat. Dynamic and experiential as the workshops always are, we practised this with giving each other a hug, where we could move beyond the sense of “i” am hugging, into a sense of there is no one there but the hugging is happening and deeper still to go beyond the hugger, hugged or embrace into the internal infinite love of the Absolute that is always there. Such a profound, beautiful experience.
Sashtang Dandavat and embraced by the Divine
Earlier in the Retreat during the Practitioner Training part, Sree Maa Shri Ji also explained in great detail about the value and energy dynamics of prostration, a moment to slow down and move towards Stillness. There were some who were hesitant, but no one was ever forced or coerced.
i personally felt no hesitation and had a most profound experience one time when bowing down in Sashtang Dandavat touching Sree Maa’s Lotus Feet. i completely lost awareness of the body even the floor disappeared and just felt this most powerful and magnificent Presence and some sort of merging happening, it is really hard to put into words. Sree Maa Shri Ji also explained when you touch the Feet of your Guru and when you get up and are embraced by the Guru that is the biggest Blessing of Welcome to this Abode. Forever Grateful to Sree Maa Shri Ji for embracing this meritless soul and accepting me into Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Fold.
At some point, Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with the opportunity to release our unconcious acts and it got very hot in the room. We had lit up our own fire, releasing countless unconcious acts - swa ahuti Sree Maa called it. Here you can listen to my sharing afterwards where i cried when Sree Maa Shri Ji came and hugged me, felt like finally have come Home. Forever grateful to beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji _/\_
Akarmi deh names
Sree Maa Shri Ji graced us with a akarmi deh Initiation and with new names, akarmi deh names, to help us settle into the non-doer a bit better. We all looked with excitement at the board where the new names were written. i had seen the name Ekta written there, meaning Unity, and was drawn to it but part of me also felt it was too ‘big’ a name. All the names were the virtues of Brahmn and calling each other by that name would remind us of that quality. Beautiful names included Simran, meditation or remembrance of God, Mahima, meaning Glory to remember the Glory of God, Archita, the one who is surrendered to God as the Brahmn is always surrendered to Bhagwan. Really felt grateful to receive the precious name Ekta and made a sankalp within to honour it the best i could.
Interestingly, at this same Retreat and afterwards i got the opportunity to do just that. When i arrived at the Retreat, some of the FiTs invited me to their rooms to catch up, have a little chat. Even though i felt a little tired as i had flown from Europe to New Zealand, i decided to come. As i was listening, i noticed how one of them, Jeeya, would talk about others and not always in a favourable way, basically she was gossiping. After a while i did not feel comfortable and left saying i was tired and wanted to sleep. Later on, i confided with Archita that i didn’t like the gossiping. What i should have done was stood up right there and then and said something about it. Sree Maa told me to reflect and then apologize to everyone as i had come from separation and thought that i was ‘better’. Was very grateful to Sree Maa for pointing this out to me and giving me to chance to see through the subtleties of the ego and its arrogance. Only someone who is your true Well-Wisher would go to this extent to make sure your Atma is honoured and the ego is dissolved.
i know for sure that the one who walked into the door is not the one who left the Retreat – all only by the Grace and Shakti of beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji. Sada Aapki Abhaari Rahungi Sree Maa Shri Ji _/\_